Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Raven White
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00080A
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00:11 Welcome to Celebrating Life In Recovery, I'm Cheri.
00:13 Today we are going to just talk about how incredibly cool 00:15 God is, come join us in the café. 00:45 Welcome to the café, there is a group at the café, 00:48 some friends of mine that have done the program before. 00:51 That is Angela and Dan and I want to say, I'm glad you're 00:54 back, and there is a group from Wildwood. 00:56 The reason I brought them in, is that a lot of you know 00:59 that I have been dealing with cancer. 01:02 What is really interesting, leukemia, and I'm fine, 01:04 I just want to say that, some people have me already 01:07 dead, I am not dead, but I am fine. 01:10 I ended up thinking, in my recovery, this whole program is 01:14 about recovery, in my recovery I used to if I got hit 01:18 with something like this, or not even like this, 01:20 if I got hit with even with it's going to be a bad day, 01:23 I wanted some drugs, if you know what I mean. 01:25 Now in my recovery, I'm getting hit with the major things 01:29 and I am finding out that even that, I can deal with. 01:33 I gathered through the first part of my recovery the 01:36 ability to look at some of these pretty intense things, 01:39 I can say you know what, I am okay. 01:41 I can deal with this, I can get through this. 01:44 So what I did is I started to look at, I've done a lot 01:47 of recovery work and I know if there is a psychological 01:50 problem, if I'm dealing with anger, if I'm dealing with 01:53 depression, if I'm dealing with that kind of stuff I know 01:56 what to do, but I didn't know physically what to do. 02:00 So I called around, and I called around and it was 02:04 terrible because I am in Ministry so I never have a dime. 02:06 Halftime I don't have gas money, so if you have any money 02:09 to send it to me, going to have to tell them I don't have 02:12 that, so called around and asked a number of places, 02:14 can I come and go through your program and learn how to 02:17 take care of myself physically? 02:19 Wildwood, they were so amazing, because they just said 02:23 absolutely, and what I found out when I got there is that 02:27 there is a number of people from all over the world. 02:30 Students from all over the world that really believe that 02:34 health and recovery is more than just figuring out how to 02:38 stop doing drugs more than just figuring out that I'm not 02:41 going to get lost on a computer anymore, I'm not going to 02:45 spend 12 hours with videogames, or Internet porn, 02:49 or I'm not going to drink and slam drugs. 02:52 I'm not going to isolate myself. 02:54 More than just that physical thing, so these students 02:57 from all over the world have their own stories. 03:01 Some of the stories are just like, you look at some 03:03 body that is incredibly healthy, looks like they have 03:05 it all together and they have come from 03:08 some pretty heartbreaking backgrounds. 03:10 So I learned a couple things, I learned you can't 03:14 judge somebody by how you see them and that some people 03:18 are so passionate about telling others, that part of 03:21 maintaining your recovery and your health is 03:24 to learn that everything matters. 03:26 It matters, like I didn't know when you sleep, when you go 03:30 to sleep, I go to sleep when I can't keep my eyes open 03:34 anymore, so it is two clock the morning and I think I can't do 03:37 another thing and it is time to go to sleep. 03:39 But I didn't know that from eight to 12 o'clock at night, 03:43 from eight at night to 12 o'clock at night that if you 03:46 are sleeping only your body produces serotonin levels. 03:49 Well serotonin helps you with depression, it helps you 03:52 feel good, it helps you laugh and all those things. 03:55 But if you are not asleep, your body doesn't get it. 03:58 I'm thinking, oh stop, I don't think I have ever been to 04:01 sleep before midnight, you know. 04:02 So I had to start learning, I'm dealing with health, 04:05 I'm dealing with maintenance stuff, so I need 04:07 to go to sleep earlier. 04:08 I didn't know that the serotonin level that your body builds 04:11 up between eight and 12, when the sunlight hits your 04:15 eye, the morning, that place where your serotonin builds up 04:19 gets released, it says, oh good morning. 04:23 I'm like stop, because I never go to bed on time. 04:27 So I started to actually learn that if in the long run 04:31 I want to be successful in my recovery. 04:33 If the long run I literally want to walk into a life 04:36 that is healthy, I have to start being healthy. 04:40 You know part of it that I learned at Wildwood was 04:45 discipline, stop its killing me. 04:48 You know I'm not disciplined, and I've always said it's 04:53 my personality, but I really have learned that discipline 04:57 is not a bad thing. 04:59 I took up biking as a hobby. 05:02 At first just riding around the block, I thought my 05:04 first ride I was going to ride, our blocks in the country, 05:08 20 miles, so I thought was going to do 20 miles or at 05:11 least 5 miles, and I got a mile and looked up and 05:14 thought, I cannot do this. 05:15 I remember God lovingly saying to me, just like you 05:19 did the first part of your recovery, when you took your 05:22 first step, you realized you were powerless and 05:24 turned it over to Me. 05:25 You allowed Me to show you some of the things you need 05:28 to get rid of, and all that stuff. 05:30 This step and maintenance and recovery, taking care of 05:33 yourself is going to be like that too. 05:35 At first it is going to seem like it's going to 05:37 be a lot of work. 05:38 At first you are going to be really struggling with 05:40 going around the block, or even going a mile, 05:43 but you know what, you will get it. 05:44 I thought at first He was crazy, I don't mean to say 05:48 God is crazy, but He knows what I meant. 05:51 I thought no way, not me! 05:53 Now I'm doing 20 miles without even thinking about it. 05:56 I did 100 miles around Lake Tahoe. 05:58 And we did 100 miles with 3800 cyclists and it was the 06:03 funnest thing, on mile 81, it was a 7 mile incline. 06:07 I almost cried, but you know what, I made it! 06:09 It is an amazing thing, so this part of recovery is more 06:14 than just walking away from the drug. 06:16 It is more than just walking away from your dysfunction. 06:19 It is more than understanding the things that I can't do. 06:22 It's walking into your life, what can you do? 06:26 How do you take care of your body, how do you get your 06:29 energy back, how do you get healthy again? 06:31 Once you get all that, the recovery part of it becomes 06:35 easier, because daily I'm not only staying in my recovery 06:39 program, but I'm actually getting myself healthier. 06:42 I pray that for you, because I never realized 06:46 how unhealthy I was. 06:49 All the stuff that was getting at me and now it is a joy 06:53 to wake up every morning. 06:54 It is a joy to figure out, you know what I'm going to do 06:57 every day, so we are going to break and I will introduce 06:59 you to a woman I met while at Wildwood. 07:01 She has an incredible story, but we are going to hear how 07:05 she maintains her recovery. 07:06 We'll be right back! 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Revised 2014-12-17