Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Monica Barlow
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00042A
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00:10 Welcome to Celebrating Life in Recovery,
00:11 I'm Cheri your host. 00:12 I travel a lot and I'm blessed by a lot of people I 00:15 meet, and how God is loving on them. 00:16 And for a brief time I get the privilege of stepping in 00:20 and being a part of that love. 00:21 So, I want to introduce you to some of these friends today. 00:23 So come in and join us! 00:51 Welcome back, you know, it is just fun. 00:54 I love to be able to come up and say 00:56 these are some friends of mine, I have been blessed by 00:58 every single testimony, every single one of the 01:01 folks I'm going to introduce you to I have been blessed. 01:03 They have changed me so I'm not even do a 01:07 teaching today, I'm just go to start by introducing. 01:09 First of all I want to introduce you to Monica. 01:11 Monica was funny because I'm doing this Women's Retreat. 01:15 And I'm running a hundred miles an hour, I'm trying to figure 01:18 out okay the time for this, and we're doing Anointing. 01:21 You know how busy it was, every time I turned around 01:23 she's like in my face, poof. 01:26 I want you to talk about that because it cracked me up. 01:29 Well, I knew I needed to talk to you. 01:31 I needed to talk to you about all the teens I was 01:33 dealing with and you were up front all the time. 01:36 Like you said doing Anointing, so I walked outside of 01:40 the Women's Retreat, 400 people. 01:42 I waited out there and say God I need to talk to 01:44 her and I know I do. 01:46 Right then, you miraculously got out of your seat, the 01:49 other lady was speaking, you walked right to me. 01:51 And I'm like so freaked, it was so freaky. 01:54 You came right to me and I went Cheri, I no you're 01:58 really busy, but give me like 15 minutes. 02:00 Your like right now, let's do it. 02:01 So we walked over to your room, and we were able to talk 02:04 about the teens and what we're going through. 02:06 My husband and I having a new daughter, whose mother 02:10 died of cancer - when you say that, that you brought in 02:15 to your home - yeah - okay. 02:17 So talk about that because as you were talking. 02:19 Cause I'm looking at first, this kind of frantic thing 02:22 about, I've just got in a few minutes we have to talk and 02:26 as we get to the room and start talking, I realize, that I love 02:30 you, I love the fact that you are ministering to folks that 02:34 either have been abandoned, because somebody's 02:36 died in their live. 02:37 Or kids not being cared for, and all of a sudden I wanted to 02:41 grab you and say God bless you. 02:43 Where were you when I was a kid? 02:45 You know what I mean, that's for my heart was. 02:47 You know, I would have picked you up in the second. 02:49 I know you would, I know you would and would have loved 02:52 me because you and your husband are just really stepping 02:55 into this ministry. 02:56 At that time, you were like it was kind of new for you, 02:58 people were just coming to you. 03:00 Yeah, we weren't asking, we had just done vacation Bible 03:03 schools in our area, which is very small like 700 03:07 people, we'd get a hundred... We now get 120 kids in an area 03:10 that has hardly any people. 03:12 But Vacation Bible schools, when she is telling me 03:15 this I am thinking, okay, that is kind of cute. 03:18 And then I literally go and speak with her church. 03:22 I see the vacation Bible school, and they have 03:25 made a waterfall slide. 03:27 That is, like, how long is that. 03:29 150 foot - a 150 foot were kids can slide down that, in 03:33 castles, I mean it literally was this entire area that 03:37 was made to this rock climbing wall, that you are 03:41 climbing up the Eiffel Tower. 03:42 So you really do hands-on stuff to minister to these 03:45 kids, to try to get them interested enough to come so 03:49 you can minister to them. 03:50 Right, since we are - and you had them build it themselves 03:53 Well some of the kids as the kids become part of our 03:57 family than they are involved in a thirty foot high rock 04:01 wall Beau built, and painted that. 04:04 Which then we turned into big Ben and 04:08 Stephanie painted it, big Ben. 04:09 We change it up every year to what it's going to be, 04:12 this year it's going to be camouflage. 