Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Caleb Coller, Jamie Pottinge, Karina Silva, Jean Jarda
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00076B
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00:14 Welcome back, now I would like to introduce you to Caleb.
00:18 When I first met you Caleb you are like 5'6 and now you 00:22 are 6'3 and you did that growth within the last year 00:25 and a half it seems. 00:27 Do you notice it, or did all the sudden someone look at 00:32 you like, wow, what happened? 00:33 I noticed it because every time I went into the bathroom 00:36 and I would look in the mirror, I'm like wasn't I able 00:38 to see my forehead before? 00:40 And now I can even see it. That is so funny! 00:45 You have agreed to let me lead you through prayer of 00:49 healing, so tell us a little bit about where you came 00:52 from, how you got to Miracle Meadows, as some of the 00:55 things that have helped you there. 00:59 I was born in Tennessee to my mom and dad. 01:04 My parents were very interactive at first in their 01:08 relationship with each other, they were very godly. 01:12 They prayed and my mom was always there, and my dad was 01:17 always there, except my dad was in the Army. 01:19 Every so often he would off training. 01:22 For like weeks or months at a time? 01:26 Just weeks, just weeks at first, but anyway. 01:30 So our family was very nice and we had a nice family. 01:35 Then we move to North Carolina and our family started 01:39 going downhill in our relationships. 01:42 My mom would, in a way, she'd cheat on my dad. 01:48 - how did you know that? Did you know that or sensed it? 01:51 Really at first I didn't know until I got older and 01:57 I was able to comprehend. 02:02 What is really tough about that, I want to just jump in. 02:04 Sometimes as adults we don't realize how much kids 02:10 actually see, as far as what we do. 02:12 If you are in your mind are taught one thing, this is how 02:15 God is, this our family is, and all of a sudden everything 02:18 is falling apart and you know that everybody is becoming 02:21 very deceptive, then what is true about life? 02:25 What is true about anything? - right! 02:26 And that is what you were feeling? - right! 02:29 So I felt, as you were saying, I felt mixed emotions. 02:33 I didn't know what to think about my mom and my dad. 02:37 I didn't know who I wanted to be with. 02:41 - did they split up? - Right! 02:43 My mom left my dad when I was about seven years old. 02:46 Off and on my mom would leave the house, they were not 02:49 officially divorced but just so they can have a little 02:52 time off because of the nagging and the annoyance 02:55 that was in the house. 02:57 My mom didn't want to leave my dad, because my mom wasn't 02:59 able to support herself and my dad could. 03:04 So it was different, so my mom would leave my dad for 03:07 a week or two at a time, find herself a little apartment. 03:10 She would live in the apartment for maybe a period of 03:13 a month and come back to the house. 03:16 Did she take you? 03:18 I would go see her maybe every other week. 03:23 So there was a lot of issues going on with my mom. 03:27 She started acting out violently toward my dad. 03:32 Issues I wasn't really aware of, my mom would get angry 03:37 and someone would say something to my mom and she would 03:42 come home and let it out on my dad. 03:44 One time my mom even pulled a gun on my dad. 03:47 So you saw a ton of stuff growing up? - right! 03:51 When did you start acting out? 03:53 Because what is interesting is the lot of people are 03:57 seeing whatever kid is acting out and angry, they will 04:00 see that but they don't see the whole family dynamics. 04:03 So when did you start realizing that you are angry? 04:05 Probably when I was growing up, little, maybe 7 years old. 04:11 I would act out in class, there was no one in my 04:14 neighborhood that I could communicate with. 04:16 We were in a little cul-de-sac, so we didn't have anyone 04:20 near us so I didn't have any friends around me. 04:23 That or my age, or however. 04:25 I would go to school and act up in class. 04:29 Since I was in a private school they could spank me. 04:33 So I would get spankings everyday from my principal. 04:37 I was outgoing but in a disrespectful way. 04:44 With your spankings I'm sure you just took that and 04:48 said thank you so much? 04:52 Do you know what I mean? Because when you're angry and 04:54 somebody is spanking you, you want to act out more. 04:58 So I can see you as a kid just saying, everything is 05:01 falling apart, nobody is making sense, nobody is taking 05:04 care of me, and I just want to scream and all 05:07 you're going to do is spank me? 05:09 Are you kidding me? Right! 05:10 I think what is really tough is that the whole world is 05:13 demanding you behave and nobody is behaving around you. 05:16 Crazy stuff, I just want to adopt you. Go ahead! 