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Program Code: IIW017139A
01:50 JB: This is It Is Written. I'm John Bradshaw.
01:52 Thanks for joining me. We both know that there are some things
01:55 in life that we are going to experience no matter what.
01:58 And some of those experiences we wouldn't choose to experience
02:02 if we had a choice. But many of them, we don't have a choice.
02:06 One of them is grief. Grief hurts, it's painful, and you're
02:12 going to experience sooner or later. That's just the way life
02:16 goes. But what is grief, and how do we deal with grief, and what
02:20 should a person do --what could a person do, when grief strikes
02:24 close to home? Well, I'm blessed to have with me in the studio
02:27 today a good friend, Mike Tucker. Pastor Mike Tucker who's
02:31 the speaker and director of Faith for Today, a Christian
02:34 ministry. You may well have seen Pastor Tucker hosting Lifestyle
02:38 Magazine or leading out in one of his "Mad About Marriage"
02:42 Seminars. Mike Tucker, thanks for joining me today.
02:44 Mike Tucker: It is a joy to be here with you, John. Thank you.
02:47 JB: I'm going to start at the beginning. What's grief?
02:50 How do we define that?
02:51 MT: Grief is an emotional, psychological, physical reaction
02:55 to any experience of loss. It can be loss through death, loss
02:59 of a job, loss of a body part --anything else in your life
03:03 that is significant, there may be a grief response to it.
03:06 JB: Now, one of the reasons I'm speaking with you is because
03:08 you're a trained counselor. MT: Um-hmm. JB: A licensed marriage
03:12 therapist, family expert. And you have some experience with
03:17 grief as well, and we're going to talk about that in just a
03:19 moment. Grief is just one of those things that everybody is
03:23 going to experience. MT: Everyone. You don't get out of
03:24 life without grief. And most of your viewers have already had
03:28 some experience with grief. To what degree? That varies
03:32 according to life experiences. But everyone gets it. Everyone
03:36 has it. Some people think that Christians shouldn't grieve.
03:39 That's just a misnomer. You have to grieve. Everyone grieves.
03:41 JB: Now, there are certain things that you might ought
03:43 to do when grief comes. MT: Yeah. JB: We'll talk about
03:45 those soon. MT: Sure. JB: So before we explain it.
03:49 There's probably ways you can equip yourself
03:50 to deal with grief before it comes. MT: Um-hmm.
03:53 JB: Okay. MT: Yeah, especially if you see a loss
03:56 coming, you can engage in what we call anticipatory grief:
03:59 being willing to go ahead and experience those tears, and
04:02 trying to anticipate what life will be like without them. But I
04:05 think beyond that is a matter of keeping relationships healthy,
04:09 and keeping yourself personally health: physically fit, with
04:13 positive relationships and a positive faith. But having an
04:16 appropriate picture of the nature of God, his personality,
04:20 his character --what he has promised you, what he has not
04:23 promised you --will actually help prepare you for grief.
04:25 JB: Okay, now, so you can grieve about different things. MT: Yeah
04:27 JB: I could, I could lose a cherished possession. MT: Yes.
04:32 JB: I can grieve that. MT: Um-hmm. JB: Okay, what are the
04:35 inappropriate ways to deal with grief? What are the grief
04:38 mistakes that people often make? MT: Some people try to stuff it
04:42 or ignore it, act like it's not there. They will deny it. Other
04:48 people will try to out-medicate it, out-drink it, something of
04:52 that nature. Some people will try to outwork it. They just
04:55 won't give expression to the pain by crying. They won't allow
04:59 themselves to do those things. Those are all inappropriate
05:02 ways. Another inappropriate way would be to build a shrine to,
05:05 to that which is lost. You know, sometimes people build a shrine
05:09 in their home to a person who's died, and for years on, no one
05:13 can touch that. You know, to do something like that temporarily
05:16 may be understandable. But when you do this and it lasts for
05:19 years, that can be another inappropriate way to deal with
05:22 it. But just a refusal to deal with the pain, to give
05:25 expression through tears, through talking --those are all
05:28 inappropriate responses. JB: As a pastor I speak from time to
05:31 time with people who will tell me, "Oh, I'm doing fine."
