Participants: Tim Parton
Series Code: TDY
Program Code: TDY017001A
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00:01 I want to spend my life
00:07 Mending broken people 00:12 I wanna spend my life 00:18 Removing pain 00:23 Lord, let my words 00:30 Heal a heart that hurts 00:34 I wanna spend my life 00:40 Mending broken people 00:45 I wanna spend my life 00:51 Mending broken people 01:26 This is my desire 01:31 To honor You 01:37 Lord, with all my heart 01:41 I worship You 01:47 All I have within me 01:53 I give You praise 01:58 All that I adore Is in You 02:10 Lord, I give You my heart I give You my soul 02:17 I live for You alone 02:20 Every breath that I take 02:24 Every moment I'm awake 02:27 Lord, have Your way in me 02:31 Lord, I give You my heart I give You my soul 02:38 I live for You alone 02:42 Every breath that I take 02:45 Every moment I'm awake 02:49 Lord, have Your way in me 02:57 I pray that's your desire at home, 02:58 I would like for you to sing along 03:00 as I worship the Lord. 03:02 Lord, I offer my life to You 03:06 Everything I've been through 03:10 Use it for Your glory Lord, I offer my days to You 03:17 Lifting my praise to You 03:21 As a pleasing sacrifice 03:27 Lord, I offer You my life 03:33 Sing unto Him. 03:35 Oh, Lord, I offer my life to You 03:39 Everything I've been through 03:43 Use it for Your glory Lord, I offer my days to You 03:50 Lifting my praise to You 03:54 As a pleasing sacrifice 04:00 Lord, I offer You my life 04:06 Lord, I offer You my life 04:23 I'm so thankful 04:24 that you have afforded me the privilege 04:28 to come into your home or wherever you are right now 04:33 as we sharing and praising our savior 04:38 and in loving Him and learning to praise Him 04:41 and just show our gratitude for all that He is. 04:47 I want to focus over the next few minutes 04:51 on the trust and obedience 04:55 that the Lord would have us 04:58 to have in our relationship with Him. 05:01 You know, relationships are about trusting 05:04 and so, I wanna, I wanna kind of meditate on that 05:08 as we sing songs and share testimonies 05:12 about trusting and obeying. 05:16 I was recently involved in a Sabbath school lesson 05:19 that talked about. 05:21 Jesus gained the confidence of the people 05:25 that He surrounded Himself with. 05:30 And when we have confidence, we can begin to trust people. 05:35 So this is a hymn that as we study, 05:39 ponder those thoughts, and those themes. 05:43 These are songs that you will know hopefully. 05:47 And I want you to sing along 05:48 and hopefully they will build your trust 05:50 and your confidence in our precious Lord. 06:04 'Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus 06:09 Just to take Him at His word 06:15 Just to rest upon His promise 06:21 Just to know, "Thus saith the Lord" 06:28 Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him! 06:33 How I've proved Him o'er and o'er 06:40 Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! 06:46 Oh, for grace 06:49 To trust Him more! 06:56 Oh, how sweet to trust in Jesus 07:01 Just to trust His cleansing blood 07:07 And in simple faith to plunge me 07:12 'Neath the healing, cleansing flood! 07:22 Yes, 'tis sweet to trust in Jesus 07:28 Just from sin and self to cease 07:33 Just from Jesus simply taking 07:39 Life and rest, and joy and peace 07:46 Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him! 07:51 How I've proved Him o'er and o'er! 07:58 Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! 08:04 Oh, for grace to trust Him more! 08:19 I'm so glad 08:21 I learned to trust thee 08:25 Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend 08:30 And I know that thou art with me 08:36 And You will be with me to the end 08:42 So I sing. 08:44 Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him! 08:49 How I've proved Him o'er and o'er! 08:56 Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! 