Celebrating Life in Recovery

Rest

Three Angels Broadcasting Network

Program transcript

Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Rene Quispe

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Program Code: CLR000116B


00:01 The following program discusses sensitive issues
00:03 related to addictive behavior.
00:05 Parents are cautioned that some material
00:06 may be too candid for younger children.
00:14 Welcome back.
00:15 I don't know about you but I think we've used
00:17 every clinics on set just because and your, your story
00:23 and your journey and, and the love God
00:26 is wakening up in your journey
00:28 back to each other it was so powerful.
00:31 I'd like to say Alvy, you know thank you for joining us.
00:37 The situation in the car, what was your take on that?
00:40 Like, you know because he's telling the story
00:43 that is just so amazing.
00:46 The take is the take again between light and darkness.
00:50 Remember we're at temple and we have a will
00:54 and our choice but we choose who will indwell us
00:56 and what's thought.
00:58 And those spheres are very observant
01:00 unaware of what is going on,
01:02 on everybody's heart and the dynamics.
01:05 So when-- everything is about reclaim Rene
01:09 so when he invites me to go with him he says,
01:14 I'm afraid and I'm ashamed but I will like to invite you
01:19 and right away that he was yeah, yes.
01:21 She said ashamed, he's like a--
01:22 well, what is she ashamed of what he's doing?
01:25 And what is the fear, the fear of rejection
01:28 and God tells me, tell him yes, because in truth his experience
01:32 in my spirit inside of him
01:35 and if you saying no to my spirit,
01:37 here that spirit will go out
01:40 and he will never open his heart again.
01:43 Wow. And so say, yes.
01:46 And when I said, okay, Laurie, yes and he comes
01:49 and gets, you know of this.
01:51 I didn't know what to say because as I'm walking
01:54 to the car the Holy Spirit wants me.
01:58 This is a spirit of life. This spirit of light.
02:01 This spirit of under distance everything is
02:03 to swine to restore unto us the fullness of God.
02:06 And he says because of what you said,
02:11 because you have so many memories that are very painful
02:16 that darkness the spirit of evil can pull that out
02:21 to destroy what I'm trying to create.
02:23 This even saying to you this moment
02:26 is so important, so sacred.
02:28 So sacred, yeah.
02:30 And he says, what so ever he's lovely,
02:33 what so ever he's pure,
02:34 what so ever he's beautiful speak of those things
02:37 and I said go Lord, there's nothing.
02:41 So what do you say? You know and I'm--
02:43 And so I to this for anybody that just to intent,
02:46 this is years of abuse, physical, verbal
02:51 and faithfulness somebody looking right at you
02:54 just an hour go saying get me something
02:56 to eat in a disrespectable way stormed in at the house
03:00 and God is saying whatever is pure, whatever was lovely.
03:04 So this is a really-- the battle is so you.
03:09 And this is what we're talking about believing
03:12 that there is light and there is darkness,
03:14 and to seen the light. amen.
03:17 Believing that he is deaf and there is life
03:19 and choosing life but this is all outside of us not in us,
03:23 it has to be given us as we receive as we give.
03:27 We can't strive for. No.
03:29 It's a gift. No.
03:30 And we don't receive it because we say okay,
03:32 I'll give you little bit.
03:34 When you have nothing to give to the other person,
03:38 nothing that is divining good you say to Lord,
03:42 and He just says, okay here I'm.
03:45 But we receive as we give.
03:47 And so this is a fantastic thing, this coaching.
03:50 There is a verse in Isaiah that says,
03:53 and you will hear a voice behind you
03:55 or somewhere that says to the right, to the left.
03:59 Jesus himself said when the spirit is come to you
04:05 he will coach you, he will teach you,
04:07 he will guide you in all things.
04:10 So you step by step by step by step
04:12 this divine coaching is so precious.
