Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Caleb Coller, Jamie Pottinge, Karina Silva, Jean Jarda
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00076C
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00:14 Welcome back, I want to thank you for joining us,
00:17 for that prayer with Caleb. 00:18 I know it is a little odd to be doing that on set, 00:21 but those are the things that people need to remember. 00:25 There are layers in people's lives that until 00:29 we actually say them out loud and surrender them to God, 00:31 we carry them. 00:33 We can be manipulated and buttons are pushed for the 00:36 oddest things and we may respond to something that 00:39 happened when we were three. 00:41 We may not realize that this is not a current thing, 00:43 but it happened when I was three. 00:44 I love the fact that God says, just give it to Me because 00:48 I died for that, you don't have to work it out. 00:50 Some of us go to counseling, and I don't mind that 00:52 counseling stuff, but God says, you can bypass that 00:56 because I am willing to take that from you. 00:58 I will fill you up with the knowledge of who 01:00 you are in Me, it's amazing. 01:02 Karina I just want to say thank you for coming back on 01:05 the show, because you have been on the show before. 01:08 You are coming back as staff right now, but you were 01:12 not always staff, so talk about how you first came to 01:16 Miracle Meadows and what brought you back this time. 01:20 Okay, I was enrolled in Miracle Meadows when I was 13-14. 01:26 I just had so much in me at that age, so much struggles, 01:32 so many trials I guess. 01:34 And so my family, - I love the way you say that, and so 01:39 my trials, and I'm thinking you had a ton of stuff. 01:45 Growing up, I grew up in Mexico at the time, I was 01:50 confused for most of my childhood until I was 6 or 7. 01:54 I thought my grandfather was my dad, so when he passed 01:58 away it was a shocker. 01:59 I thought my mom was my sister and my grandmother was my 02:01 mom, it was a very confusing scene for me. 02:03 When my grandfather died everything was told to me how it 02:08 was and I was brought over to the United States. 02:11 It was something totally different for me because I was 02:16 born there and raised over there and then brought over here. 02:18 The language was different, the culture was different, 02:20 I just lost it. - even your parents were different. 02:22 Yes my family setting was different. 02:25 Unfortunately mom was a single mother and she had to work 02:30 to support myself and herself. 02:32 I was from babysitter to babysitter and to babysitter. 02:37 I began to be molested at a young age. 02:41 I think, when I look back at it, I think all that put 02:46 together, all at the age 6, in less than 8 months 02:50 altogether it just overwhelmed me when I was a child. 02:56 From that point I started, not acting out from that point, 02:59 but thinking differently. 03:00 My mother got together with another man and because of 03:06 some of the family issues, as well, we moved around. 03:11 - a lot. - a lot! 03:13 By the time I graduated from high school, this past year, 03:15 I had been to 18 different schools. 03:17 It was crazy. - so when you came to Miracle Meadows, 03:21 you had all that, I don't know who you are, I don't know 03:24 who I am, I just know that nobody's going to hurt me 03:28 again, you were very self protecting and very angry. 03:31 You know watching you go through Miracle Meadows and just 03:34 getting yourself back, getting your sense of that maybe 03:38 the world is not as unsafe as I thought it was. 03:41 Maybe I will have a life, maybe I will graduate. 03:44 Because you didn't think at all that you are going to 03:46 graduate seventh-grade. 03:48 No, but I had to do my eighth grade year twice because 03:51 I got expelled from the county and stuff happened that 03:55 I wasn't going to school. 03:56 So I would like to have you back and just talk about your 03:59 story, but I want to know, you worked through some issues, 04:02 get your high school and graduate from Miracle Meadows, 04:06 but then you came back as staff, are you crazy? 04:10 Because it is a hard group, you were hard, you know what 04:12 I mean, so what would make you come back to face that kind 04:16 of abuse from kids that are going through all this trauma. 04:19 Why did you come back? Why staff here? 04:21 I think it is because I know, I know where you can come 04:26 from, and how hard it is to transition all that to see 04:32 yourself in a different light. 04:33 To wake up every morning and know that you are in a place, 04:36 that you are having struggles, you have to work something, 04:38 and you can't see what you can be. 04:41 There are people telling you constantly that you can be 04:44 something, you don't see it and it's so frustrating. 04:47 I just thought, now I can look back at it and see 04:50 different things, so now I... - you want to tell them. 04:54 The fact that you can forgive the people in your life, 04:58 you can walk out from underneath all that stuff. 05:01 You have been staffed there for how long now? 05:05 Around 5 to 6 months. 05:07 - and you're in college, what are you taking in college? 05:10 Criminal Justice and forensic psychology. 05:13 I can't even stand you saying it, how cool is that? 05:16 I know you didn't even think you were going to finish high 05:18 school and so I want to say I am so proud of you. 05:22 You're beautiful, you have such a spirit about you that 05:26 is so cool, I know that you love God and I know you love 05:30 these kids and I think God has brought you full circle 05:34 in all that. - yeah, thank you. 05:37 How fun, I want to say in closing out this program, 05:41 is that as Christians and were talking about recovery. 05:45 Everybody's recovery is different. 05:47 We have some real serious issues throughout your whole 05:50 life, your recovery is going to be intense. 05:52 You are going to need people around you sometimes in a 05:55 school like Miracle Meadows. 05:56 You're going to need someone that will stay with you 05:58 regardless of your yelling, cussing or whatever. 06:00 They will stay with you to the very end. 06:03 Some of us don't need that, but what we do need is the 06:07 reality that there is a God, I am powerless to do with 06:11 myself and there is a God outside of that that can restore 06:14 me to sanity, can teach me who I am, can teach me how 06:18 to forgive and how to let people in my life go. 06:22 And not go as far as not being in relationship, but go as 06:26 far as what they owe me, or I owe them, or what they have 06:29 done to me, but right or wrong of it and just being able 06:31 to walk out from underneath that and heal. 06:35 If you are listening and you have those struggles, get on 06:38 your knees and say whatever the devil meant to destroy you 06:42 with, whatever the devil meant to twist you with and rob 06:46 you from, and I would say take all that back and all the shame, 06:49 if you feel like a mistake, say God I feel like that. 06:52 I want to forgive everybody in my life and take it back. 06:55 I want to surrender that to God and I want to be free 06:58 for the first time from all that stuff. 07:00 Until we see you next time, always your remember that God 07:02 is crazy about you, us too, 07:05 Bye, God bless! |
Revised 2014-12-17