04:14 It's going to be Operation Rescue, rescuing family and 04:18 friends across enemy lines. 04:19 Wow, wow! And that's what you do that's your ministry. 04:23 I kind of make up the themes and then my husband, the 04:26 mastermind, the imaginer that doesn't get paid. 04:30 Right, but you know, I just want to let people know that 04:33 for a lot of times I see vacation Bible schools, and I 04:36 see some really cool cardboard cutouts and stuff, but 04:40 you guys literally build buildings and waterslides. 04:43 I wish just like sitting there, and I thought if I was a 04:46 kid I would just be hanging out with you guys. 04:48 You couldn't get rid of me. 04:49 Well, the 100 foot water slide was actually on America's 04:52 Funniest Videos - no way - yeah! 04:54 Because my niece went down it and went over the pond 04:57 headfirst in the mud. 04:58 And she got an honorable mention, which is pretty good. 05:03 But very safe, we do get that checked out - very safe, 05:07 other than this mud bank. 05:08 Well mud doesn't hurt anything, you know. 05:10 So the kids we have been doing that for about 14 or 15 05:14 years, so I have like a base of kids that are used to us. 05:17 Can before we go there I would just like to ask you 05:20 where did you come from, that you had that love? 05:23 Because you know you weren't an abandoned kid, I mean. 05:28 I don't know, I think it's God kind of developed in 05:33 Scott and I just love for Him. 05:36 I think it automatically came, we used to run an elderly 05:40 care home and did that for 15 years. 05:42 The love just started coming from looking at people, you 05:47 had to be aware of what they needed, they couldn't 05:51 always tell you - right. 05:52 Taking care of Alzheimer's and Dementia and in doing 05:55 that you are trying to search out what they need. 05:58 So for kids was really similar they're not going 06:01 jump out and say I really need this - right. 06:04 And they may be even acting out of anger and cussing you 06:07 out, but in reality they need you to hold them. 06:10 Well yeah, in fact we were joking last night, 06:12 Stevie was off the stage. 06:13 Stevie was saying. I remember when you first came to be 06:17 VBS, I know I was scared of you because you like beat up 06:20 all the other girls. 06:21 And I would like, Oh no Stevie's I hope they don't get in a 06:24 fight, but Stevie is like she is my main person 06:28 to organize things. 06:30 When she talks the kids listen, she is so ordained of God. 06:34 So your love literally went to these kids, and I went to 06:38 your youth group, because not only did you say 06:40 in that room telling me that you want to put this out there. 06:44 I want to ask you some questions about how God is leading us, and 06:47 I'm just so proud of you. 06:48 I'm so proud of you, and then you said we really need to come. 06:52 We have a Meth problem that kids are getting lost, I'm afraid 06:55 for them and just feel like, we actually got to come and 06:58 hang out with you and hang out with the youth group. 07:01 And I watch these kids from all over the place, from all 07:04 different walks of life. 07:06 Well, do you remember the one guy that got up in the 07:08 middle of your speaking. 07:09 It's because you made him uncomfortable, because he is 07:13 one of the dads that is really a tough dad to deal with. 07:16 In fact in our vacation Bible school - was I nice to 07:19 him? - yet you are more than nice - okay. 07:20 Good because he gets up - before you go - he gets up to 07:23 leave, and I'm thinking, excuse me, I'm not done talking. 07:26 And they look at me like I'm leaving anyway - No! no! 07:29 you're sitting down. 07:30 It's funny because my heart just says. I'm not just 07:34 saying sit down, because I'm trying to be a pain here, 07:37 but I know recovery is incredible and if you could 07:41 only give God a chance. 07:42 I think that for the youth to because I just want to 07:45 say, and I'm getting bold up here because I love him. 07:47 But if you want to give God a chance, I know that your 07:50 life would be just incredible. 