04:17 And so I getting to the car and I'm so excited
04:19 because I'm not alone, he's not--
04:23 I'm not dealing with Rene in the past,
04:25 I'm dealing with the God of universe.
04:29 And so I was so full of joy.
04:32 And I said oh, so thank you my love,
04:35 and I'm thinking the God of the universe
04:37 that is in Him right now.
04:40 And is in me and he's trying to restore all things
04:46 and I look around in Bakersfield where we live.
04:49 We live at the end of the San Joaquin Valley.
04:52 And we've the most contaminated air in the country.
04:58 And you don't see clearly
05:03 but the moon and the stars they were so bright.
05:06 That night, God said.
05:10 By faith maybe but that was the only beautiful thing
05:14 that I could talk about.
05:16 And I said did you see how beautiful the star,
05:19 the moon and I look at him, frozen.
05:24 And we continued and I said something else.
05:27 No answer, frozen.
05:28 Then comes this after him back and forth and there--
05:30 here again the great drama of darkness and light.
05:36 Darkness evil says, look at him he's a coward.
05:41 There he is so full of fear and shame
05:43 he did all the messes he always does.
05:45 And now he's gonna put he's hand right there.
05:49 Waiting for you to meet him
05:52 but he never going to apologize.
05:55 So women have dignity and when evil speaks
05:58 you feel the power of evil
06:00 creating evil things inside of you,
06:01 the hardening of the heart.
06:03 You can almost feel it physically all over.
06:05 All over emotionally, mentally and physically
06:08 and says women have dignity
06:10 and he play that when with me again and again.
06:12 Women have dignity and my neck went up.
06:16 The dignity it says don't even look
06:19 because you are too weak.
06:20 Look at the window and I look at the window.
06:22 That's a power and so and that is the beauty of life
06:29 and light that says Alvy, not that way.
06:33 I didn't take into account my dignity as God.
06:36 I put it aside and I humble myself
06:40 and I became a human being.
06:42 And I humble myself unto death even a death of a cross.
06:47 And I always went to me this sinner you do this thing
06:51 and as God the light in life spoke--
06:58 As God speaks like in creation He creates that in you.
07:03 So evil turns me away God like life turns me back
07:09 and with that joy and a love God in me infuses
07:13 that love to my pinky.
07:15 Amen.
07:17 I cannot-- Listening to here but I cannot overwhelm the guy.
07:22 No. I need to test.
07:24 If she would have taken my hand,
07:26 I probably would have taken out.
07:27 Too much. You see.
07:28 But she gonna playing with my pinky then.
07:32 And a beautiful thing when he didn't take the hand out.
07:36 It was the encouragement touch. Yeah.
07:40 But not only touch for the recovery
07:42 that they were reconnecting.
07:46 Yeah. Reconciliation. Was saying--
07:48 Lord, one day he will be filled with Your spirit.
07:53 You knew it. And You will make us one.
07:55 And he was so precious.
07:57 He knew nothing of this but the whole universe knew.
08:02 Amen. All of the angels. Okay.
08:04 And what it met at that moment he said I knew
08:06 and I had the faith and the belief
08:08 and there is nothing should we that produces such a deep peace
08:13 and rest as when you live in this relationship with God.
08:21 I love to say if moment by moment we can live
08:29 with the presence of God in the present
08:35 we have peace which is a peace that so repulse,
08:40 so fascinating understanding
08:42 because He's the presence of God
08:46 and now we have rest. amen.
08:49 And He's not only on this Sabbath day of rest
08:54 because if we don't learn to live in this peace
08:57 and rest through out 24x7
09:02 we will not have it on the day of rest.
09:05 All right. And this is so cool.
09:08 Where is my notepad, I need to write something's done.
09:11 And God said it very clear, you lose peace you lose me.
09:14 Yeah. Amen. Reconnect.
09:17 Don't fight, don't do anything, reconnect with me.
09:19 So here is Rene and God advices me,
09:24 coaches me, He's gonna take you back.
09:27 But you're my queen, you're My baby, you're My child.