05:22 I didn't understand a lot of things either. 05:25 Everything was all good in my life, ever thing was going 05:29 okay and then I would see something happen with my mom 05:34 and then I would be very violent. 05:37 Because you would try to pretend it's all good, then the 05:41 reality would hit you. 05:45 After those things my mom, we moved to Maryland because 05:49 my dad's in the Army, he has to be stationed in different 05:54 places so we moved Maryland. 05:57 Then my parents were getting a divorce. 05:59 So my mom stayed in North Carolina and packed for like 06:04 a week while we left and went to Maryland. 06:06 We lived in Maryland. 06:08 - Were they still at that point trying to get together? 06:12 Did they keep coming together and separating? 06:14 When my dad would leave, at this point my dad was starting 06:19 to leave to go over to Iraq. 06:21 My mom would come and stay with us in the house to provide 06:25 a little support, but it wasn't really supportive it was 06:29 because she needed someplace to stay. 06:30 You kind of knew that? - right! 06:32 So now you mentioned something that people do 06:35 not even take into account, now your dad is going 06:38 to be stationed in Iraq, were you aware of any the 06:41 news stuff at that time? 06:43 Um, I really didn't like watching anything that was 06:47 really going on with my dad, I would always say 06:51 that he might be killed. 06:53 I would always use that as an excuse for my behavior, 06:56 but my behavior was honestly based on how I was feeling 07:00 and wanted everyone around me didn't understand that 07:03 I wanted to give them a little piece of how I was feeling. 07:08 But even for me looking at you as a little kid, 07:11 even if you didn't want that to affect you, that had to 07:14 still be another thing that was added on to the 07:17 smoldering flame stuff, now you are looking at your 07:21 father of being deployed to Iraq. 07:23 So then eventually you get to Miracle Meadows? - right! 07:29 I started fighting in schools, as I said I wanted to give 07:34 someone a little piece of how I was feeling. 07:36 At first it was to get rid of my anger. 07:39 If someone would get my face, get within my boundaries, 07:42 honestly the reason I didn't like that because my dad was 07:45 like, my dad is a very tough man and I'll say that to 07:49 anyone, he was very strong and could take a lot of things. 07:52 He would yell at me, yell at me, and yell at me and 07:55 I would get frustrated and take it in my heart and 07:59 carry it like a backpack and get to school and say, 08:02 dad today and we'll have a good day and make you proud, 08:05 then everything went downhill. 08:08 Then you just blow. - right, exactly! 08:11 I met this one kid one time, tell me what you think of 08:15 this, he said he felt like he had a ball, a metal ball 08:19 in his gut and it was filled with lava. 08:21 The ball kept breaking and the lava would seep out. 08:25 He said he spent his whole day trying to patch those 08:29 areas of up so that it wouldn't seep out. 08:31 But it always did, and he was always blowing up. 08:35 He said that whole time he was this frantic trying to 08:38 be good, trying to patch it up, trying not to lose it. 08:42 The pressure for him was amazing, and it seems like what 08:45 you are saying is that the pressure of trying to do the 08:48 right thing with all this anger, 08:49 and all this craziness, was horrible. 08:52 Actually I think you just hit the nail on the head, 08:55 that was actually a lot of what I was feeling. 08:56 I was trying to be good for my dad, because I honestly 08:59 wanted to make my dad proud. 09:01 He wouldn't believe that today, but I was trying to make 09:03 my dad proud of me. 09:05 That was your hearts cry? Right! 09:07 Because I love my dad with everything I have, 09:10 I just don't show it a lot, I curse my dad out sometimes. 09:12 I still love him with everything I have. 09:15 As I said, what you said honestly was how I was feeling. 09:19 There was a lot of stuff going on in my life and I was 09:24 constantly trying to behave, be good and do these 09:27 good thing so I could get a pat on the back from 09:30 my dad, saying good job. 09:32 I would go on and fight in school and get suspended for 09:37 whatever. - so eventually, let's just jump in, 09:41 eventually everything was so out of control that they 09:44 sent you to Miracle Meadows. 09:46 Did you come willingly? - at first I got a phone call 09:49 from my dad, I got suspended from school, and got a phone 09:53 call from my dad and he said, Caleb what would you think 09:56 if I sent you to a reform school. 09:59 You would come home every six months and you would get to 10:02 see me, you'd be there for a year and a half to two years. 