Participants: Cheri Peters
Series Code: OTR
Program Code: OTR000904
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01:00 Hello and welcome to session number two
01:03 of "Where Are All His Miracles." 01:06 During these next several meetings 01:08 we're gonna be looking at the where, the why, 01:10 the how, the who, the when of miracles. 01:13 We're going to reaffirm that we serve 01:15 a miracle working God. 01:16 Can you say, amen? Amen. 01:18 A God who worked miracles in the days of Christ and before 01:22 and a God who works miracles today in our own lives. 01:25 And as we said before we know that the hand of God 01:29 is still upon this ministry that we love 3ABN 01:31 and upon God's people. 01:33 And as we move towards the second coming 01:36 of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, 01:37 I am convicted in my mind convinced in my heart 01:39 that we are going to see the miracle working hand of God 01:42 moving again in the lives of those 01:45 who have been called to serve Jesus Christ. 01:47 Say Amen. Amen. 01:48 And amen and so our theme song, 01:50 this speaks that very-- that very fact, 01:52 it is called "It took a Miracle" 01:54 it is found as 111 in the church hymnal 02:00 the words will be on this screen 02:01 and we want you to sing it with us. 02:03 "It took a Miracle." 02:05 My Father is omnipotent and that you can't deny 02:12 A God of might and miracles 02:17 'Tis written in the sky 02:21 It took a miracle 02:26 To put the stars in place 02:31 It took a miracle 02:35 To hang the world in space 02:39 But when He saved my soul 02:44 Cleansed and made me whole 02:51 It took a miracle of love and grace! 02:58 Very good, stanza number two. 03:01 Though here His glory has been shown 03:04 All right, sing it out. 03:06 We still can't fully see 03:09 The wonders of His might 03:12 His throne 'twill take eternity 03:17 And that chorus. 03:19 It took a miracle 03:23 To put the stars in place 03:28 And it took a miracle 03:32 To hang this world in space 03:37 But when he saved my soul 03:42 Cleansed and made me whole 03:48 It took a miracle 03:51 Of love and grace! 03:56 And now that last stanza. 03:58 The Bible tells me of his power 04:03 And wisdom all way through 04:06 And every little bird and flower 04:11 Are testimonies too 04:14 And that chorus. 04:16 It took a miracle 04:20 To put the stars in place 04:25 It took a miracle 04:30 To hang the world in space 04:34 But when He saved my soul 04:39 Cleansed and made me whole 04:45 It took a miracle 04:49 Of love and grace 04:56 Amen and amen. 04:58 Perhaps the greatest miracle 04:59 still is the changing of a sinner into a saint. 05:05 The giving of ones life to the Lord 05:07 that is truly a miracle. 05:10 We welcome you again as we said to session number two 05:13 of "Where Are All His Miracles" 05:16 and we're gonna have a good time together. 05:18 And we encourage you to attend all our meetings. 05:22 Now my words that I say now are for our in house audience. 05:26 Because on tomorrow evening 05:28 there is a rather popular sporting event 05:31 that's gonna take place. 05:34 Now if you time everything out right, 05:37 you ought to be able to participate in that event 05:40 and still make it here for meeting. 05:42 Now we're not dropping any guilt trip upon anyone. 05:44 We're simply saying you can do both. 05:47 It doesn't have to be either or. 05:49 So we're looking to see you on tomorrow evening 05:51 and everybody say, amen-amen. 05:53 Praise the Lord. 05:54 Our speaker for our next session 05:56 will be Pastor John Dinzey and you will want to hear him. 06:01 This afternoon we will be blessed 06:02 I know by a presentation from our own Cheri Peters now, 06:06 I call her our own, although her membership 06:09 is not here so her heart is here 06:11 and we have come to love her ask our very own. 06:15 Our scripture reading is going to be brought to us by 06:18 Carrie Christian, who is the head deaconess 06:19 for the Thompsonville Seventh-day Adventist Church. 06:34 Our scripture reading comes from Revelation 3:20. 06:40 I'm reading from the New Living Translation. 06:43 "Look! I stand at the door and knock. 06:46 If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, 06:51 and we will share a meal together as friends. 06:55 Those who are victorious will sit with me on my throne, 06:58 just as I was victorious 07:00 and sat with my Father on His throne. 07:02 Anyone with ears to hear must listen 07:05 to the Spirit and understand 07:07 what he is saying to the churches." 