09:02 Oh, for grace to trust Him more! 09:13 Oh, for grace to trust Him more! 09:48 When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word 09:54 What a glory He sheds on our way! 10:00 While we do His goodwill He abides with us still 10:05 And with all who will trust and obey 10:14 Trust and obey, for there's no other way 10:19 To be happy in Jesus 10:24 But to trust and obey 10:35 Not a burden we bear, not a sorrow we share 10:41 But our toil He doth richly repay 10:46 Not a grief nor a loss, not a frown or a cross 10:52 But is blest if we trust and obey 10:59 So trust and obey, for there's no other way 11:05 To be happy in Jesus 11:09 but to trust and obey 11:17 But we never can prove the delights of His love 11:22 Until on the altar we lay 11:28 For the favor He shows, for the joy He bestows 11:34 Are for them who will trust and obey 11:42 And then in fellowship sweet we will sit at His feet 11:49 Or will walk by His side in the way 11:54 What He says we will do, and where He sends we will go 12:00 Never fear, only trust and obey 12:08 So trust and obey, for there's no other way 12:13 To be happy in Jesus 12:17 But to trust and obey 12:22 Trust and obey 12:43 Yeah, that's the key to trust and obey. 16:53 Sweet. 16:54 I have a precious friend 16:56 who I have spent a lot of time with 17:02 because I work with her in the same building. 17:05 Lucky you. 17:07 And I live in the basement and so it's fun. 17:11 Her husband and she have been, 17:15 they have hosted many a dinner. 17:18 Really, I have been uninvited. 17:20 Well, sort of, invited. 17:22 Okay, sort of invited but... 17:23 But I hollered at the basement, "Tim, supper's ready." 17:25 Right, yeah, well, there's that. 17:27 So that is, I have found of, 17:30 you have become such a Christ like. 17:33 I'm talking about trust and confidence 17:36 and it's wonderful to have a friend like you. 17:39 And that exhibits 17:41 what that trust relationship with Christ is 17:45 even that's just a earthly rendition of it 17:48 but I really mean that. 17:50 And so, and I'm really proud of you. 17:52 If you know E.T. those of you watching, 17:55 if you have ever had the privilege of meeting E.T., 17:57 you will know for her to have set here 17:59 over this past few minutes 18:01 without saying anything and hardly even moving. 18:05 This is quite an accomplishment. 18:06 So, I'm really, really proud of you. 18:08 Well, it's really enjoyable, 18:09 you know, how I feel about your playing. 18:11 So, and, your's probably humbled 18:13 by that as I am by the things you said to me. 18:16 But it's a real pleasure for me to sit here 18:18 and listen just to absorb. 18:20 I think I had my eyes closed, 18:22 I hope I didn't think people I was asleep, 18:24 but I just was absorbing what I was feeling. 18:27 And so blessed by the gift that God has given you 18:29 and also to have you as a friend, 18:32 and a mentor, and a peer, 18:34 and so many things that we have developed in our relationship. 18:38 God took a long time to do that 18:39 and I'm very thankful for that, too. 18:40 Wow, as am I. 18:42 I have been coming 18:45 to the sound center for many years. 18:48 Sixteen. Sixteen. Recording. 18:50 Yeah, 16, 17 years 18:52 and there wasn't a time that I came, 18:57 that I didn't hear a story that you had... 19:03 Just 'cause I talk a lot, there's always noise. 19:05 Well, but they were stories of how God 19:07 had showed Himself mighty in ways that 19:12 they weren't parting the Red Sea, they weren't, 19:17 they weren't the miracles that you read in the Bible, 19:19 they were God's hands and feet on earth 19:23 that were and they were personal. 19:26 Personal. 19:27 And, but the thing that I love about 19:28 it is the fact that you saw a God in them 19:32 and that you heard God's voice through them, 19:34 through those opportunities, 19:37 and I'm getting to the place 19:39 where I want to ask you to share a testimony 19:45 that you shared with me recently 19:47 and I love it, I love it. 19:49 Well, it kind of tells on myself 19:51 so, you like to tell on myself in front of the TV camera, 19:54 will do that, 19:55 but it's been a few years back but... 19:59 I went through a stage in my life 20:00 where I was pursuing God to hear Him, 20:06 to understand Him, to feel Him, 20:09 for Him to be interactive or me to be interactive, 20:12 how we want to put it in my life 20:14 rather than just attending church 20:18 and reading His word, 20:20 I wanted to feel Him, I wanted to know Him. 20:23 I don't know that I wanted Him to know me 20:25 even though He knows me, 20:27 the reality of me, but I desired that closeness, 20:31 and at the same time I'm little scared of that. 20:35 But anyway, in one of the times I was attending a church 20:39 and pastor was a young pastor 20:43 and I was working in the music with him. 20:44 And his sister was married to a gentleman 20:49 that was not a Christian at that time. 20:51 And he was in a really bad car wreck 20:54 and they had taken him over to in a different state 20:57 to the hospital. 