10:05 What would you think about that? 10:07 He said would you be willing to go? I said yeah, honestly 10:09 anything to get out of the house. 10:11 - the house was so crazy at that time? 10:13 Definitely, I was feeling so much pressure in the house. 10:15 My dad had gotten married to this girl again so 10:20 I wasn't familiar with her. 10:22 I didn't really like her at all because she would always show 10:25 a lot of affection towards her son and a little bit more 10:29 towards my sister, but I would hardly get anything. 10:33 She tried sometimes, but it was like you weren't there 10:36 for me through this, so back off. 10:39 It's hard when you are filled with that much anger 10:41 to allow people in? - right! 10:43 Because that lava is going to get on them and it hurts 10:46 them, they just back off. 10:48 So after I came to Miracle Meadows I started being 10:55 a little, I don't know how to explain it, kind of like 11:03 a candle, a little flame started. 11:06 I came to Miracle Meadows willingly on my own and it got 11:11 a little worse, I came here with issues and in a way they 11:16 got worse and some got better. 11:18 For instance my anger, I came here and can remember 11:22 instances where, as I said before, someone would get in my 11:26 face and it reminded me of things I went through with my 11:29 dad screaming at me how are you doing this? Blah, blah, 11:32 blah, blah and I would strike back. 11:35 And you would strike back. - right! 11:37 You ended up with a lot of times in, not seclusion, 11:41 what is the room? - quarantined. - quarantined. 11:45 They just sent you away from everybody and you will be 11:49 right here, but it's really tough is that did that set 11:52 off, because part of you that no one was seeing or 11:56 hearing you, nobody was doing the right thing by you. 12:00 So when you are in quarantine did that push those buttons? 12:04 How dare you put me over here by myself? 12:08 Yes, and one of the things that honestly, before if I hadn't 12:12 gone through the things I had, it would bother me, but I was 12:16 very emotional too, so besides me fighting I was saying 12:20 I'm going to kill myself. 12:22 It was really just how it was thinking, I just wanted to 12:24 die, and said that I was doing to kill myself. 12:26 But I really wasn't going to. 12:28 I just want someone to pay attention to me. - right! 12:30 I just want someone to respond. - right! 12:31 I want to see how bad this hurts, I am in turmoil and 12:36 being tormented by this stuff. 12:39 So I was being put into a children's hospital, 12:44 for a while, to regain my self-control and put on 12:47 medicines that would make me look like a zombie and 12:51 just walk around like I was crazy. 12:56 I didn't like it, so now that I'm at Miracle Meadows, 13:00 a structured place, when I get put into a room by myself, 13:04 it's like I relive the past again. 13:07 I think about things I went through and just thinking 13:10 about how I was before, it just hurts me. 13:14 - So I have to say this, I love what Miracle Meadows do 13:19 so I understand the room, I understand the need for safety, 13:25 for yourself and for the staff, for everybody. 13:27 But it really does push all those buttons so I would like 13:30 to ask you some questions about those buttons. 13:39 As I'm getting into recovery and I'm healing I a lot of 13:45 what God is telling me to do is to bring some of 13:46 those deeper hurts to Him and ask Him for 13:50 healing in those areas. 13:52 When I bring them to Him a lot of times I realize that 13:55 I have to get forgiveness, or give forgiveness for 13:58 the people around me. 13:59 So I'm going to ask you a few things because you had said 14:02 you will allow us to do a prayer with you to show people 14:05 how to do the prayer. 14:06 So I want to ask you, when you were with your family and 14:10 all that craziness was going on, everybody was being so 14:14 deceptive and you were just sitting there with all this 14:17 anger, and all this feeling inside of you, can you list 14:21 some feeling words that you were stuck with? 14:24 Anger being one. 14:31 Not respecting people who are around me, I had disregard for 14:34 everyone who ever walked the face of the planet. 14:37 At that point I really didn't care, what did the world do 14:40 for me so why should I care about them. 14:45 So the fact of losing faith in people around you. 14:50 That is huge because you were seven when this started. 14:55 So losing faith, how about any shame? 14:58 Were you ever ashamed of yourself and how you acted? 15:01 I was ashamed, not because of how I acted, but probably 15:05 the responses I got from the people I loved. 