09:31 Amen. You live to please Me.
09:33 So don't you allow to devil to make you feel like I'm out
09:37 and go boo hoo him back home.
09:39 You are not an abandoned woman, you're a cherish woman by Me.
09:45 You got to say that again.
09:47 Because you got to say that again
09:48 because somebody does go back and that victim thing and he--
09:51 the God didn't tell you that.
09:53 God said you need to remember who you are.
09:54 You are child of God, cherish by God.
09:58 It not only a child of God and cherish by God
10:03 as something that we intellectually know.
10:07 If you're having an experience of not knowing
10:11 how to do and to know that you're cherished.
10:14 I would like to say, lay down flat
10:17 wherever you're on the grass and the water
10:20 and your bed, on the carpet and say Lord, take me.
10:25 All that I've known is abuse or the street men your
10:29 physically, your emotionally, your disconnection.
10:32 I don't know You but I'm hearing something very weird
10:35 that You want to live inside of me
10:38 and I'm here, I'm coming, take over.
10:41 Take over and He's so good because I could go
10:44 in to the house, an empty house that has been a den of demons.
10:52 Of darkness entering in peace
10:56 and in joy with angels and light
10:59 and joy and celebrating because He's coming.
11:05 One day, my husband will be filled with God.
11:10 Amen. And it took quite some time.
11:16 So I want to say because Rene, once you said
11:19 it took quite some time so in the car
11:21 there wasn't this instantaneous change in the car.
11:25 But I would like you to take us
11:27 on the journey with the change.
11:28 What happened?
11:32 I didn't even understand what was going on in the car.
11:36 And but I did experience that reconnecting, you know,
11:41 first I want to put my arms around her and I was fearful
11:45 so eventually she was touching my hand
11:48 and grassing my hand and my arm.
11:51 And I felt something inside.
11:53 I cannot explain it, it is something beautiful
11:57 but it was just a feeling, you know,
11:59 and I know it was God's working it but God cannot--
12:04 usually would not change us
12:05 or what in an instant, He can do it.
12:08 But it's better if we learn to move step by step
12:12 into the new experience with God.
12:14 So it took me long time eventually I came back home
12:18 and it was not easy.
12:19 It was still very hard. Okay.
12:22 And it was very hard for Alvy and but we kept on
12:28 trying to move in the right direction.
12:30 And I began studying things.
12:33 I began preparing materials that would help me to change.
12:37 And I began connecting with God more and more.
12:41 And it took-- it still taking time now
12:43 I mean we're doing it now.
12:45 We're in recovery. I know. I love that.
12:47 We are in-- but that's the most
12:48 honest thing I think about recovery.
12:51 Is it not that we're going to away but a destination.
12:53 No, no. We're got to be honest day to day.
12:56 There is no graduation on this course.
12:58 Yeah. Absolutely.
12:59 You see no graduations so let's keep them going.
13:01 And we now as but we try to be very faithful
13:04 in taking time everyday.
13:06 What did you do with the resentment
13:08 and you're the way that you shut things off?
13:11 Is that-- I would love to hear. Yes.
13:14 Well, I had to learn myself
13:17 and now we teach wherever we go churches, school
13:20 different places how to eliminate resentment.
13:23 Because if you have resentment in your heart
13:26 and that will destroy you.
13:27 And actually we speak not only resentment.
13:31 Resentment is the beginning of the destruction.
13:34 If you have resentment and you do not deal with it
13:37 you will have another "R" which is resistance.
13:41 You begin put in the breaks in to that relationship.
13:44 You don't bless the other person,
13:45 you don't do the things as you did before.
13:47 And it could become a very slow process
13:50 but you'll see more and more
13:51 that the breaks on the breaks on relationship.
13:53 And you felt that from Rene.
13:54 In our relationship if Rene got upset over something
13:58 very small he could raise the defenses, accuse me
14:04 and spend a month or two months or three months
14:06 almost without talking to me.