05:33 MT: Yeah. JB: Or, or they'll tell me, "I'm not doing
05:36 fine." I'll dig a little deeper and... MT: Um-hmm.
05:38 JB: ...you know, "It's been six weeks since my loved one died,
05:42 and I find myself still weeping, and I just wish I was...."
05:46 That's just not realistic, is it?
05:47 MT: No, it's not. The average recovery time for a
05:49 significant loss is one to two years, although you can grieve
05:51 actively for up to five years and not be pathological with
05:54 that grief. And even when we talk about recovery, that
05:57 doesn't mean that you won't ever cry again. It doesn't mean you
06:00 won't miss that person again. That will be a part of your
06:03 experience for the rest of your life, especially with a
06:05 significant loss. But it may mean that you come to the point
06:08 where it's not the first thing on your mind every morning when
06:10 you wake up, and the last thing you think about before you go to
06:13 bed, when you finally get to that point of recovery, so that
06:16 you can function more normally. JB: I think it's important for
06:18 people to know what's normal... MT: Yeah. JB: ...what's
06:20 acceptable, so that they don't think they have a problem they
06:23 don't have. I remember asking my wife's grandmother --Grandma was
06:30 around 80 at the time, and I discovered that she'd had a baby
06:35 girl. She raised three or four boys. I should know whether it's
06:39 three or four, shouldn't I? MT: [Laughs] JB: And she gave birth
06:42 to a little girl who died very, very young, as an infant. And so
06:46 this loss that she'd experience had been about 60 years before,
06:52 55 to 60 years before. And I said to her, "Grandma, you had a
06:56 daughter. I never knew that." And she said, "Yes, I -" and
07:01 just from out of nowhere, her voice choked and tears came.
07:05 MT: Yeah, yes. JB: Fifty-five to sixty years later, she was
07:08 grieving a loss. MT: Um-hmm. JB: That's normal, isn't it?
07:10 MT: Yes, it is normal. There's nothing wrong with that. Because
07:13 this is an impactful experience for your life. You never get
07:17 over, truly, the loss. You, you may be more comfortable with it;
07:21 you may be able to function again. But you may have tears
07:24 over this loss for the rest of your life. JB: Let's say
07:27 somebody is a secretary working in an office situation. MT: Yeah
07:30 JB: Well, it doesn't have to be a secretary. It could be a
07:32 departmental director. Or a guy works in a factory.
07:35 MT: Uh-huh. JB: So you're surrounded by
07:37 people. You've got to go back to life. You're putting in your
07:39 eight to ten hours a day. MT: Um-hmm.
07:41 JB: But grief is just all over you, and grief begs expression.
07:48 What's the right thing for people to do?
07:50 MT: Well, the right thing for you to do if you're the person
07:52 experiencing this is to recognize that your tears are
07:55 going to come, and that's okay. And when they come, don't make
07:58 an apology for them. Just allow it to happen. And if the people
08:01 around you are savvy and they are, they are understanding,
08:05 then they're going to accept that, and it's going to be
08:06 normal. So I would say, make sure that you give yourself
08:10 ample room for, for mistakes. You make sure you double-check
08:14 your work. Take frequent breaks if possible. Um, and then don't
08:18 be afraid to give expression to the pain. Don't be afraid to
08:21 cry, and don't be afraid to tell the stories, because that's all
08:24 a part of the process. JB: So, to experience grief and to
08:29 internalize grief, to express grief, is all appropriate and,
08:33 and fine. MT: It is. JB: But when's a person going too far?
08:37 I know, this may, it's going to differ from person to person.
08:41 MT: It will. JB: And, uh, you get the very unthinking people
08:44 who say, "Are you not over that already? It's been six months."