20:58 And he was on life-support, they didn't know if he was, 21:01 you know, the prayer request for, 21:02 the phones were busy, 21:03 the emails were busy with information, 21:05 please pray, please pray that he even survive 21:09 and that he is, you know, mind is clear, 21:12 and of course the family was frantic, 21:14 and I just got this real urge 21:18 to show up. 21:21 I'm not much to drive by myself 21:23 especially in cities and it was in the city. 21:25 I can't tell you that it was God 21:27 telling me to go but I had an urge to go. 21:30 I look at it now and I can see a lot of me in the picture. 21:34 But I just wanted to be a value. 21:40 I had a pastor say one time, 21:41 "99, and 99, and 100% of everything we do, 21:45 we do for ourselves." 21:47 And I remember arguing in my mind, 21:49 "Oh, no, I did that and it was for, I did that," 21:52 and then he stopped and said, 21:53 "Now, let's stop and look at that." 21:54 I'm not saying it's bad, 21:56 but when you do things for others, 21:57 how does that make you feel? 21:59 So, in a sense you reap from those actions 22:04 that feeds the needs in you. 22:06 So I began to understand what he was saying was right. 22:09 So I'm not sure what my motive was there, 22:11 if I needed to prove myself 22:15 worthy of big in ministry, 22:19 if I needed to impress the pastor or his family, 22:22 I don't, I didn't examine that. 22:24 All I knew was I was gonna take my Bible, 22:27 and I was gonna drive an hour and fifteen minutes 22:29 to this hospital, 22:30 and I was gonna go in that room 22:32 and I was gonna speak the Word of God 22:33 and things were gonna change. 22:35 That was my desire and there was an urgency, 22:37 and I got together, and I got my Bible, 22:40 and I even know opened up the word 22:41 and found some little spots 22:42 and stuck some little pieces of paper in there. 22:44 So I wouldn't be stumbling through the pages 22:46 trying to find the scriptures 22:47 that, you know, that pertain to what was going on. 22:50 And I started to leave 22:52 and I don't know even how to say this. 22:53 People say, 22:55 "Well, I wish I heard God, I don't hear God." 22:58 I think that we each hear 23:02 the voice of His spirit in a different way. 23:04 When we say, "Hear God," 23:06 we want to put it in a fleshly way, 23:08 you know, like it's audible in our ears 23:10 but most of mine is, I feel a movement, 23:14 or I feel an urging, 23:15 or I see a picture of something or I don't hear, you know. 23:20 But this thought came flooding through my mind, 23:23 "Take the TriCounty Phone Book." 23:28 Very detailed thought which was in the kitchen, 23:31 you know, with the other phonebooks, 23:33 one of those bigger ones 23:34 that had several counties in it. 23:36 And I thought, "Well, that's stupid." 23:39 I mean, you know, I'm going and I've got my Bible, 23:42 I've got my scriptures, I am gonna go in 23:44 and I didn't say, "Save the day." 23:47 But in a sense, I kind of wonder now 23:49 that's not what was going on 23:51 because I did fight the idea of taking the phonebook. 23:54 Thinking what in the world 23:56 am I gonna do with the phonebook. 23:57 So being very stubborn, 24:00 I got my purse, I got my Bible, I got my coat, 24:02 and I went out of the door with no phonebook. 24:04 Walked down the steps, walked across the yard, 24:06 got in the car, shut the door and it was like this, 24:09 "Okay, you have a choice, take the phonebook," 24:12 you know, it wasn't like a discipline 24:15 but it was definitely a feeling of, 24:19 "I need to go get the phonebook." 24:22 So I get out of the car 24:23 and almost in defiance slammed the door, 24:25 went back in the house, picked up the phonebook, 24:28 walked back outside, got on the car, 24:30 put the seatbelt on, and started driving. 24:32 And the whole time I'm still focusing on, 24:35 "Okay, I know still God's gonna let me go in the room with him 24:38 and I'm gonna lay hands on him, and I'm gonna pray, 24:41 and pray in faith and believe in the word." 24:44 And not thinking anything of impressing people 24:48 or being the savior of the day. 24:51 Just a desire to reach out and help and be a servant. 