Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Dahlia Brown, Daphne Brown
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00059A
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00:10 Welcome to Celebrating Life In Recovery.
00:13 Have you ever been slammed 00:14 with something and say I can't 00:15 possibly deal with that. 00:17 If that has happened to you you need to stay with us today 00:20 because we are going to cover some of that. 00:21 It's good, come in and join us. 00:49 Welcome back, we talk about when something hits you 00:53 and it is really intense, what 00:54 does recovery look like then? 00:56 Because I went around with my 00:58 recover and I spent years, 01:00 I meant years, think I would get it sooner but I am pretty 01:03 slow, so I spent years coming off of drugs, quitting smoking, 01:08 Quitting smoking was funny because I didn't want to. 01:11 I loved to smoke. 01:12 Do you know what I mean? 01:14 Some people it bugged them and I think they felt bad about it. 01:16 They would realize their lungs, I just felt great about it. 01:20 I loved it, I loved the way it felt, the way it looked. 01:22 I loved all that kind of stuff so it was hard for me. 01:24 I had to learn to be honest. 01:28 I had to learn to tell the time of day, what day it was. 01:32 I was homeless for 10 years so when somebody said I will meet 01:34 you Wednesday at 10, I would remember Friday at 9. 01:38 You know what I mean, because I don't even know. 01:40 But I worked on all those things and through the years I got 01:44 better, and better, and better as far as some things. 01:47 God worked on lying and manipulating and how not to, 01:51 you know how to be more respectful of people. 01:54 How to be less self centered. 01:56 All those things that come up with addicts. 01:58 I felt like this is so cool. 02:02 Every time I turned around it felt like God kissed me on 02:04 the face with this recovery stuff. 02:06 It was like, let Me show you this now and it was just an 02:09 awesome thing for Him to show me different things I had to do. 02:12 Different trust issues, when He said Cheri, you don't know how 02:15 to trust anybody. 02:16 I'm thinking, I mean I was raised by addicts. 02:19 Hard core addicts. 02:20 At 3 years old I remember running around the house just 02:23 getting someone to get out of their stupor enough so they 02:26 could say, do you need anything? 02:28 Are you hungry? Do you know what I mean? 02:30 So God said, I want you to learn how to trust. 02:35 That was a hard one because I thought, you know, trust? 02:38 Why would I trust them? 02:41 You know what I mean? I thought that about everyone. 02:42 I would look for you not to be trustworthy so I didn't have to 02:45 deal with that issue. 02:46 God finally said, we are going to deal with this issue? Right? 02:49 So that came along and it was fun, as fun as working 02:54 on issues can be, but for me it's fun because when God 02:57 unloads you with something, all of a sudden you unburdened 03:00 with something, it is like you can step more and more into 03:03 recovery and it is just a joy at times to figure out who 03:05 you are without all this junk. 03:07 Figure out who God is? How you fit in? 03:09 Well one day, and this caught me off guard, I mean it just 03:16 hit me, one day I am going from, I am going into surgery. 03:22 So I am having surgery done. 03:23 I go to the doctor and he is going to do standard blood work 03:28 to check on the surgery, and all that stuff. 03:30 Then he called me back in and said, Cheri, and I always get my 03:35 surgery with who ever the best doctor is on the planet. 03:38 You know what I mean? I just don't go to my state 03:41 because I am an addict that way. 03:44 So if I find a doctor in Philadelphia and I'm living in 03:47 Idaho, I call them say, can I have you for my doctor? 03:51 So I am going to fly to Philadelphia. 03:53 So I have got to get the blood work done in Idaho. 03:56 So my doctor does the blood work and calls me back 03:59 in and says, I don't think this is going to be 04:02 a good time for your surgery. 04:03 I said, no, no, it is a perfect time, I have a week I am not 04:07 doing any gigs and I just have this time. 04:09 I have to go and get it done and fly back. 04:12 I mean this is a perfect time I've figured it out. 04:15 He says, no, you have cancer. 