08:48 MT: Yeah. JB: That's the last thing you want to say to a
08:50 person. When is expressing grief become --when does that become
08:53 too much? MT: To give a timeline or a specific answer to that is
08:57 difficult. But there comes a time when grief no longer
08:59 becomes an expression of your pain, but becomes a monument to
09:03 self-pity. Sometimes we can like the negative attention we get
09:07 from the expression of pain. And again, that may not happen the
09:10 first year. It may not happen until after that. But there
09:14 comes a time when you realize that you, you're doing nothing
09:16 but grieving. And you're telling the stories; you're crying with
09:19 every event. Everything becomes about your loss. That becomes
09:22 very selfish and it becomes rather myopic. And so, to learn
09:27 that there are appropriate times to give expression to this, and
09:29 there comes the time when you actually have to say goodbye to
09:33 the relationship that used to be, and withdraw that emotional
09:36 energy, and no longer make this a monument to you and to your
09:39 self-pity, but, instead, begin to celebrate the life that was,
09:43 and celebrate the things that you had. Again, that's going to
09:46 vary for every person, but there does come a time when it's
09:49 appropriate to do that. JB: Now, you're speaking to this
09:52 subject... MT: Yes. JB: ...from first-hand experience.
09:55 MT: Absolutely. JB: We're going to talk about that in just a
09:57 moment. More with Pastor Mike Tucker and grief when we
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11:44 JB: This is It Is Written. I'm John Bradshaw. Thanks for
11:47 joining me today. My guest is Pastor Mike Tucker from
11:50 Faith for Today. Mike, we've been talking for a few moments
11:53 about grief. We alluded to your personal experience with grief.
11:57 MT: Um-hmm. JB: Tell me more about that.
11:58 MT: Recently I've had the biggest loss of my life.
12:02 My wife of forty years, Gayle Tucker, passed away. You know,
12:07 we were partners in ministry. Uh, we had worked together as
12:11 pastors and in television ministry for forty years.
12:15 Everything I did was intricately involved with her. JB: It wasn't
12:18 really a matter of Mike Tucker. MT: No. JB: It was Mike and
12:22 Gayle. MT: Mike and Gayle. JB: Mike and Gayle. Mike and Gayle.
12:24 MT: Mike and Gayle. Everything we did. Television, marriage
12:27 seminars, pastoral ministries. She was a pastor as well. So
12:30 every aspect of my life was intricately involved with her.
12:32 She was my very best friend. We were traveling all over the, the
12:36 world doing marriage seminars, among other things. And we were
12:39 in Vancouver, British Columbia, when her right hand started to
12:42 go numb. She thought she had slept on it wrong. But by
12:47 Saturday afternoon when we were doing a marriage presentation,
12:49 her right hand would work so poorly that she had to hold the
12:52 microphone in her left hand for three and a half hours making
12:54 the presentation, because she knew it would fall to the floor
12:57 if she held it in the right. I said, "This is wrong, we got,
12:59 I've got to get you to the hospital." She said, "Wait till
13:01 we get back in the country, tomorrow," which would be March
13:04 6. I said, "Okay." So we flew to Dallas, and when we landed, I
13:09 said, "Now, which hospital do you want me to take you to,
13:11 because you're not going home." And so she told me which
13:13 hospital, I took her there, and immediately they diagnosed
13:16 strokes. When is insane to me, because the woman was so active.
13:20 She was not overweight, no cholesterol. I mean, no risk
13:24 factor for stroke. JB: The picture of health.
13:26 MT: Absolutely. She played volleyball every week with a
13:29 group of ladies she'd play volleyball with for over 20
13:31 years. And it took another week and a half of testing to figure
13:33 out that she had stage four pancreatic cancer that had
13:37 already metastasized to her liver. And the liver, one of the
13:41 side effects of liver cancer, can be a condition they call
13:44 "sticky blood," which means it was creating blood clots in her
13:47 body, and when those broke apart it went to the brain, and that's
13:50 where the strokes came from. The stroke was a symptom. She was
13:53 going to die of pancreatic cancer. JB: Now, if you don't
13:57 mind. MT: Please. JB: She was going to die. MT: Yes. JB:
14:00 Pancreatic cancer typically is a one-way street. MT: Yes, it is.
14:03 JB: But... MT: Yeah. JB: People can be healed. MT: Yes. JB: God
14:07 is a great God. MT: Yes. JB: You know God well. MT: Absolutely.