07:52 So I hardly let people leave the room, so I feel bad and 07:56 think was, I mean, did I make him sit down - it was 07:58 really good and he was really the one I could tell the 08:01 Holy Spirit is trying to get to. 08:02 Was he the one that went to the bathroom when I said do 08:04 you want us to wait? - yes - did he get back? 08:05 Like I can stop talking until you come back in the room. 08:09 He was like, no! no! and go ahead, would you leave me alone? 08:12 Actually when you spoke at the school, you picked up to 08:15 Kevin, a guy in the audience. 08:17 Kevin and that was so God ordained, because I knew you 08:22 had no way of knowing it. 08:23 But his little 3 kids had been praying, and my VBS and 08:28 every day, I was there when they would pray. 08:31 In their prayers, the kids were like 4, 6, and 8. 08:33 Would pray for their dad in rehab, and then you picked him 08:38 out of the crowd. 08:39 What is really interesting about picking out Kevin is 08:42 that God so told me here is somebody that is 08:45 lost in his addictions. 08:47 Really losing everybody's losing because he is so 08:50 vacant, not present for them. 08:51 God wanted to call him home, and he is still not in a 08:54 place, he is still struggling. 08:55 And I knew even picking him out, and sometimes I just 08:59 want to say, can't just grab you by the face and beg you 09:03 to walk out of that. 09:06 And you know with what Kevin was really interesting is 09:09 when he was picked out that I knew for a minute 09:12 he heard me - yes he did. 09:15 He did try some recoveries, just it was tough - yes. 09:18 That's what you made a big deal about my husband and I 09:21 loving them, the truth is it is God doing it because believe 09:25 me on a Saturday you know I have all the kids home at my house. 09:28 I would like to just do a few lay activities that every one 09:31 else does, but I can't because there's a pond outside, they 09:35 are all jumping in, or we have got to go help somebody. 09:39 That night, Saturday Night Live are youth group, and we 09:43 have to prepare for that. 09:44 Music we've got just fun things we do for that, but yet 09:47 what I'm trying to explain to the kids is that we are 09:51 not trying to entertain them. 09:52 I can't entertain them. I'm not an X-box I can't do all 09:56 these things, but they actually know where they can go 10:00 when something is bad. 10:01 That is the most important thing, if something is 10:04 happening at home, I can call Monica. 10:06 In fact, one girl and my daughter Stephanie were on a 10:10 merry-go-round before Stephanie, my daughter 10:12 before her mother died. 10:13 They were on a merry-go-round and Stephanie pushed really 10:17 hard and hit Lori on the tooth and the tooth broke - no. 10:21 And she didn't call her parents, she called me and Scott 10:24 It was on a Friday and I'm like what am I going to do 10:27 and this girls crying. 10:29 I said we will come pick you up, and we took her to a 10:32 nice Adventist dentist who on a Friday night and fixed 10:36 her so she wasn't embarrassed to meet the world. 10:38 It was just amazing, because I need them to know there 10:42 is some place to run - Amen! 10:43 I want to, I'm going to introduce every single body, but 10:47 I just want to say, I have blessed your passion, and I 10:51 am blessed by the fact that when you reach out to youth 10:56 it's a harder group because they are so abandoned. 11:00 And in their abandonment they are so angry that you 11:03 really have to let them go through that before they trust 11:06 you enough to say, okay, we can play and just be kids again. 11:09 Well usually, they are pretty mad at me, usually they 11:11 don't like be at first - right. 11:13 Because I'm like in their face, a little bit - yeah, 11:15 I can see that. 11:16 But it is just because I know they need something or 11:21 they want to tell me their way of life is okay. 11:24 So I'm saying, how's it going for it - it's not working- yeah. 11:27 Amazing, I want to bring Stephanie up so Stephanie. 11:31 When you talk about Stephanie, you call her your 11:34 daughter, which she is. 11:35 Then Stephanie, she talks about your mom and your mom's death. 11:41 So how did you meet Monica and what happened to your mom? 11:46 Actually, I Monica through VBS, through that same girl 11:51 who broke her teeth. 