Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Barb Wise, Rick Wise
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR000055A
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00:11 Welcome to Celebrating Life In Recovery.
00:12 I'm Cheri your host! 00:13 Have you ever done something that you can't take back? 00:15 It is done, the consequences are here. 00:18 What does God do with that? 00:19 I think that it's exciting. 00:21 Come in and join us at the Café and I think you are 00:23 going to be so blessed on this one. 00:52 We talk about self-esteem, self image and I came off of 00:58 the streets and off of all that. 00:59 I started working in a mental health hospital. 01:02 I should have been a patient, but I wasn't. 01:04 I was working there. 01:05 I start to realize that people were talking about what 01:09 you think about and what goes through your head. 01:11 So I started to do some kind of research and at the time 01:15 they were saying that you need to have affirmations and 01:19 tell yourself some cool things. 01:21 Like somebody told me, Cheri just look in the mirror 01:25 and say, I am sweet. 01:27 I thought oh, gag me, and I hate to say that because 01:30 I can't even say that because it didn't work for me. 01:33 To some people sweet may sound good to them, 01:35 it didn't sound good to me. 01:36 It sounded crazy and then I realize that every time 01:40 I said something good, I am okay, I'm beautiful, 01:45 I'm whatever, I'm a woman. 01:48 I could say something, a simple truth, 01:50 and all of a sudden 01:51 my mind would be flooded with all these negative things. 01:54 What is really funny to me is that now I know there is a 01:57 research center a UCLA. 01:59 It is stories high, fifteen stories high and the entire 02:03 research Center is studying the brain and what we tell 02:07 ourselves, the things that we let just go into our minds. 02:12 We speak every minute about 150 to 200 words a minute. 02:17 Right? I could speak that much. 02:19 I probably could speak more than that, but! 02:21 But we think about 1300 words a minute. 02:25 So most of those thoughts, I'm going to ask you, 02:28 are most of them positive or negative? 02:29 Because it is really weird, I used to ask people, 02:31 in the mental health hospital that I worked in, pretend you 02:34 have a beeper on and every time you say something about 02:37 yourself that is not good, the beeper goes off. 02:40 I say, what does your beeper sound like? 02:42 Somebody said it's nonstop, it like lit up. 02:46 I'm thinking what if you are walking through a mall, 02:48 what would it sound like? 02:50 They said, nonstop again, it just would be lit up. 02:52 So the object, when I was in mental health, was to stop 02:56 the beeper from going off, to stop the negative thinking. 02:59 I thought that we could do that on our own. 03:02 What I realized is that we need to do that with God's help. 03:05 That our self image, our self talk, or self-esteem is 03:09 also a gift from God. 03:11 I can't figure it out, because I am so tweaked, 03:13 I'm just so tweaked. 03:17 Let me introduce my guest first and then I want to tell 03:21 you a story, Barbara Wise. 03:22 Thank you so much for being on the program. 03:24 - Thank you for having me here. 03:25 When I say that about our self talk, does that make sense? 03:29 What we tell ourselves - yes it does. 03:31 I deal with the self talk all the time and I have in my 03:35 past had all those messages going on, that I didn't even 03:40 realize until you have some big events in your life that make 03:43 you aware of all the negative things you are saying and 03:46 how much that is destroying all the joy that God has for you. 03:50 - totally destroyed - it just destroys you. 03:53 Somebody says, does it make a difference? 03:55 I was in Florida one time doing a youth event, and what 03:59 you tell yourself you're whole body will respond. 04:02 I was doing a youth event and I was the first speaker in 04:05 the morning and I'm getting up around seven o'clock 04:08 even earlier because the Sun hadn't got up. 04:10 In Florida, I had not been to Florida and there was a 04:12 camp ground in Florida, so it looks like I was in a jungle. 04:16 They had these big old tropical plants and I'm thinking 04:19 how cool is it and I are walking to where I am supposed 04:22 to talk and it felt like about a half a mile away. 04:26 It probably wasn't that far but I just felt like it was 04:28 and I was walking in this jungle thing and thinking this is 04:31 cool and the sun is not up, how amazing is this and 04:34 I am having a great time. 04:35 All of a sudden a lion about five feet away just roared, 04:41 and I'm thinking I'm going to be killed. 04:44 I didn't even know they had lions in Florida. 04:46 I could feel my whole, I feel my pupils dilate, 04:50 I could feel my heart just pounding. 04:52 I knew I was going to be ripped to shreds. 04:54 I'm walking and thinking this is so crazy, and I am an 04:57 addict, so I immediately think what do I do. 05:01 Do I throw myself on the ground? No, that's a bear. 05:04 If I throw myself down on the ground with a lion it 05:06 would just drag me away so I'm not doing that. 05:09 So I'm thinking of all the stuff and the only conclusion 05:12 I could came to is that I would pretend I didn't hear that. 05:15 So I kept walking, and then it roared again and 05:21 I thinking it is right there, it couldn't of been 05:24 5 feet away from me. 05:25 Behind a tree just right there. 