14:11 JB: You have for many years. MT: Um-hmm. JB: But you felt then
14:14 --how did you process that? Were you living on hope, were praying
14:16 for her to be healed, or how quickly did you get to
14:20 resignation, I think we're going to lose her? MT: You know, I, I
14:23 was realistic enough to realize that unless God performed a
14:27 miracle, I was going to lose my wife. And she knew that as well.
14:30 I've worked as a chaplain in hospitals for years. I've done,
14:35 I've seen enough of this. I've worked with hospice patients. I
14:37 know, and she knew as well, that unless God intervened, we were
14:41 going to lose her. And she was ready. She was, she was okay
14:46 with that. She wanted to be healed. We had an anointing
14:48 service, as is called for in James. And we, we had a prayer
14:52 for healing, believing fully that God could heal her. Because
14:54 I, like you, have seen miraculous healing. JB: Sure
14:58 And so I knew that God was capable. But I also know, and
15:01 knew, that God might say no. At least, right now. Every prayer
15:06 for healing is answered yes. Sometimes immediately.
15:08 Sometimes over time with prayer and medicine and surgery. And
15:12 sometimes the healing will take place resurrection.
15:14 JB: That's right. MT: We asked for option
15:16 A or B, but we're willing to accept option C.
15:19 And so yes, I knew that this was a real
15:22 possibility, and she did too. So we prepared for the worst while
15:25 hoping for the best. JB: You said Gayle was okay with that.
15:29 MT: Yeah. JB: Tell me, if you wouldn't mind, what she went
15:33 through. There's your wife of 40 years, someone--everyone who
15:37 knew her, loved her. So you weren't alone in that. MT: Yeah.
15:41 JB: How does a person take that kind of news? Gayle at stage 4
15:45 pancreatic cancer. It's metastasized. We know the
15:47 chances are about this good. MT: Yeah, yeah. JB: How does a
15:50 person deal with that? MT: You know, obviously it was a big
15:53 blow to her. And it took her a while to just kind of digest
15:57 this. And when she began to realize it, I asked her, "Are
16:00 you angry? Are you frightened?" She said, "No." She said, "I've
16:04 had sixty years of immaculate health." And she had. I mean,
16:07 she was vibrate and healthy and active. And she said, "Some
16:11 people never get a day. I've had forty years of a wonderful
16:14 marriage, and some people never know that. I've had over forty
16:17 years of exciting ministry, fulfilling ministry. I've got
16:20 children and grandchildren and extended family and friends. And
16:23 some people never know any of that. For me to be angry that
16:26 that only lasted sixty years instead of eighty seems to be
16:29 somewhat ungrateful, and I'm not going to be ungrateful to my
16:32 Lord. I just thank him for what I've had." JB: Amen. MT: That
16:35 was her attitude. JB: Wow. MT: And she got that attitude early
16:38 on. She never experienced fear, because she knew her heart was
16:41 right with Jesus. She never experienced anger, because she
16:45 was grateful for what she'd had. And amazingly, I had already had
16:49 the same thoughts --which is strange for me, because,
16:52 truthfully, anger has always been my go-to emotion. But I'd
16:55 gone through a previous loss, a financial and a career loss, at
16:59 an early point. We lost our house. We lost our savings. I
17:02 thought I'd lost my career. I thought it was all over. And I
17:05 hadn't done anything. And my response was anger. Because at
17:08 the time I was giving 30 percent of my gross income to the
17:11 church. I was volunteering as a pastor while working in private
17:14 business. All sorts of exciting things were happening with the
17:17 church. It was growing like crazy. And my anger was, "God,
17:20 what did you want? Forty percent? I don't get it." I
17:23 thought because of my hard labor, my generosity, the
17:27 success of the ministry, that God owed me better than what he
17:30 gave me. And when I realized that anger comes when we think
17:33 we're getting less from God than what he owes us, then I began to
17:37 realize that I had sinned in my life by expecting something from
17:41 God he'd never promised. I confessed that to him, and he
17:44 forgave me. And I promised, by God's grace, I would make sure
17:48 my lived theology would be congruent with my expressed or
17:54 my preached theology. And that happened. So that when Gayle got
17:58 sick, I realized, I've had a blessing that was beyond what
18:02 most people ever experience. JB:So you weren't experiencing
18:04 anger either. MT: No anger either. In fact, it's been six
18:07 months since her death, and I'm still not angry. JB: Forty years
18:10 of marriage. MT: Yeah. JB: A catastrophic loss. MT: Yes.