24:56 So I get to the hospital, 24:57 I intentionally leave the phonebook in the car, 25:01 intentionally pick up the Bible, 25:02 my purse, and I go in. 25:03 Asked the attendant where the family was 25:05 and they were in a small room. 25:07 I can see the room, 25:08 yeah, there were three chairs this way 25:10 and then about eight chairs this way. 25:12 It was a narrow room 25:13 and the mother-in-law 25:15 and the daughter, which will be the wife, 25:18 and the brother, which is the pastor 25:20 were sitting in those three chairs 25:21 and then some other people 25:23 from the church were sitting along here. 25:24 About three chairs down there was an open chair, 25:26 so I plop down, put my coat down, 25:29 put the purse on the floor, and my Bible on the lap. 25:31 And the lady was, they were discussing, 25:33 and I asked how things were going 25:35 and things were not going well and I'm thinking, 25:38 "Do I ask or they just gonna ask or do you have, 25:40 you know, how's this gonna happen?" 25:42 'Cause it was in a situation 25:43 where you can only go in so often, 25:45 of course, family members were first 25:47 and I'm sitting, not a family member. 25:49 But I just know, and I'm anxious, 25:51 and I'm excited, and I'm nervous. 25:53 And so she's talking, she's crying, 25:56 she's talking to her mother, and out of her mouth, 25:59 I will never forget this, comes these words, 26:01 "I'll give anything 26:02 if had one of those area-wide phonebooks." 26:09 Well, I picked up my purse, 26:12 I left my Bible on the chair and my coat 26:14 and walked outside to the car, unlocked the car, 26:18 picked up the phonebook almost aggravated. 26:23 And I can feel God smiling the whole time like, 26:29 "You ask, you wanted to serve, you wanted to be used, 26:34 I tried to tell you what they needed 26:38 but you wanted to be my hero or heroin," 26:42 whatever you wanna call it, I would say it. 26:45 Got the phonebook walked back in, 26:46 walked in the room, 26:48 I didn't make a big deal of it 26:49 'cause I was still fighting with my own stubborn, 26:53 "How can you use this?" 26:54 I handed her the phonebook 26:56 and she grabbed the phonebook and says, 26:57 "Oh, I really need this 26:58 because there's always people I need to call and tell them 27:00 what's going on and I didn't." 27:02 It was before we had, I think there were cell phones 27:05 but they were the big bag phones 27:07 and it didn't have all the contact list 27:08 and all that, you know, 27:09 and she startled, stood heaven way, 27:12 thank you, thank you. 27:13 "Do you normally carry a phonebook in your car?" 27:15 And I just, I was too embarrassed 27:17 to even tell the story 27:19 because of my disobedience 27:20 or really not my complete disobedience, 27:22 with my stubborn and my attitude. 27:25 And I sat there, I never did go in, 27:27 I never did quote scripture or say a prayer. 27:31 But I saw what that brought to her. 27:34 She was able to reach people she needed to, 27:36 take care of babysitters, take care of things 27:39 that she needed to take care of. 27:42 And I started, it's been years 27:44 and I've gone over that story and over that story thinking, 27:47 "Why do I argue first? 27:50 Second, why do I think things have to look like God 27:54 or my definition of looking like God," 27:56 whether it be, "Okay, 27:57 I have to take the scripture or I have take a prayer, 28:01 but not a phonebook." 28:03 But if it really is, we talked about the song, 28:07 "I will serve thee and I'll go where you want me to go 28:09 and I'll do what you want me to do," 28:11 and you said it in these words of the songs you sang. 28:14 You know, before I was gonna sit here 28:16 and when you get to one of those words 28:18 and I smiled thinking, "I really want that 28:20 but I like to argue, I guess. 28:22 Or I wanted to look like you 28:24 or maybe I want people to think it looks like you." 28:26 Right, yeah. 28:27 Well, I think that's the thing we've talked a lot about. 28:30 What does God look like? 28:32 And if we think it's got anything to do with us, 28:35 we think, "Well, that can't be God." 28:37 Because He's much holier and royal 28:42 and there would be fanfare 28:44 and there would be scripture references. 28:47 Yeah, so I have to, I have to flow with that 28:51 evangelist I used to listen to, always said, 28:53 "We want to be able to go in 28:54 and, you know, be victorious and lay hands on people 28:58 and they'd be healed and they'd saved 29:01 and have victory." 29:02 But we don't have a victory 29:04 over sink full of dirty dishes at home 29:07 and I thought, "Oh, my goodness, 29:09 the simplicity 29:11 of being like Christ, 29:16 just doing what His father says, 29:19 He said, 'I don't do or say anything.'" 29:21 Right. 29:22 We read that this morning about 29:24 anything we say or do ought to be filtered 29:26 through the grace and mercy of God 29:29 before it comes out of our mouth or attitudes. 