14:08 Sleeping to his side with a heart
14:11 and not wanting to have anything to do when he--
14:15 Yeah, go ahead.
14:16 When he returned it was very hard
14:20 because he return as he left even worse.
14:23 You have the habits. Right.
14:25 You have the habits. Exactly.
14:26 And we need to acknowledge, identify and work with that.
14:31 Now let me give you the third step in the wrong direction.
14:35 We have resentment, we have resistance
14:39 and the next one is rejection.
14:43 And you begin to disconnect from the person.
14:45 You begin to live your own life of apart from the person.
14:48 You say, I don't want to be with you. Right.
14:50 And you begin having your own times.
14:53 Well, that be computer, television, books you go
14:57 you don't come back, anything.
14:59 I can do my life, I don't-- I can do my own reference.
15:01 You're not going to direct that. Yeah.
15:02 And the rejection is a lot of arrogance.
15:05 I'm doing this because I'm better than you
15:07 and I don't want anything to do with you.
15:09 In a simple way what to do with that when we teach people
15:13 is first of all we need to humble ourself
15:15 so acknowledge the reality of two or three hours
15:18 everybody has it to certain degree with some situations.
15:21 That's I mean husband and wife--
15:22 So you're even saying don't label it,
15:24 don't label it good or bad.
15:26 Just acknowledge it. Acknowledge it.
15:27 You know how can I bring it to God?
15:29 How can I bring it to light if I can't acknowledge it?
15:31 Yeah, we need to acknowledge it first of all
15:33 and then you need to recognize this is sin.
15:36 Yeah. Because that's not God's way.
15:40 And you bring it to God and you say please forgive me.
15:43 Give me the opposite. Now what would be the opposite?
15:47 Love, cherishing, caring, helping. Reconnecting.
15:51 Reconnecting, you see all of those things.
15:53 And then you need to move in that direction.
15:55 You need to do the things that you need to do.
15:58 And you begin thinking God will give you ideas.
16:00 God will give you the desire to do it.
16:03 He will take away that constant thinking
16:05 that it goes on in your mind when you have resentment,
16:08 resistance and rejection, you see.
16:10 And when you're able to identify that
16:13 confess it to God, ask for the opposite
16:16 and you begin doing the opposite not just asking.
16:19 And that I love your emphasis on that.
16:22 Is that whether you feel it or not if there's no action,
16:26 if there's no called action if there's no behavioral change
16:29 then you may fool yourself for a while
16:32 but you're not gonna change.
16:33 You're not gonna-- the Holy Spirit cannot move you
16:36 until you start to lift your foot up.
16:38 And one thing that is very important
16:41 to understand Cheri, is that--
16:46 the Word of God says that Satan is a liar.
16:51 And one of the lies of Satan is if you don't feel love,
16:55 if you don't feel tenderness and if you touch a person
16:59 allowing God to putting you the tenderness and the kindness
17:04 but you don't feel it you are a hypocrite.
17:07 And that's a lie. And that's a lie.
17:10 At that moment you've to choose--
17:11 But you are an obedient person to God. Yeah.
17:15 So you know unfold that for us because you know that,
17:18 that lie is ramped.
17:22 That lie holds us captive of acting on thoughts
17:27 and feelings that are not from God because God says give.
17:33 Yeah.
17:34 I have given to you, you give us I have given--
17:36 but I don't feel like it doesn't matter,
17:39 is in the act of giving that you receive more of me.
17:44 And there is where everything comes restore in you
17:48 and you'll become open channel for that grace
17:51 to help others to act out in their path of grace.
17:56 And even understand it to me
17:58 I would love when to say that Alvy,
17:59 is that as that grace flows to this person
18:03 that you're reaching that to there's healing
18:05 that happens for you.
18:06 Yeah. Oh, yes.
18:08 You cannot heal when God is working.
18:09 Is the only way we're being restored with God
18:12 as if really give you really receive the grace of God.