11:53 Lori, she convinced me to start coming to, she's like oh yeah, 11:57 if you go to their VBS they will get you to go to camp 11:59 for free, I was like I've never been to camp, sure. 12:02 You know for free that will be fun. 12:05 So I started to go and I started becoming 12:09 better friends with them. 12:11 I would go to the night groups and everything to the 12:19 Saturday Night Live and then my mom started getting sick. 12:23 Sick from - sick from pancreatic cancer - okay, wow. 12:28 She was at first, in her pancreas, and then 12:33 moved to her liver. 12:34 Did she have drugs alcohol or any of those kind of issues? 12:38 You know I never really had that close relationship with her 12:43 I only know that she smokes cigarettes and did marijuana. 12:47 I'm not sure that she did anything else, but my mom 12:52 does, Monica knows, some of her friends that she did 12:56 hang out with did do that. 12:58 I remember a lot of times that they were going to a room 13:00 and be in there for a long time. 13:02 I know she didn't like alcohol, but she did once in awhile. 13:07 Okay, so her cancer kept getting worse? 13:10 It got worse and it was really hard. 13:14 I slowly, I watched her slowly die - I can't imagine that. 13:19 It was, I wanted to run away, I didn't want to be 13:24 around, seeing her die - didn't want to feel that. 13:28 I didn't know what to do - yeah. 13:30 I her face, she was always very heavy, and when she 13:37 got sick. We had a hospital bed inside of our house 13:40 because she didn't want to go to the hospital. 13:41 She was very skinny, she was so skinny, her jaw line 13:48 was, I mean, you can see everything. 13:50 She was just yeah, just lost it all, everything her rib 13:55 cage seem to start sticking out more because of all the 13:59 cancer on the inside, and it was really hard. 14:03 One thing I really wanted to, I feel guilty now, I hate 14:09 it, that I did not want to be there. 14:12 But now when I think about it, I cry because I wish I 14:16 had gotten in that bed and laid down right next to her. 14:20 You know - and you know when you say that, that it is 14:22 really tough because my heart just breaks for you 14:25 because I know what you are saying. 14:26 You know, I just buried my dad in December. So I am just 14:30 accepting the cancer and stuff and I want to say that I 14:34 am sorry that you didn't get to but I understand 14:36 your feelings is I just wanted to run. 14:38 You just couldn't deal with the fact that all this is happening 14:41 and I have no control. 14:42 Yeah, it was really tough for me. 14:46 I never really had a relationship with my mom because 14:49 she was very into many guys. 14:53 So it actually was her second husband, I found out was my dad. 15:00 I never got to know him, he liked beat me when a was a 15:06 baby. So my mom used another guy to get away from him. 15:10 And in doing that she felt obligated to stay with that 15:15 guy, because then she had my sister. 15:18 So, she was with him for a while and then she was with 15:23 another guy who molested me for a long time. 15:27 Then when she started getting sick, she was with two 15:31 other guys - do you think anybody has any idea the 15:36 different things that you have had to deal with in your 15:39 life, that you have buried in your heart. 15:42 Did you think, to me when you first started talking the 15:45 first time I met you and you started telling me some of 15:48 this stuff, I just looked at you and thought I had no idea. 15:51 You look beautiful and grounded in Christ, 15:56 and I know you love God. 15:57 When you started, tell me about your life, I just wanted 16:00 to hold you and weep you know, I just want to say 16:03 I'm sorry for all that. 16:05 But when you walked into a church, and somebody sees 16:08 you, they don't know all that stuff, they don't know 16:11 what you have been through. 16:12 I've actually, I never used to be as confident as I am now. 16:17 I used to, my new parents have helped me a lot on that. 16:23 They helped build myself self esteem and made 16:28 me feel that I was loved. 16:33 I have two parents who loved me, even though sometimes 16:36 they really don't want it, are actually going to help me. 16:41 And they are like being a waitress just won't get you 16:46 through, because like my mom was a waitress. 