Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Chris Corzine
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00094C
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00:14 Welcome back, I love the fact that every once in while
00:18 we get to see the whole family, not the whole family but the 00:21 mom and dad are here, mom and your stepdad. 00:24 Who is my dad, I feel like the Lord intended me to have 00:28 the whole time. 00:29 So from the time she was a little girl with her 00:31 bio-father, an alcoholic and you left him and she goes 00:36 in and out living with you, living with him and 00:38 all that stuff. 00:39 She's in and out of drugs, but you didn't know that did 00:42 you? No, I knew she wasn't living for Christ but I didn't 00:46 know that she was into drugs - that's the sweetest thing 00:49 I've ever heard, I knew she was living for Christ. 00:55 Well I would have been more scared I'm sure if I had 00:58 known now. - You knew did some thing was wrong. - yes. 01:01 So even thought at one time maybe she was taking 01:04 prescription stuff. - she came to visit one time and 01:06 I realized then that something was different about her. 01:10 I thought maybe she was on prescription drugs of some 01:13 kind but I didn't really worry about it that much. 01:16 When did you start to really decide that I need to pray 01:21 for her, that she needs to be covered? 01:23 Well when we would be around her and her actions and the 01:28 way she dressed, the way she talked and I knew that she 01:33 really needed the Lord and so we began to pray. 01:37 Somebody said like 15 years. - probably 15 years. 01:41 I would imagine it probably was when she left home to go 01:44 live with her father, that's when we start praying because 01:48 I knew she was in trouble then. 01:49 - you knew the influences? - yes. - right. 01:52 What would you say to a mother that says you know what 01:54 I just don't think my child is going to be okay? 01:56 They are not going to survive this? 01:58 I would say never to give up, prayer is so powerful. 02:03 If we really knew how powerful it was and just to never 02:07 give up. - were their days that you said I just don't 02:11 think this is working? - I may have said that, that 02:15 I just felt like that I loved her that much and I knew 02:19 my husband loved her that much that we was going to stand 02:23 together and believe on the Lord because it is His 02:28 will for our loved ones to be saved. It's God's will. 02:32 He says I promise I will bring your children back around. 02:36 I will restore your families and all that kind of stuff 02:39 when the Bible talks about raise them up in the Lord and 02:43 they will not depart. 02:45 Not saying they're not going to run and be crazy. 02:47 So now I want to say Chris, you know there is a lot of 02:51 people whose parents are praying for them and everybody 02:54 is praying for them but they are still running like crazy. 02:57 In the last few minutes what would you say to them? 03:00 God has a plan, you know this isn't anything we would 03:03 have ever dreamed would happen, and I'm sure when mom 03:06 had and Bud had to drop me off at prison and watched 03:09 me walk through those doors, they certainly never knew 03:11 it would culminate to this, to me having first off a career, 03:17 a platform for ministry, to be going around and talking 03:21 to other people. - how does that feel? 03:23 Well I think it's awesome. - exactly, how incredible 03:28 is that? It is we were out shopping about some speaking 03:32 engagements coming up and we were out shopping for 03:34 clothes the other day and I was just in the dressing room 03:36 and it just dawned on me, mom how does it feel that 03:38 we are shopping for clothes together so I can go out and 03:41 evangelize for the Lord. 03:42 Because it is all about what He's done not about what 03:44 I have done. It's all about Him. - what did she say? 03:47 She was like oh. - but it feels good. - it does. 03:50 It feels so good so never give up, never give up. 03:53 God has a plan and no matter what a mess we make of our 03:58 lives, our family still loves us. 04:00 - exactly, and what I want to cover too here in just the 04:04 last few minutes Chris, is there any point that you had to 04:07 look at both your mom and your stepdad and say I'm sorry? 04:11 Oh yeah, oh gosh yeah. 04:12 When they moved me back from Florida to Illinois and 04:15 I think I said that on such a regular basis because the 04:19 more my brain started to heal, and the more sober I got 04:22 the more I was faced with the consequences. 04:24 People used to tell me I had to forgive myself, you hear 04:27 that in the recovery of a lot, and I would say no 04:29 I want to feel this, I want to feel this guilt. 04:31 - I don't want to run for these feelings anymore? 04:33 Right, I want to know, I want to look in my mom's eyes 04:36 and my dad's eyes and know what I have done and what 04:39 this has cost them. 04:40 I used to think that drug addiction was a victimless crime 04:43 who am I hurting other than me? Well this is who I was hurting. 04:46 But they never turn their backs on me, which I was a 04:50 afraid if they knew who I was they wouldn't want me. 04:54 If God knew who I was, He knows who I am. 04:57 - He wouldn't want me. - it was the opposite. 04:59 You know when we talk about that we definitely have an enemy 05:04 and that enemy says, you know what? I don't want you 05:09 I don't want you. I mean God doesn't want you. 05:12 The people around you, you have gone too far. 05:15 I want to say thanks for sharing this with me and I want 05:18 to look right out to the audience and say that if 05:21 you ever hear that message in your head that you have 05:25 gone too far, you've done too much, you have twisted 05:29 yourself out of shape and there is no way to come in 05:33 and bring you back to a place where 05:35 you are going to be healthy. 05:36 That's a lie, that is a lie. I don't know why but God 05:40 says if you trust Me, if you give Me what ever, what ever 05:44 your addiction is whether its chemical addiction, whether 05:47 it's sexual addiction, whether it is just that you are 05:50 prideful and lying and a perfectionist, workaholic, or 05:53 whatever it is if you give Me that I will 05:57 restore not only you but your entire family. 06:00 And that is amazing, that is such a gift. 06:03 God says I will do it and there is going to be a time you 06:06 will stand there and just want to smile saying I had no 06:10 idea that all these promises, all of this incredible life 06:14 was meant for me because I am a child of God. 06:17 It is just amazing, it is too cool and that 06:20 is all I can say. 06:21 Until next time I want to remind you that God is crazy 06:25 about you and me to. Never forget that, not for a moment. 06:29 I don't care what your dealing with, turn it over and then 06:33 go tell somebody you're sorry. |
Revised 2014-12-17