04:18 I'm like, oh shut up. There is no way. 04:22 I'm thinking there is no way because there is just no way. 04:26 Cancer, what are you talking about? 04:28 And when something hits you, 04:30 you think what do you mean by that? 04:33 So I am like, What do you mean by that? 04:35 You are not going to tell my other doctor, are you? 04:38 He is like, what do you mean by that? 04:40 Of course I am going to tell your other doctor. 04:42 Don't you tell him before the surgery, because I am very 04:45 manipulative and thinking if he thinks I have cancer, he may 04:48 not do the surgery, so you are not calling him. 04:50 So now I am trying to play this doctor not even thinking of the 04:54 cancer and he is, Cheri, don't blow this off. 04:55 I'm not going to blow it off, just let me have the surgery 04:57 then I will come back and deal with the whole cancer thing. 05:00 So I said, what kind of cancer is it? 05:04 He said leukemia. 05:06 I'm like, Oh man! 05:09 So I walk out and he sets me up with a Oncologist and I don't 05:16 know about you but when you hear it, you think Okay! 05:21 And then you think, you are going to set me up with what? 05:24 An Oncologist? Then it hits you more. 05:27 Then I tell my husband who adores me. 05:31 Hon, I have cancer. Then he tears up and I am 05:35 stop because I don't even want to deal with this. 05:40 So I go see the Oncologist, I get the surgery first and 05:43 come back and see the Oncologist and they do more blood work. 05:46 Everything is getting more intense. 05:49 My husbands father is dying at the time so I have to fly 05:53 back home, so I am sitting at the house by myself 05:54 thinking what does this mean exactly? What does this mean? 05:58 Cancer, the doctor says, the first thing this means is 06:02 bone marrow biopsy. 06:04 Has anybody had one of those? I'm telling you they 06:11 don't even tell you. 06:12 I went in innocent and thinking, she said this is only going to 06:16 be intense for about 10 seconds. 06:18 I said, well 10 seconds, Okay. 06:20 So I laid there, and they are going to put a needle in your 06:24 back side, they are going to break your hip, take a piece 06:28 of bone out of there and then they are going to go into 06:31 where the bone marrow is and pull some stuff out, right? 06:34 I'm like, well okay, it sounds intense, I've had a spinal tap. 06:38 So maybe it is something like that. 06:40 But it is nothing like that. 06:41 As soon as I laid down the doctor comes in and they have 06:43 all the equipment and unfolded it, it is all sterile. 06:47 They bring these two big nurses, and I said I wonder 06:50 what they are doing here? 06:51 They are there to hold you down. 06:54 Because it is intense. 06:57 As soon as they break into that part of your body, your body 06:58 it is just like a car that just got hit. 07:01 The air bags go off, and all the alarms so off, 07:03 your body does that. 07:04 So you go into this seizure thing and they hold you down. 07:07 They take the bone marrow out and then she called me later 07:10 with the results. 07:11 I went in, Okay you have cancer. 07:13 So it keeps going. 07:15 I had to really look at, there is things that hit us in life 07:18 that we get hit with it and it is recovery issues. 07:22 I have to stop smoking, or I have to stop doing drugs. 07:27 Or I have a sexual addiction and I really have 07:29 to look at this addiction. 07:30 Or I have anger issues and I really have to look 07:32 at this anger stuff. 07:33 Or I'm a workaholic, or I have to spend more time with my kids. 07:37 But what happens when it is a physical thing? 07:40 Poof, and I can't do anything. 07:44 Do you know what I mean? 07:45 It was a weird thing for me because I thought this is a 07:49 physical thing, God wait a minute, can I go to 07:52 a 12 step program? Can I step in and do this? 07:56 It was really interesting because I hear God say, 07:59 Will you trust Me with this? 08:03 I'm like, Oh Hon, I don't know! 08:06 I don't know, what does this mean? 08:09 So remember I went to surgery right? 08:12 I've got stitches and I've got surgery, but remember how 08:18 long did I say I had off? 08:20 A week, right? So now I have stitches, I have 08:24 surgery, I have two youth events and a camp meeting 08:26 that I have to go to. 08:27 My first youth event was in Wyoming, it was incredible. 