18:18 And how is it is to give
18:21 when the person is loving and kind.
18:23 It's so easy.
18:24 But the test of we are truly receiving God
18:29 is when we have nothing to give and we don't feel it.
18:32 Yeah. He's saying, okay, Lord, I understand.
18:36 This is the Gethsemane the turning point
18:43 between life and death.
18:44 Yeah, this is what Christ himself swiped life.
18:46 Where I a dead bone of that part
18:49 of there valley of dead bones, I have nothing, no more.
18:53 It doesn't matter where I grow up,
18:55 how much I knew God.
18:57 If I'm not willing to love, to forgive, to be kind,
19:00 to offer grace and this is what it enlarges
19:03 but the Bible course I have attend
19:05 in reality is God sentry.
19:09 Imagine one with immensity of God's heart and joy and love
19:13 and in all that He has enhance things
19:16 He begins to pour it to the world.
19:20 You know Cheri, when we travel we see
19:22 so many families and couples
19:24 particularly couples that are struggling.
19:27 And yes, it is true that sometimes
19:29 the separation is necessary and we acknowledge that.
19:32 It's sometimes safety.
19:33 Yes, when there is emotional or physical violence
19:39 we actually in sometimes encourage separation.
19:42 Notice that I did not say divorce, I said separation.
19:45 Because only God will tell you exactly if it is divorce
19:49 what you need to do or not but most of the time
19:52 we take those occasions as a open door for divorce.
19:55 When in reality all God wants is to heal us
19:58 and to restore their relationships.
20:00 And at the moment we need to put protection
20:03 but then we need to work with that situation.
20:05 And when the persons are willing to listen to God
20:08 and understand His ways it may take time,
20:11 it took years for us but God can do a work
20:14 that will be amazingly powerful.
20:16 And what I think I have to say
20:19 because I'm watching the two of you.
20:20 If somebody says I'm--
20:23 I just seeking tired of the fact that is always me.
20:26 I'm always the one has to do it like--
20:29 you must have felt that for years
20:31 and that's another lie from the enemy.
20:33 Be grateful that at least somebody sees it,
20:36 somebody gets it.
20:37 Somebody could respond in love at any given time.
20:41 And one of the things that I'd like to offer
20:44 to is that we're presenting this battle ground
20:49 and this possibility of total restoration in oneness
20:54 with God and with one another
20:56 in the context of a husband, wife relationship.
21:00 But is the same for any relationship.
21:02 Parent, children, siblings any one especially
21:06 in defend of a family you know the different circumstances.
21:11 God is waiting for us to enter
21:14 and to be the one, the first one.
21:18 In board medians.
21:19 If the power of one person that decides
21:23 this is the path that I'm choosing
21:26 but is not for us to know the end.
21:33 For some there will be restoration in healing
21:36 in the relationships for some or not.
21:39 Exactly.
21:41 Is not for us to know but God says
21:44 you perceive your and be faithful.
21:47 Yeah. That's all the you need to do.
21:48 There is a situation that we've worked with
21:51 that even with in the relationship
21:55 some one dies in the midst of their addiction
21:58 and you will sit there and say but I thought I did everything.
22:02 Don't even do that.
22:03 Don't torment yourself in that way.
22:05 Do what you can at that time and then trust
22:07 there's gonna be a time that God and you will hang out
22:10 and you realize this is what actually happened.
22:13 Cheri, the issue about rest and peace
22:17 it's not about being in control of the outcome.
22:21 It's in doing what is right in relationship with the Lord
22:24 moment by moment and resting
22:27 and leaving the consequences with God.
22:29 Incredible. We're gonna go ahead and take a break.
22:32 We're gonna come back.
22:33 Would you guys stay with me for the close?
22:35 Okay. Okay, we're gonna come back.
22:37 I would like to ask if Rene and Alvy will pray for us
22:41 and just bless us as we close off this program.
22:45 Stay with us.


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