15:08 I would never really admit it to my dad openly, 15:11 and really emotionally but, like I said before, 15:14 I really do love my dad. 15:16 And as crazy as my whole family is, I love every one of 15:20 them, my dad died in a crack house and people were saying 15:24 you probably have no feelings for him. 15:26 Absolutely I have feelings for him. 15:28 Your dad was doing things in response to what was 15:32 happening with your mom, so we love the folks, 15:37 our parents, sisters and brothers and all that stuff. 15:42 So like I was saying, my dad like I said I love him, 15:47 I wanted him to be happy, but I wasn't doing the things 15:53 that showed him I wanted him to be happy. 15:55 You know the love languages, his love languages is the 16:00 love language of works. 16:02 By showing you love someone by what you do. 16:04 So when I would go to school, I would fight and pick up 16:08 the people and throw them across the room. 16:11 I would get angry and punch people in the face. 16:13 So in his eyes that meant that you absolutely 16:16 don't love him. - Exactly! 16:17 He would say Caleb, if you love me stop telling me you 16:21 love me and do what you need to do, go on with your life. 16:25 So shame, disappointment, that you were a disappointment? 16:29 Right! - did you ever feel like you were a mistake? 16:33 Yes, I gave the analogy... - not that you made the 16:37 mistake but you are a mistake? - yes! 16:39 I gave the analogy to my psychologists, she was like 16:44 play therapy type person, you would come there and play. 16:49 It was a way to get out your feelings. 16:51 I gave this analogy that I was this concoction of stuff 16:56 God used to whip people up and make them who they are. 17:01 I was like the bottom scraping of everything. 17:05 Like I was just like leftovers put together. 17:08 You didn't even think about this, 17:10 it was just whatever was left. - right! 17:11 So could you imagine like now, that you have done a lot 17:15 healing, could you imagine now what that must have 17:18 felt like at 7, or 5? 17:22 I do think about it sometimes how I was feeling, 17:25 and sometimes I regret the things that I did, 17:28 all the things that I did. 17:30 So I what I would like to do is to think about, 17:33 the Bible says that the devil is like a roaring lion 17:39 looking to see who he can devour, and when people 17:43 start acting out in families, all of a sudden that 17:47 devouring becomes easy. You know what I mean? 17:49 Your mom decides she's going to go over here and start 17:52 playing around, she's look at other guys, she's doing 17:54 whatever and not realizing that you are affected 17:58 by the whole thing. 17:59 They start fighting, your home life is falling apart, 18:02 this normal happy home that you are comfortable in all 18:04 of a sudden starts changing. 18:06 The devil just jumps in there and just has a party. 18:10 He loves that stuff, so at that point in our lives that 18:13 he starts taking all those feelings that you felt and 18:17 starts right in your ear, nah, nah, nah, nah, 18:21 do you know what I mean? 18:22 So I would like to start prayer with the things that he 18:28 decided to do in your life, to destroy you with. 18:31 I would like you to take those back. 18:34 Because in Christ, you are a Christian right? - right! 18:38 Christ says I died for those things, I so died for those 18:42 things, do you believe that? - yeah! 18:44 Tell me where you are spiritually, 18:46 so I know you're are spiritually at? 18:48 I guess you could say I relapsed before and I'm trying to 18:52 get back up, before I was having a good relationship with God 18:56 prayer for the people that I love and I wanted God 18:59 to be with me in my life. 19:01 I realize how bad the world was then, everything I went 19:04 through before it came to Miracle Meadows. 19:05 You know what could have happened to me, I could be dead 19:08 right now because the kids I used to fight with weren't 19:11 little, they were bigger. 19:14 So I honestly think I could've been dead right now. 19:19 Yeah, some of the things. 19:21 So what I believe is that the devil came into your home 19:26 and trashed everybody, and he doesn't wait until you are 19:30 of age, oh wait, can't trash Caleb because he's only 7! 19:33 Do you know what I mean, he loves to get us early. 19:36 The Bible talks in one of the chapters to fight against 19:39 the schemes of the devil, I think the schemes of the devil 19:42 are the things he sets up in our lives. 19:44 To fight against those, and right now the schemes of the 19:48 devil in your life, is you are nothing, they are not 19:51 taking care of you, you were the low of the lowest. 19:55 All of heaven says that is a lie, that is such a lie. 19:59 So with that lie being told to you, that all the 20:04 feelings that happened in your life, anger, bitterness, 20:08 rage, shame, all those kind of things are the things you 20:12 have now got in your pockets and you live with. 20:16 So are going to surrender of those things. 