29:32 And, boy, I would talk a lot less 29:34 if that was the case, you know. 29:36 And because sometimes I forget how, 29:39 my friend uses the word mercy stick 29:41 but I need to get my mercy stick out 29:43 instead of my critical or my opinionated stick. 29:47 And I thank God for that event because it taught me, 29:52 even though I still have a tendency to 29:55 maybe not totally argue but question God, 29:59 "That can't be you, you wouldn't say that. 30:01 That can't be you, you wouldn't do that. 30:02 You wouldn't go there." 30:04 Forgetting that He knows my end before my beginning, 30:08 and He has this plan, 30:09 and He knows inside people, I don't. 30:14 Yeah. 30:16 And if I really trust Him, 30:17 which is what we're talking about, 30:20 so do I trust His voice, is it him, is it me? 30:23 Well, I can tell you for sure, 30:24 I wouldn't have thought about taking a phonebook. 30:26 You know, at times, I think 30:28 the things that sound more like, 30:30 "I wouldn't do," are God 30:33 which is probably good because then I think, 30:34 "Well, it's got to be You, 'cause it certainly wasn't me." 30:38 And I know I feel him, 30:40 sort of, laugh like, it'd be a lot quicker 30:43 and a lot simpler if you just do it 30:45 and get it over with. 30:46 But still, the patience that He's had with me 30:48 and growing me in this, 30:51 but I love that part of Him and His son, 30:56 and my savior, and His spirit 30:58 who gets down inside of people and touches a button 31:03 that they know that God knew and cared enough 31:08 to sent a servant or a messenger 31:11 with what they needed, 31:12 not what the messenger thought they needed. 31:14 Yeah. 31:16 With what, you can't deny that. Right. 31:18 That's a mystery and a little miracle 31:21 and you can't, I mean, her face, 31:23 when I put that her in lap, 31:25 I mean, it's one of those little things 31:26 I would like to capture with a camera, 31:28 so I can go back the next time, he speaks and says, 31:30 "Do this. Go back and look at that picture. 31:33 Remember," 31:34 because that was my conformation. 31:37 Why did I doubt you, God? 31:40 I believe, you know, I believe. 31:41 Right, yeah. That's it. 31:43 You made reference to a song "I will server thee". 31:48 And I just, I'd like for you 31:50 to just read the lyrics of that song. 31:54 It makes a statement, "I will serve Thee." 31:57 So there's a choice being made there. 31:59 And you're saying to God, "I will do that." 32:02 You know, because why? 32:04 I love Thee, I love Thee 32:07 because You have given, you've given life to me. 32:12 Do I want You to give life to others? 32:17 I was nothing. 32:19 I forget that sometimes. 32:23 Before You found me 32:25 but You have still given life to me. 32:30 I want You to give life to others 32:32 and I wanna be a vessel 32:34 that is Your hands and Your feet to do that. 32:39 Heartaches, broken pieces, 32:43 ruined lives 32:46 are why He died on Calvary. 32:49 That was me, but it's people around me too. 32:53 And do I want to be, 32:55 again, Your hands and Your feet, 32:57 Your words, Your grace, Your love, 33:01 Your touch, Your time, 33:04 all the things that You have allowed us 33:06 as human beings to do for each other that we desire. 33:11 But I wanna determine what that is 33:13 instead of letting You determine. 33:15 But again, You were the one that gave life to me. 33:20 On Calvary You touched me 33:23 and that's what we all longed for. 33:26 He's our father, creator, our lord, our savior, 33:29 our redeemer, our teacher, 33:31 our coach, our encourager. 33:36 And you have given life to me. 33:40 So what am I supposed to do? 33:42 Give life to others 33:45 to be, we talked about this a lot, 33:47 to be transparent. 33:50 Because when they look for God, they look through me. 33:53 And if I'm in the picture, they can't see God. 33:56 But if I'm transparent, 33:58 and His light shines through me, 34:01 then they can see God. 34:04 So we got to do it His way, 34:05 'cause He knows what He's doing. 34:09 I will serve thee 34:15 Because I love thee 34:22 You have given life 34:28 To me 34:33 I was nothing 34:38 Before You found me 34:45 You have given life To me 34:57 Heartaches 35:02 Broken pieces 35:07 Ruined lives 35:11 Are why You died 35:16 On Calvary 35:20 And Your touch 35:23 Was what I longed for 35:30 You have given life to me 35:41 For that I'm so grateful, Lord 35:48 You have given life 35:56 To me 36:03 Thank you, E.T. 36:05 Amen. 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