18:14 JB: No anger. MT: No anger. There's incredible pain. JB:Sure
18:18 There's incredible emptiness and loneliness. There's, there's, I
18:23 cry at unexpected times. But no anger. Because God has not
18:26 shortchanged me one iota. He has given me more than what he ever
18:30 promised me. And so since he has given me more than what he
18:34 promised, I have no reason for anger, because most people never
18:37 experience what I've had. I celebrate what I've had. I miss
18:41 what I've had. But I'm not angry with God. JB: There's more.
18:45 We're going to come back to the story we began in just a moment.
18:48 Pastor Mike Tucker, we're dealing today with grief
18:51 --something we all must experience, and something that,
18:55 if it hasn't come near you, it will. Today's program very
18:59 important. We'll be back with more in just a moment.
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19:20 JB: It's an enormous shame when
19:22 people lose hope in God. But it happens. And it's happened to
19:25 some outstanding people. Think about John the Baptist and his
19:28 temporary discouragement. The cousin of Jesus had boldly
19:32 proclaimed, "Behold the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of
19:35 the world." But one day he sent some of his disciples to ask
19:38 Jesus, "Are you the coming one, or do we look for another?"
19:42 That's Matthew 11, verse 3. John had been convinced. But now he's
19:45 in prison, and Jesus, who he believed to be the Messiah,
19:49 hadn't got the Romans out of Israel, and hadn't got John out
19:52 of prison. John knew Jesus was the Messiah, but he let go of
19:57 faith and started to make judgments by what he could see.
20:00 John couldn't see too well. Jesus was the Messiah, still is.
20:04 And our difficult circumstances won't ever change that. I'm John
20:09 Bradshaw for It Is Written. Let's live today by every word."
20:17 JB: Thanks for joining me today on It Is Written. I'm
20:19 John Bradshaw. My guest today, from Faith for Today, Pastor
20:22 Mike Tucker. Mike, we're talking about your own experience with
20:25 grief. MT: Um-hmm. JB: A couple of moments ago you shared how
20:29 Gayle was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. We got about
20:34 to the place where she was accepting of this diagnosis and
20:38 ready for whatever God had for her. So what happened next?
20:41 MT: Well, you know, we got the diagnosis March 16 of 2016.
20:45 First symptoms March 3 to March 6, and then the diagnosis March
20:50 16. And so we began to examine our options. We were praying for
20:54 healing. But she wanted to be home. And so we took her home.
20:59 Started with home health, and eventually went to hospice when
21:02 it was appropriate. But basically, she wanted to get as
21:05 strong as she could and enjoy the time she had with her
21:07 family. So we started calling in family members. We had to limit
21:11 the number of friend visits because we have so many in the
21:14 area, and it was draining for her. JB: Sure. MT: And so, so
21:17 many I wanted to bring in, but I couldn't. But she just started
21:21 spending her days making sure that things were right between
21:24 her and the Lord, and that she spent as much time with her
21:26 children and grandchildren and siblings and her mother as
21:30 possible. And so there were days of joy and days of laughter. And
21:34 she entered into a coma on April 8, and then passed away April 10
21:40 She was, her daughters were by her side. I was with, with
21:44 her. One of the, the sisters were with her. She passed
21:47 peacefully while we were praying with her and touching her and
21:50 loving on her. And she fell asleep in Jesus on April 10 in
21:54 the afternoon, about 5:47 p.m. JB: Now, the first symptoms.
22:01 MT: Yeah. JB: March 3. MT: March 3, when her hand went
22:05 numb. JB: And then goodbye. MT: April 10. JB: Six weeks.
22:09 MT: Yeah. JB: There are couple of
22:13 questions I could ask at once. One is, that's really quick.