08:31 We had an incredible time. 08:32 I had pastor friends that found out about the cancer because I 08:37 called crying, I have cancer! 08:38 They flew in and did an anointing. 08:41 The anointing was so amazing. 08:43 I have got to tell you, I don't know if anybody has anointing 08:47 for healing, but they just come in a pray for you. 08:50 Pray for healing, and so my friend come in, whom I love. 08:53 Not from my state but we work together a lot and he came in. 08:57 But he came in with a strip club owner that met Christ 09:01 and is selling his strip club, is turning one of 09:04 them into a church. 09:05 I love God, I think God is hysterical. 09:07 They came in because they wanted to face to face I met some of 09:12 the family but not everybody. 09:13 So they flew in, the wife was a stripper and she flew in. 09:17 And Stacy and Erin are an incredible couple. 09:20 So everybody flew in and they are going to do this anointing. 09:24 I said Stacy, because you know she is a stripper, 09:27 and ex-stripper would you come in to do the anointing 09:30 with the pastor? 09:31 Ohhh! Am I allowed to do that? 09:36 You know my background. 09:38 I said yes, do you believe in Christ? Yes! 09:41 Do you think the Holy Spirit has a watch? 09:43 That you haven't believed long enough? 09:46 I think you believe in Christ, you know my background better 09:49 than anybody in this room and I am asking you to join 09:52 me in the anointing. 09:54 So she started crying, but she came in. 09:57 So as she came in then her husband Erin came in, it was 10:01 amazing to me. Then the pastor and a few other people 10:04 came in and we did the anointing and Stacy, he brings anointing 10:08 oil out and Stacy says, can I put that on you? 10:12 She is crying and I said yes, yes! 10:16 The pastor says yeah I think it would be okay. 10:19 Biblical I don't know, you know what I mean? 10:22 But he wasn't even looking at that it was just a God moment. 10:25 So she looks at him, and she is so innocent, she says, 10:30 What do I do with it? 10:32 He said just put it on her head, she's like Okay, 10:36 and the entire bottle went on my head. 10:40 It is just like I felt oil on me and I thought how incredibly 10:45 cool was that? 10:46 I left that gig and I went to the next one and the next one. 10:49 So we had the anointing, the next gig was a 10:52 camp meeting but for teens. 10:56 So in the camp meeting for teens I'm there for two days and we 11:00 are having a great time, a great time. 11:03 Other than I have stitches, you know what I mean? 11:06 I just found out I have cancer and I don't know how to process 11:09 that yet and all of a sudden I look up and there is this little 11:14 girl, and she is around the group but never with the group. 11:19 I thought, she isn't with the group, and I started looking 11:24 at her and she has that Michelin tire guy look. 11:28 Like somebody gave her too many steroids. 11:31 So I looked at her and her hair is falling out and there 11:34 is patches of it gone. 11:35 I thought, Oh I bet she has cancer, so I went up and sat 11:40 down and said, can you tell me your story? 11:43 She said what makes you think I have a story? 11:46 I said, everybody has a story. 11:48 She said, I have cancer. I said, shut up. 11:52 You have cancer? because I have cancer. 11:54 So we can be cancer buddies, right? 11:57 She started laughing so hard and we became cancer buddies. 12:02 We hung out together and I watched God healing both of us. 12:06 I thought, God, You can even use this. 12:10 How incredible are you that even the things that scare us, 12:14 God says, don't be scared. 12:17 I am still God and I am still in control and I will take 12:20 even this and bless you beyond what you can imagine. 12:23 So I really got a sense of what it says in the Bible when 12:26 it says don't walk away from your tribulations too soon. 12:29 Don't walk away from your stuff too soon because I will use 12:32 everything and will you get hit with stuff? 12:35 Yeah, we live here but I'll use everything. 12:38 Come back because I will tell you what happened with 12:41 the cancer stuff but I also want to have you meet some friends 12:44 of mine that got hit with something I thought would 12:47 take them out, and it has not, it actually has blessed them. 12:51 and the people around them. 12:52 So stay with us we will be right back! |
Revised 2014-12-17