16:49 That's actually all she did really. 16:52 And we barely made it through or buy anything. 16:55 So I was like we were alive, we had a house, and she 17:00 said, but did you own it? 17:01 No! So I slowly started becoming with my worth ethics 17:10 got better and I could go to a job - so after, as your 17:13 mom was dying then you met Monica and those guys through 17:18 vacation Bible school?. 17:20 I had met them before that - okay - and so my relationship 17:24 with them started getting stronger as mom was dying. 17:28 One night my mom told me that I could choose who I 17:32 wanted to go live with, because she didn't want me to 17:35 live with my daddy either, but it is your choice. 17:38 But what is really interesting to me is when both you 17:41 and your sister had to decide where your going to live 17:44 when your mom dies. 17:45 Both of you had different dads in different states and 17:48 its like you were going to be separated with somebody 17:51 that you didn't even hardly know. 17:53 Yeah, my mom was actually afraid that my dad would fight 17:57 more, well actually that my sister's dad would fight 18:01 more was ending up to be like mine. 18:03 I was like okay lets do whatever and for me my dad was 18:07 all of a sudden, like no she can't, I can have my rights now. 18:10 He even had the gall to tell me when I said, that mom 18:14 passed away, it was like he did even know she was sick. 18:17 I'm like, she called you and told you, I saw her come 18:20 out of the room crying and you're saying you're blaming 18:24 her all of a sudden saying Ah she is not sick that's not right 18:28 He was like getting all mad with me, and I'm like, now I 18:32 really know I don't want to live with you. 18:33 And so one day after my mom told me I could pick who I 18:39 wanted to live with, I got Scott and Monica by themselves. 18:44 I was like really nervous, was like, what am I, how am I 18:49 supposed to ask, I want to live if you - we be my 18:51 parents - we be my parents. 18:53 That's really awkward. 18:54 But I did, it was like my mom gave me a choice and I 18:59 picked you guys, and I don't know - what did they say? 19:03 They were like, we will pray about it, but they were all 19:07 smiles and did not make me doubt that all of a sudden I wasn't. 19:12 But I did, I might just ask them I wonder they don't 19:18 want to, that's embarrassing you know. 19:19 Like I was starting to get afraid, but after that night 19:24 it was, everything started working out very well. 19:26 Do you know what I want to ask you, because I am so 19:29 thrilled that Monica stood in front of you. 19:31 I'm so thrilled that she took it to God and I so love 19:35 God for telling them, yes, are you kidding me, yes. 19:39 I know that your relationship with God, because you 19:43 were acting out one point using stuff a little bit. 19:47 And so for you to come back around where you stand in 19:51 Christ now, how did that happen? 19:53 I started, like said a started going to church because 19:58 umm, Laura got me to come to the VBS because then I 20:03 started going to church. 20:04 I mainly was going to the church though, because there 20:06 was two really cute guys there - yeah ha, ha. 20:09 So listen up two guys, you know, you bring people in the building 20:13 That is one of the reasons I started going, but now, one 20:16 of those guys is my brother. 20:19 How odd is that - it kind of is, I get made fun over that. 20:26 But I started like after I was 12, started getting into 20:32 more of a hate thing, because when I was 11, a that's 20:39 when I finally started maturing. 20:41 I finally told Rick, my mom's boyfriend, - stop doing 20:49 this to me - stop get away from me - right. 20:52 He would still try to make me feel bad and stuff and I 20:55 would just start getting angry and wanting to punch him. 20:58 And other things like that, so I really started getting 21:01 into a bad crowd. 21:02 There was one girl who she lied all the time I have no 21:06 clue what she told me that was even truth from any of it. 21:10 But I hung out with her we would go out to drugs, I 21:15 never got into anything serious, but I got, I did a lot 21:20 of marijuana, cigarettes and did alcohol. 