07:19 It's all right He's by my side 07:25 And He'll take good care of me 07:31 It's all right He's on my side 07:37 And He knows my every need 07:42 He said oh you of little faith 07:47 See the sparrows in the sky 07:50 Unencumbered by the cares of the world 07:56 I feed even them 07:59 Clothe the lilies in the field 08:02 How much more to me are you worth than these 08:06 I gave My Son for you it's all right 08:10 I'm by your side 08:12 And I'll take good care of you 08:19 It's all right I'm on your side 08:24 And I know all that you go through 08:30 He said 08:32 When you're at your lowest of lows 08:35 I want you to know 08:37 I think more of you than what you could yourself 08:43 My love is deeper than the oceans 08:47 Wider than the valleys higher than the mountain tops 08:53 I gave My Son for you it's all right 08:57 I'm by your side 09:00 And I'll take good care of you 09:06 It's all right I'm on your side 09:11 And I know all that you go through 09:17 I said You formed then fought for my heart 09:22 Father how great Thou art 09:24 I know all that You are seems too good 09:27 But it's true 09:30 You made me then saved me 09:33 Love me unconditionally 09:36 Father of mine how did You 09:40 Give your Son for me 09:42 It's all right He's by my side 09:46 And He'll take good care of me 09:52 It's all right He's on my side 09:58 And He knows my every need 10:06 It's all right 10:11 He's by on side 10:16 It's all right 10:20 He's on my side 10:24 It's all right 10:28 Amen. Amen. Amen and amen. 10:31 Thank you so very much Otto family, 10:34 Jonathan, Billy, Melissa, Sarah and Gaya. 10:40 We rearrange things to get them on 10:43 because we like to support young people 10:46 because they have traveled so very, very far. 10:48 They are coming to us all the way from Australia 10:51 and when young people come that far 10:54 you want to try to help them out. 10:56 They have a beautiful testimony. 10:57 They are beautiful young people 10:58 and we like to encourage our youth. 11:01 One of them said, you know, 11:02 C.A, you're our favorite preacher there in Australia, 11:04 so I had to get them on. 11:07 True or not but we do thank them 11:10 for coming so very, very far and for blessing us 11:12 with their music and their ministry. 11:15 We are ready now for our principle speaker, 11:19 our presented for this afternoon Cheri Peter. 11:22 If you know her, you'd know what a positive person she is 11:24 with a powerful testimony she has. 11:27 And what God has done, is doing 11:29 and will continue to do through her ministry 11:31 and through a marvelous program that is our privilege 11:34 to air on 3ABN called Celebrating Life in Recovery 11:38 and these young people are part of that program. 11:40 And the Lord just works things out, 11:42 they were passing through we put them on the program. 11:45 They were still here today and so we use them this afternoon 11:47 and they'd been such a blessing. 11:49 Cheri, the time is yours. 11:53 Okay, I just want to say that 11:55 weren't you not blessed by these guys. 11:58 Amen. 11:59 The first time I heard them sing 12:00 every single song I literally just wept 12:03 because it just touch me and I so was really thrilled 12:06 when they said that they would sing for this presentation. 12:11 I wanted to say when I heard what this whole thing was about 12:13 and I heard that we were gonna about 12:16 miracles and God's miracles. 12:17 And they said Cheri, would you come and join us 12:20 and I thought okay, is God still doing miracles 12:23 and we are all His miracles. 12:24 I'm thinking what story do I tell? 12:27 Do I tell boys story? Do I tell my story? 12:29 Do I tell Stephanie story? Do I tell Rosalina story? 12:33 Do I tell my parents? 12:34 And I thought I don't even know where to start 12:37 because I see so much of what God is doing 12:39 all over the place. 12:40 Every time I go somewhere he just vows me. 12:43 But I want to start out with 12:45 for those that don't know who I am. 12:47 I'm gonna start with just who I am. 12:49 You know, I am-- 12:51 my mom tried to self abort six different times. 12:53 And I just want to start right there 12:55 is that she was 14- years-old ended up pregnant 12:58 and is looking at her first child 13:01 that she had when she was 13-years-old. 13:03 Now pregnant again with the 15-year-old guy 13:06 that is violent and drinking 13:08 and she's saying I can't do this. 13:10 She finds that she is pregnant again 13:11 and she tried everything to self abort. 13:13 She took pills and I don't need to be gross 13:17 and I'm sorry but stuck coat hangers up inside of her, 13:19 try to puncture the sack that I was in. 13:21 I mean, all that kind stuff. 13:22 She was so desperate not too have this child. 13:26 And I'm born into that, 13:27 my dad got more and more violent with her. 13:30 He started sexually molesting us 13:32 and I'm not gonna go into the whole story 13:34 but by 12 years old, I was on drugs, pregnant, 13:39 being pushed out of the home and ended up homeless 13:41 in Los Angeles at that time. 13:43 I was homeless for the next ten years. 13:45 And I wish I could go into all that 13:47 and tell you that it was horrendous. 13:50 What I saw on the streets, the stuff I saw on the streets, 13:52 the twistedness of all of us and how kind of 13:55 we could get lost in so many different things. 13:57 I'm telling you I am surprised that I could even come up 14:03 with any kind of sense of normality. 