20:18 I want you in this prayer, I want you to take 20:21 full responsibility for all those things. 20:23 For your own anger and your own stuff. 20:25 What is really interesting to me when I started to look 20:28 at this, is God died for me, Jesus died for me. 20:33 He said let Me have all that stuff, let Me have your 20:36 molest, let Me have your shame, let Me have the fact that 20:39 you feel worthless, let Me have that and let Me pour into 20:42 you how incredible you are. 20:45 Do you believe in a spiritual sense that you were 20:47 never a mistake? - Yes I do believe, I was never a mistake. 20:52 Once you go through certain things you know the picture 20:57 becomes a little bit clearer, at first I believed I was 21:01 a mistake, then I started to get closer to God and He 21:05 would give me revelations, not actual revelations, 21:09 just let me know that I was not mistake and that I am on 21:12 this earth for a purpose. 21:13 All I have to do straighten out my life and I can bring 21:15 a lot of people to Him. 21:17 Amen, because you know there is healing. 21:20 Okay so if I was going to say, name some of the things 21:25 that have stayed in your life, got stuck in your life, 21:28 the rings of your life because of what happened to you 21:32 early on, you said anger was one for sure, shame and 21:35 feeling like you are a mistake, anything else? 21:38 Any depression or any of that stuff? 21:41 Yeah, I have a lot of depression and sometimes even think 21:47 of suicide, but I'm trying to get over that now. 21:50 Because I realize it is like walking in the middle 21:54 of a movie theater you want to see the movie but it's 21:58 getting too intense so you wasted your money and you 22:01 leave, I don't want to do that. 22:03 I want to go through the whole thing and 22:04 see what is happening at the end of my life. 22:06 What is really fun when you say that, is my sense of even 22:09 when I first met you, is that God is going to stand you 22:13 up and you are going to do some powerful things, 22:14 helping other folks heal with their issues. 22:18 So the end of the movie for you, using the same analogy, 22:22 is probably going to be so amazing. 22:24 I think the devil would love to take us out. 22:27 Like we hit this hard time and devil says no, no just take 22:32 yourself out, we never get to see the joy of our 22:35 recovery, for you the joy of your recovery is going to 22:38 be huge, not only for you but for your father and for 22:42 the people that love you. - right! 22:43 We're going to start prayer, I'm going to have you first 22:49 of all look at anybody in your life that you have really 22:55 intense, like are you angry at your mom? 22:58 Or your father, is there any of that left? 23:01 No I forgave my mom a long time ago. - everything? 23:05 Yeah. - are you sure? - yeah. - okay! 23:07 Anybody in your life that you feel like this person, 23:10 for some reason I have some, 23:12 a little bit of stuff still here? 23:25 Maybe my stepmom, I still, even though I triggered her to 23:29 do a lot of the things she did, you know because I didn't 23:33 respect her, I still don't like her for a lot of the things. 23:38 - why couldn't to love me? - right! 23:39 - Why couldn't it be fair? So before we go on to prayer, 23:43 I would like you to start with that prayer and just ask, 23:47 tell God you forgive her, I forgive her and say 23:52 some things that you want to forgive her for. 23:55 The biggest thing is the fact of not loving you. 23:59 You have watched her love the people around you and you 24:02 had such a hole in your heart that wanted to be loved, 24:05 that you knew when she looked at you that you didn't get 24:08 that from her, and so to forgive her for that. 24:10 Once you forgive her for that, then we are going to start 24:13 prayer as far as reclaiming everything the devil meant to 24:17 destroy you with, because he meant to destroy you, 24:19 you know that, this was a battle. 24:21 The battle for you was for your very life, definitely 24:25 your mind and so saying to the devil all that you meant 24:28 to destroy me with I am going to reclaim and take full 24:31 responsibility for that and then I'm going to give it 24:34 to God because He died for me. 24:37 You know I believe this so much that when I did it for 24:41 myself, on certain issues I have never had issues 24:44 with that again, ever. 24:46 So I'm going to ask Miracle Meadows group to come up and 24:49 join us for this prayer. 24:50 If you guys can come up and literally put your hands 24:53 on him, and your hand on me. 24:55 How about everybody, just everybody come up. 25:00 It's really tough because we are onset, but being onset 25:03 doesn't change the fact that this prayer for us, 25:07 and for you, for him, you guys love him right? 