22:18 MT: Very quick. JB: From having your ministry
22:19 partner, your life partner, you're traveling together,
22:21 you're doing God's work. And she's, evidently, in full
22:24 health. MT: Full health. JB: Six weeks later she's gone.
22:27 MT: Yeah. JB: At the same time, Mike, that's not quick. Quick is
22:31 hit by a bus. MT: Yeah, yeah. JB: That's quick. MT: Yeah.
22:34 JB: So I wonder if you can talk with me about, about the
22:37 emotions that you experienced and how you dealt with, or how
22:40 you're dealing with... MT: Um-hmm.
22:42 JB: ...uh, losing a perfectly health wife, just like that.
22:46 Where does that take you? How do you wrestle with that?
22:50 MT: I wanted to be as strong as I could
22:51 around her. But I, I wept like crazy. Just trying to get my
22:55 mind around, anticipating what it was going to be like without
22:58 her, and just accepting the reality that unless Jesus
23:01 intervened, I was going to lose her. The things that I've been
23:03 trying to do is, is to think. When the thoughts come, I think
23:07 them fully. I weep when the, when the tears come. I talk
23:11 about it, I, I share my feelings with other people. I write about
23:15 it. Um, I pray about it. Those things are helpful. The other
23:20 thing I do is I walk. When I'm home, I walk anywhere from eight
23:23 to twelve miles a day. Those are prayer time for me, and it's
23:26 thinking time. It gives me the opportunity to focus on nothing
23:29 more than, than my loss and my God and, and my prayer time. And
23:34 those things have helped me. Talking with my family, talking
23:36 with friends, telling the stories over and over again. Not
23:40 just the stories of her loss and the death, but the stories of
23:43 our life together. JB: Sure. MT: Of meeting her, the first date,
23:47 you know, and the proposal. Telling those stories over and
23:51 over again are important to me. And then the stories of ministry
23:54 together, the different places we've been, the decisions for
23:57 Christ we've witnesses. Those are the things that are helping
24:00 me. And then being close to my family, just holding onto my
24:03 daughters, my grandchildren, and helping them grieve as well.
24:06 Those are the activities. But before Gayle died, she wrote a
24:10 letter to each of our children and to our two grandchildren. It
24:14 was a letter to be given to them about six weeks after the death.
24:17 By write I mean she dictated and I had to type, because her hand
24:20 didn't work and she had lost her sight by the end. And after she
24:23 finished that, she said, "I need to write a letter to you." I
24:25 said, "Well, we have no one to dictate that to. I mean,
24:28 basically, you're stuck. And what are you going to say to me
24:30 you haven't said every day for forty years anyway?" She said,
24:33 "You may be right." I said, "So, for argument's sake, what would
24:35 you say?" She said, "There's nothing to regret. We had a
24:39 great life together. Don't, don't beat yourself up for any
24:42 mistakes. No regrets. That's number one." And number two, she
24:45 said, "Live our life." That's what she wanted for me. Our life
24:49 has been faith, family and ministry. That's who we are,
24:56 that's what we've done. JB: I want to ask you this. No
24:58 regrets. MT: Yeah. JB: Easy to say. MT: Oh, yeah. JB: Easy to
25:02 say, no regrets. Hey, Mike, when I'm gone, have no regrets.
25:05 MT: Yeah. JB: Really? MT: Yeah. JB: Do you have any regrets?
25:07 MT: I really don't. You know, I've made mistakes. JB: Sure.
25:10 MT: I haven't been the perfect husband. But every time I think
25:13 of those things, I remember what she said. No regrets. That means
25:16 that she had forgiven me for any mistake, just as I've forgiven
25:18 her. JB: I think it's important to be able to look back on
25:21 mistakes made... MT: Yeah. JB: ...within the context. We're
25:23 human, we're going to make mistakes. MT: Yeah, absolutely.
