Participants: Cheri Peters (Host), Megan Baez, Mylynda Ortiz
Series Code: CLR
Program Code: CLR00096C
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00:14 Welcome back! We have covered a lot of things on this
00:17 program and both of you, your journeys have been really 00:21 different and I would like to start with you Mylynda. 00:25 You know you've dealt with all the things that you dealt 00:30 with as far as mom and their separation and the abuses 00:35 of your dad and then his death. 00:37 How are you coming back and dealing with your own anger, 00:40 your own addictions and all that kind of stuff and the 00:44 grief of your father? 00:45 Well I'm taking counseling sessions in Teen Challenge, 00:48 as with what my director Apryl said. 00:52 We have a Christian counselor and she realized that I have 00:55 a lot in me that I am holding in from my father's death. 00:59 I'm not much of a crier because I was always raised not 01:04 to cry, so when my dad died that was the hardest thing 01:08 for me so I sometimes try to forget my dad's stuff and 01:12 to forget about him even though he means the world to me. 01:16 Because I don't want to cry, so they brought me a book 01:20 called 'A Fire In My Heart and Ice In My Veins' 01:23 to help me recover from my dad's death. 01:26 That book is about grief. - yeah it's about grief. 01:28 Because even though we think that we cover all of that, 01:31 its still unless we actually get it out and work through 01:35 it, it stays in us and just causes more pain. 01:40 So I think it's incredible that you are willing to go into 01:45 that pain, it's incredible that you have somebody that 01:49 is going to walk you through that. 01:51 That you get to do that now instead of 20 years from now. 01:54 It's definitely helping me, I definitely recommend that 01:57 book to anybody who has lost a parent. Yeah. 02:01 I could feel what I wanted to feel before. 02:04 Talk to somebody that has lost a parent. 02:06 Well I know it must be hard to lose a parent, they're attached 02:13 to you and they're everything to you, when you lose them 02:16 that other part of you that it's gone and this book would 02:20 definitely help you and it will walk you through it and 02:24 bring out those things in you that you have been trying 02:27 to cover all along. It will help you recover. 02:30 Work with counselors and pastors and grab hold 02:33 of somebody that you can trust and work through 02:36 those various issues. 02:39 I want to talk with you Megan, and you were talking about 02:43 a lot of times when we act out, for both of you, but when 02:47 we act out and we are angry and drinking and doing all 02:50 this kind of stuff, people really like to look at that. 02:54 But as you told us your journey and your story the only 02:57 thing that I couldn't get out of my head was this little 03:00 girl that was so lost and just wanted to be loved and seen 03:03 and for someone to pay attention to. 03:06 Then you talked about wanting to be in ministry, you 03:10 talked about wanting to really work with this lost kid. 03:14 Yeah. - I think that was the core issue for you. 03:17 Or at least one of them. - yeah. 03:19 So would you look at the camera and talk to that kid 03:23 that doesn't even think anybody sees them anymore. 03:26 You know what is really interesting is that kid may be 03:30 3 or 30, or 80, because until we start working on our 03:34 stuff, we get stuck with all those feelings. 03:39 So just talk with that kid. 03:40 I just want to tell you that don't feel like there is 03:44 no buddy by your side and that there is no way to get 03:47 out of any situation. 03:49 There is always a God that can help you through anything, 03:52 or any time and if you just believe and know that He's 03:55 there He will always answer your prayers. 03:58 And right now when you say that, you actually can 04:01 feel Him moving into your life. - yes. 04:05 That has given you strength. - yes. 04:07 It has given you courage and hope. 04:10 For both of you it sounds like you have stepped into a place 04:15 where you are getting control of your life back. 04:17 I'm absolutely so proud of you, thank you for being on 04:20 the program, thank you for being so vulnerable with us. 04:24 You know a lot of people want to not talk about any of 04:27 that and they stay sick for a long time but in your 04:29 program they really do encourage you to say it as many 04:32 times as you need to say it. 04:33 This is not something you are going to hold onto ever 04:37 again, you are going to deal with it, use it in ministry, 04:41 or put it away and get on with your life. 04:44 I love that and God is going to hold you. 04:47 When God starts working with our hearts and when God starts 04:51 showing us who we are, we're never the addict, we're 04:54 never the angry teenager, we're never the one who is so out 04:57 of control because God says underneath all of that I know 05:01 who you are, I know you are My child. 05:03 That's what I want to wake up in you. 05:05 If you have a child that is out of control, love them, 05:09 pray for them, call someone. 05:11 Teen Challenge is a good resource and there is a ton of 05:14 resources out there. 05:15 If you want to call us we will put you in touch with 05:18 somebody, until next week always remember that God is 05:20 crazy about you and me too. 05:22 God bless and know there is nothing that God is ashamed of. 05:27 There is nothing He can't do. |
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