25:10 So we really are praying for your total recovery, 25:13 that you understand for the first time who you are and 25:17 the fact that it matters that you are here. 25:19 The people around you weren't able to do that because of 25:23 their own stuff, but God says if you trust Me I'll do 25:26 for you, I will do that for you. 25:28 Okay give me your hands. 25:29 I want you to start up with forgiving your stepmom, 25:34 and really just talk about what it is 25:36 you are forgiving her for. 25:38 Dear Heavenly Father, I lift up to you my feelings towards 25:44 my stepmother, I want You to take away all harsh feelings 25:50 that I still have towards her. 25:51 Even though I pushed her away, she tried loving me, 25:55 she tried caring but I pushed her away and I feel 25:59 like there is something she could have done to make me 26:02 not feel, or not push her away Father. 26:04 Please help me to forgive her for that and please help 26:08 me to forgive all the other harsh feelings that may not 26:11 be visible my life right now. 26:13 Father help them come to the surface so I can see them 26:17 so I can forgive them. 26:18 I come along side Caleb and just say fill him with 26:22 forgiveness for his mom and his dad and what ever is left 26:26 for school and principle and people that looked at his 26:30 anger and ran, because what he was screaming was please 26:34 don't run from me, please come up and hold me. 26:36 So I just pray Father for forgiveness, whatever is left 26:40 in his heart I just pray Father for complete forgiveness. 26:43 I also ask You for all the things the devil meant to 26:47 destroy him with, all the junk, all the hurts in his 26:49 life, all the shame and the fact that he felt like 26:52 a mistake, that he wasn't and he didn't belong anywhere. 26:55 The fact nobody was seeing him and all those things I pray 26:59 for Caleb that he takes full responsibility of that, 27:02 his bitterness and his anger, that he takes it right back 27:06 from the devil and takes it right into his own hands and 27:09 he surrenders that to you because I know that You died for 27:13 him and I pray that You take all that rage and all that 27:16 anger and all that sadness and depression and suicidal 27:20 stuff, the things that had just plagued him and tormented 27:23 him through these young years, I pray that You take that 27:26 and that he knows that You have taken that. 27:29 He knows that You died for that and that he knows that You 27:32 want to fill him up with love and joy and peace and 27:34 patience and self-control and that you want 27:37 to fill him with the Holy Spirit. 27:39 I pray Father for this man of God, this person that will 27:42 stand up in his life and bring hope to those around him. 27:45 I pray that what he feels in his life right now is love, 27:49 peace, joy, self-control, what he feels in his life is 27:53 that You are his Father and that You are so proud of him. 27:56 I also pray for his favor in his father's eyes, that his 28:00 father looks at him and sees such a change that he will 28:04 feel so proud that this is my son and I am well pleased. 28:07 I know that you know Father what that is like and I just 28:10 ask You for that to be true in Caleb's life. 28:13 I pray for all these people that are around Caleb 28:15 with their hands on him. 28:17 Their hearts just longs for him to feel that freedom from 28:19 all this junk, of all these emotional things. 28:21 So we are praying right now for the Holy Spirit to fill him up, 28:24 for him to heal emotionally, physically, spiritually for 28:29 every single thing that has stayed and his pockets and for 28:32 those to be emptied out that he stands free and able to 28:36 look at his life and ask God what is my next step. 28:39 Let him take that step with ease. 28:41 I thank You for that and that You love us. 28:43 I thank You that with all this junk, these hurts, all this 28:47 stuff that is put into our minds and our lives from early 28:50 on, that You are bigger than all of that and You can bring 28:53 healing and so were asking for healing in Caleb's life. 28:56 I am privileged to be his friend, I'm privileged to be a 28:59 part of his life, and I'm privileged to be in this prayer. 29:02 In Jesus name, Amen! - Amen! 29:06 Thank you for joining us on this and I ask you to remember 29:09 Caleb in prayer, remember all of us because when you run 29:13 across people, these are the layers people walk around 29:16 with, so just remember that in your prayer. 29:19 Remember that God says I want to free you from that. 29:22 I don't want you to be manipulated for the rest of 29:25 your life with feeling like you are a mistake and all that junk. 29:28 I want you to surrender that, and He so freely waits 29:30 for us to do that. 29:31 We are going to be right back, stay with us because 29:35 I'm going to introduce you to another staff person and 29:38 she has an incredible testimony. |
Revised 2014-12-17