25:25 She had an amazing memory. She could forget every mistake I
25:28 ever made. So why would I beat myself up over something that
25:32 she had forgiven me for? God has forgiven me, and he says he
25:35 remembers my sins no more. So for me to remember it and bring
25:38 it up seems foolhardy. JB: What I believe is that even when you
25:41 have some kind of catastrophe in your life, if you're a believer
25:45 in God, you can still see God's hand. MT: Yeah. JB: Right? Is
25:49 that right? MT: Yeah. JB: Did you see God's hand through this
25:52 process. MT: Yes, I did. JB: How do you see God's hand in what's
25:55 a disaster? MT: Yeah. The first place I see it is in the way she
25:59 died. She died as she lived. And when people saw the congruence
26:03 between what she lived and how she died, they were brought to
26:07 faith. Another way that I see this is that, even though we've
26:10 had a close-knit family, this has brought us even closer
26:13 together. My daughters and I are tight. And I, I don't make
26:17 decisions without them. But another thing is that as I've
26:21 given expression to my pain. I've written about it. I've
26:23 shared it openly from the pulpit. And when they see me
26:27 doing this, it gives them courage and gives them hope.
26:29 Those are some of the, just a few of the ways that I see God's
26:33 hand in this. JB: We just have a moment. Someone's experiencing
26:37 grief... MT: Yeah. JB: ...and it just seems like the end.
26:42 MT: Yeah. JB: Now, very obviously, one can go on,
26:47 because for six thousand years of human history people have...
26:49 MT: We've done so. JB: ...been going on. Yeah.
26:50 MT: We've done so. JB: What do you say
26:52 to that person who's grieving, uh, and just sees
26:56 blackness ahead? How can that person go on? MT: First of all,
27:01 this won't last forever. It will seem like it. But the darkest
27:04 part of it will not last forever. God has promised to be
27:07 a very present help in this time, even though at times he
27:10 seems even further away because of your pain. That's normal.
27:13 He's promised to get you through this. He will. JB: The Bible
27:16 promises us, in Psalm 30 and verse 5, "Weeping may endure for
27:22 a night, but joy comes in the morning." Is that your
27:27 experience? MT: It is. JB: Is there joy? MT: Yes, there's
27:30 still joy. It, it comes now in moments, and at times I see a
27:34 little bit more of it. I see it in my grandchildren; they're 3
27:37 and 5, and when they want to come play with Papa. They miss
27:40 Grammie like crazy and they cry, but they like to play with Papa,
27:44 and I see the joy of life in their eyes. That's joy for me.
27:48 When I preach and I see people respond to a message, that's joy
27:51 to me. When they respond to the television programs, I have joy
27:55 there. I have joy with my daughters. There's still joy in
27:58 life. It's mitigated with the pain, but there's still joy. And
28:03 I know that God has even more joy for me in the future.
28:06 Eventually there'll be more. JB: Pastor Mike Tucker, this has
28:08 been a big deal. Thanks for joining me today.
28:11 MT: My pleasure. JB: Truly appreciate it. Thanks.
28:12 Let's pray together. MT: Sure. JB: Let's pray.
28:15 Our Father in heaven, we're going to be honest with you
28:16 and tell you, we wish there was no such thing
28:19 as grief. We don't like loss. Human beings weren't created to
28:23 grieve. When you created this earth, death wasn't on your
28:27 agenda. [piano in background] JB: But an enemy hath done this.
28:31 We thank you today that the Bible encourages us, "Greater is
28:35 he that is in you than he that is in the world." And so we will
28:40 take our strength in you and trust that, when life's
28:43 difficult circumstances come, you'll get us through; that
28:47 weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.
28:51 Thank you, Lord, for allowing Mike to be here today and share
28:54 his experience. Continue to bless him and use him in a
28:57 powerful way to offer hope, and hope in Christ to many. And
29:02 bless us. Friend, if you're going through a difficult
29:04 experience now, would you yield your heart to Jesus? Just pray,
29:08 "Lord, take my heart and make it yours." Let that be your prayer.
29:12 Lord Jesus, take my hand. Give me your peace. Give me faith and
29:18 trust in you always. Lord, we thank you for answering our
29:21 prayer and keeping us close to you. In Jesus' name, Amen.
29:28 Thanks for joining me today. I'm looking to seeing you again next
29:31 time. Until then, remember, "It is written, 'Man shall not live
29:35 by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the
29:40 mouth of God.'"