05:27 I'm dying, by the time I got to were the building was I 05:32 am so freaked out I want to just get into the building 05:35 so that it wouldn't eat me. 05:37 So you know that eats the speaker and the teenager show 05:40 up and your ripped up on the porch, 05:41 it would just be disgusting. 05:43 I'm trying to get in and the door is locked and I'm 05:46 thinking are you kidding me? 05:47 I'm dying, I'm dying and the door is locked. 05:51 I'm thinking these poor kids and I'm going to be killed. 05:53 My heart is just pounding when all of a sudden somebody 05:56 pulls into the driveway in the parking lot and I run 05:59 over and it's this guy Martin. 06:02 He is this incredible speaker and he had invited me, 06:06 and I said, did you hear that? 06:09 Because it had just roared again, did you hear that? 06:12 What are we going to do, you didn't tell me there was lions. 06:15 I'm talking a hundred miles an hour and he starts laughing. 06:19 I'm thinking what are you laughing at? 06:20 This is not funny, this is not funny I'm having, this is 06:23 horrible, I'm dying here and I don't want to be killed. 06:27 I didn't realize I didn't want to be killed, 06:29 but when a lion is that close you realize that. 06:31 He starts laughing and says, Cheri, the zoo is right there. 06:34 I'm thinking oh man, so the lion is just 06:39 waking up, it's in a cage. 06:41 All of a sudden my self talk changed. 06:44 But I had one moment where I thought I was going to be 06:47 killed, the next moment I knew that we are all safe 06:49 and this is silly. 06:51 But most of us go through all our lives with this talk 06:56 that is horrible, I am not worth anything, if anybody 07:00 knew, and you leave that kind of underlying thing that 07:03 you tell yourself. 07:05 We don't think it affects us, 07:06 it affects every part of who we are. 07:08 There is a point in our recovery that I have to say God, 07:11 I don't even know the lies I told myself, I don't even 07:15 know what is going on with all that kind of stuff, but 07:18 as a gift from You, please start teaching me who I am. 07:22 Not who I think I am, not who other people think I am, 07:27 but who am I? 07:28 As soon as I started doing that, and God said you are 07:33 my child, you are incredible to Me. 07:35 Everything that I delighted in you are. 07:38 I want a relationship with you. 07:41 As I started letting that soak in, I could stand up in 07:47 the holy of Holies, in the presence of God 07:49 and belong there, live there. 07:51 You have blessed me in so many different ways, 07:56 so many different ways. 07:57 As a woman of God I want to say that I am glad you are here. 08:04 I know that your Ministry is powerful. 08:06 Let us know a little bit about where you came from, and 08:09 then we are going to do something 08:10 a little bit different. 08:11 I want to then step off of the set altogether and let 08:17 you do a presentation that I have seen and was blessed by. 08:20 I would like to have you do it for us and then 08:23 I'll come back and talk about that. 08:24 But who are you? Where are you from? 08:26 My name is Barbara Wise. 08:28 I'm from Denver Colorado and I have been sharing 08:33 my personal story for the last six years. 08:35 I have spoken to hundreds of thousands of young people, 08:39 all ages all across the country, in Europe. 08:43 It is really a message of how God sees me, 08:48 how God has said who I am in Christ. 08:51 It's not always how you have seen yourself. 08:53 Not always I've seen myself in Christ, I had a different 08:57 picture and because of the picture I had of myself, 08:59 and the thoughts I believed about myself and my identity 09:04 and who I was, I acted and made choices that just 09:08 lived out what I was thinking basically. 09:11 Now that Christ has helped me to see who I am, it just 09:17 started changing my thoughts and I keep my focus on 09:20 His love, and His view of me. 09:22 I can bring a very hopeful story, even though there is 09:27 all of these things in my story that may not seem 09:29 hopeful, there is so much hope. 09:31 And what's really fun when you even say that is I know there 09:35 is different parts in the Bible that I love and one of them 09:37 is this image, I think it is Zephaniah 3:17, 09:42 where it talks about, I sing over you at night. 09:46 I'm like stop, are you kidding me, You sing over me? 09:51 My husband is a musician so I am surrounded by musicians 09:54 and vocalists, but I never thought that God being so 09:59 delighted in who we are as His children, 10:02 that He can't stand first just to go to bed. 10:04 He says I want to tuck you in and sing over you. 10:07 I want you to feel that peace and the only thing that 10:10 stops us from feeling that is our own barrage 10:14 of negative stuff. 10:16 He says let Me take that from you. 10:18 Let Me, all the lies, all the stuff that the world has 10:21 said about you, all the stuff that even in a crisis 10:24 people are saying about you, let Me take that from you 10:28 and let Me speak into your life. 10:29 We're going to go ahead and break, I want to come back 10:34 Barb, and have you do the presentation that I have seen 10:38 you do, and you do all over the world and I want you 10:42 to be blessed by it. 10:43 This is one of those stories, journeys, testimonies that 10:48 when I heard it, it changed my life. 10:52 When I met them I just thought, I want everyone else to 10:57 go away I don't want to share their time at all with anybody. 11:00 But today we are going to share with you, 11:02 so stay with us we will be right back! |
Revised 2014-12-17