21:23 I did a lot of that what ever I could have I took - 21:27 whatever was in front of you - yeah. 21:28 I knew for a fact that I didn't want to do anything like 21:32 Meth, you know, but if I would have kept on at it I 21:36 probably would have. 21:37 Because I wasn't very strong in what I really wanted. 21:39 At what is really interesting for a lot of people that 21:42 they don't know is that escape that wanting to get away 21:45 from all that pain is very intense. 21:47 It's like whatever is going to help me to get through 21:50 these few years I'm going to take - yeah. 21:52 Not realizing that God is looking after you - yeah. 21:57 I hadn't no clue, I was 13, and I had a 16-year-old 22:02 boyfriend and he was turning 17. 22:06 My mom at first, my real mom before she died she was 22:10 like, I really don't know if you should be dating this 22:13 guy, and I'm like it's fine for not doing anything. 22:16 Because she is your mom is coming back to God 22:18 a little bit there. 22:19 She was totally as I start going to VBS more, going to 22:22 church, she was slowly coming to. 22:24 She always knew of God, and we had a Bible in there, but 22:27 it was like the King James version so I was like, I'm 22:31 not reading this thing. 22:32 Because it was hard to understand - it was very hard. 22:35 I tried at one point like this is interesting I am a 22:38 going to try to read it, and she said good luck. 22:39 So I didn't have very much encouragement on that either. 22:46 but I would hang out with them and I would get messed up. 22:52 I would call my boyfriend on the phone and say, because 22:57 I'm still a virgin, technically, but through my mind, 23:03 because of the molestation, I'm not. 23:05 So, I think of the sexual very often - right because 23:10 that's what that damage does - yeah it haunts me. 23:14 It haunts me my sleeps and everything, in my dreams - 23:18 and you know what. I don't even think that people that 23:23 molest people take advantage of kids realize that you are 23:26 haunted by that, it changes to I am and how I see the 23:30 world until God literally puts His hand on that brings healing. 23:33 Yeah - it's huge - yeah, because even lately everyone 23:37 everyone just started breaking down, you know spilling out 23:43 and all of a sudden, because I hadn't said this to anyone. 23:48 I'm still having dreams of having sex and stuff like that. 23:53 But a lot of the guys that live in my household were 23:58 kind of afraid of me, because they kept getting vibes 24:01 from me, that I don't even realize I'm sending off. 24:05 I wasn't having any thing, it was will people from my past 24:12 A lot of times it was just a dark figure - and you know 24:15 what I want to just say because I'm so glad you're here, 24:18 because I love you. 24:20 I think that you come up to my mind a lot as I go through my 24:24 day as I travel and whatever and you are in my prayers. 24:27 So I'm glad you're here, so I would like to go through 24:30 some of that with you because, as that stuff comes back 24:32 at us and it's in our dreams, is in our thoughts and you 24:35 think, what just happened here? 24:37 Because ours just do this normal thing, trying to pray 24:40 and all of a sudden I had these images. 24:42 Then we feel like we are horrible, the devil I think 24:46 oppresses us, and God says, you know what. I promise you 24:49 that, and I will bring you victory with that. 24:52 It is not you, and it is not your fault, and so you know 24:55 what you and I are hanging out before you leave. 24:58 Alright - okay - just to go through some of that. 25:00 And I wish some times that we could get a whole show. 25:03 Just to go through this because, 1 in 3 girls are 25:06 molested in this country and 1 in 4 or 5 boys are 25:09 molested in this country. 25:11 And so we wonder why we are so twisted sexually. 25:13 I just wanted to say, God never intended that, and you 25:16 know that right - yeah - God never intended - I do know that. 25:19 What I am the strongest with God, I don't have those 25:24 dreams, I feel better, I'm more confident I can stand. 25:28 My dad was teaching me to keep my posture because before 25:31 it was like what's up. 25:33 Now I try to keep my posture, and when I'm closest with 25:38 God, I remember to do this and I feel good about doing it. 25:42 But when I'm not - you can see it in your body - I can 25:47 feel it, I start getting cranky a lot, I don't want 25:52 anyone talking to me, I just want what I want 25:55 that sort of thing. 25:57 My problem is I wanted to make friends with everyone. 26:03 Like we have a whole bunch of cousins that came up for 26:07 Michigan and were with living with us. 26:09 And I was just like - cousins from your new parents. 26:11 New parents, 26:12 Yes, and I was like I want to make friends with these 26:16 guys. But then everything because I was trying to do 26:21 selfish things. I was like really hard time with 26:23 it, because everyone was trying to stay away from me 26:26 because you hit a hiccup. 26:28 Could she know I was in recovery, I don't even know like 26:31 when I first came in the church because I had all that 26:34 stuff that you have the molest and the junk. 26:37 And I like come in and I want to be accepted by 26:39 everybody, but I am so inappropriate, I'm like you who 26:42 my name a Cheri and I try to kill myself when I was 8. 26:45 And they are looking at me like poof, poof and because 26:48 we don't know how to act because we've so damaged. 26:50 We literally almost try to overact, which causes people 26:54 to back up and we see then we don't want that to happen. 26:57 Yeah - it really is just a frantic thing. 27:00 And, I literally Steph, want to have a program just on this. 27:05 Right now I want to pray, we have got to take a break. 27:09 I just want to pray that you know what I'm telling you 27:13 through that, do you know, I'm telling the truth - yeah. 27:17 You know that I got through it? - I can see it - alright. 27:20 So I'm telling you, I promise you God will be faithful, 27:24 and you will get through this. 27:25 And He will teach you to stand in Christ, and it's such 27:31 incredible how the stuff will not plague you. 27:33 And we will hang out before you leave and deal some of 27:37 that, but I just think, I think that you are incredible, 27:40 beautiful women of God. 27:42 I think that what He has done in your life is amazing. 27:44 And I wish that I could somehow take that damage and all 27:47 that and have that off of you. 27:50 But God and you are going to work through that - Amen - 27:53 you know that. 27:54 I'm going to have prayer and we're going to take a break. 27:56 Give me your hand - dear Father in Jesus name I just 27:58 pray for Stephanie. 27:59 I pray that every single person out there that 28:02 understand what she just said, and have been through 28:05 molestation, abuse, and loss and abandonment and all 28:08 those kind of things will stand there and say I don't 28:10 even know how to act sometimes. 28:12 And I'm trying I'm trying standing in Christ, I'm trying 28:14 to fight these images and have these dreams. 28:17 I let go of God in this happens. 28:19 I pray for every single one of us that have gone through 28:21 that and I pray for Stephanie as she goes through that. 28:24 I pray that your Holy Spirit just settle us and I pray 28:28 Father with everyone watching these issues, Stephanie in 28:32 particular, keep Your hand on her and let her know 28:35 beyond a doubt that You are faithful in her recovery and 28:39 You will walk her through this stuff. 28:41 There is going to be a time in her life that she is 28:43 wonder where this stuff is because, she has not 28:46 had the dreams anymore. 28:47 She doesn't have the doubt anymore, she doesn't have to 28:50 wonder whether I have acted right or wrong anymore. 28:52 There's not that frantic stuff because You have so healed her. 28:56 And I just claim that in her life and am just so 28:58 grateful to be her friend and so grateful to be a part 29:02 of who she is and I just pray Father that You keep Your 29:05 hand on her and bless her in recovery, um we are going 29:09 to be taking a break, right now, and I'm just going to beg you 29:14 don't watch this program without praying for us. 29:16 Because you know sometimes I think that people think 29:19 that we have so gone through all this. 29:22 and I am telling you that there are people at every level 29:26 every level of recovery, every level of healing and God 29:30 is faithful so we need your prayers. 29:31 But come back, it's way cool. |
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