14:07 You know what I mean? It just surprises me. 14:10 But I literally met God sitting in a drug house 14:13 trying to kill myself and I-- I wanted to jump 14:18 in front of a train, I wanted to be smashed up, 14:21 I wanted to be destroyed. 14:23 I didn't want to be here ever again. 14:25 I didn't want to breathe again and I was so depressed. 14:28 I thought, you know what, I don't even like this world. 14:30 I don't like this world and I don't like what I see. 14:33 If I met a pastor when I was on the streets 14:35 because they were twisted 14:36 and they were lost in addictions 14:37 and I didn't meet anybody that was normal 14:39 and I thought I'm done, I am done. 14:42 And I remember sitting there and, you know, 14:45 God just showed up. 14:47 You know how does that happen? 14:48 He literally shows up and He says to me 14:52 and through the Holy Spirit 'cause I didn't hear a voice, 14:54 I didn't hear anything but He said to me I love you. 14:58 I love you. 14:59 You know the song they were singing it's all right, 15:01 it's gonna be all right and I remember just feeling so, 15:05 so just loved. 15:06 And I sat there for the longest time 15:09 'cause I thought if I opened my eyes, 15:11 if I turned, if I do anything and God leaves, 15:13 I don't even know, how do you find God. 15:15 I'm in a drug house, He showed up here, 15:17 I don't know if He is gonna be anywhere else on the planet. 15:19 I don't want to leave this room, 15:21 this place 'cause God is just loving me. 15:24 He is telling me-- I'm thinking He's gonna tell me stuff like, 15:27 you know what, you need to stop doing heroin. 15:29 What is wrong with you? 15:30 And I think, He is gonna say, you know what, 15:32 you've been cursing a lot, what's wrong with you? 15:34 He didn't say any of that. 15:35 He said I love you. I love you. 15:38 And He didn't say, you know what, Cheri, 15:41 you have 42 warrants for your arrest, 15:43 that's not good. 15:46 You know what I mean? 15:47 'Cause I knew that was not good. 15:49 And I literally had 42 warrants for my arrest 15:51 at the time I'm trying to kill myself in that drug house 15:53 and God didn't say anything, He said I love you. 15:56 I love you. 15:57 And then He showed me an image of who He sees 16:01 when He looks at me, an absolutely beautiful. 16:06 Man, but I knew I'm not beautiful. 16:11 I was molested since I'm three months old, right? 16:14 My dad was caught the first time I was three months old. 16:17 I'm not innocent, I'm not beautiful, 16:20 I'm not anything, 16:21 I was 100 pounds strung out on heroin, 16:23 had teeth missing, 16:25 I know I'm not beautiful and I said in my mind to God, 16:30 I know I'm not beautiful. 16:31 I know I'm not innocent and I started crying 16:34 'cause I know that. 16:35 And He said you know nothing. You know nothing. 16:39 You are My child and you are absolutely everything to Me, 16:43 you are beautiful to Me. 16:45 And if you trust Me, I'll walk you right into this. 16:49 I'll walk you right into this place and I'm thinking, man, 16:53 I didn't even, it was like, 16:54 how do you dare dream about that? 16:56 How do you dare hope that God is gonna walk me 16:59 into a place where I could stand out 17:01 and be beautiful, innocent, you know. 17:04 And I'm thinking, man, so I sat there for a long time 17:09 and then all of a sudden I thought, man, 17:11 there are some druggies in the living room. 17:13 I don't know if you've ever lived in a drug house, 17:14 if you have, raise your hand. 17:16 No. 17:17 But in here, you know, there were some druggies 17:18 in the living room and they were-- 17:20 one guy was naked, high on cannibal playing air guitar, 17:24 do you know what I mean? 17:25 And that's the people I surrounded myself with. 17:27 You know what I mean? 17:28 So I thought I'm sitting in the room with God, 17:30 He is telling me how lovely I am, 17:32 I am feeling love for the first time in my life ever 17:35 and I'm thinking, man, 17:37 I don't want God to go in the living room 17:39 'cause there is a naked guy 17:40 and they're playing guitar, you know. 17:41 And so I'm gonna sneak God out the window 17:44 'cause, you know, God doesn't need to be seeing that, right? 17:47 You know, so, I'm like-- oh, it wasn't you though. 17:51 All right, anyway so I am like, okay, 17:54 so I, you know, I sneak God out of the house. 17:56 He literally walked me into recovery. 17:58 Put me into an incredible woman's home, 18:01 vegan vegetarian, loved the Bible 18:04 and she put up with me, she tolerated me 18:06 for the first week of my recovery, 18:08 I'm withdrawing, I've been high for-- 18:10 since I was 12 years old I've been high everyday 18:12 strung out on heroin. 18:13 I go over to somebody's house with no drugs, 18:15 what was I thinking? 18:16 What was I thinking? 18:18 You know I know I met God but I'm a drug addict 18:21 and I'm like, I show up, I have no drugs, 18:23 I have no anything, I started withdrawing. 18:24 I'm thinking, man, and God literally blessed 18:27 this woman to stay with me every step of the way, 18:30 every step of the way and what the funniest thing to me was 18:33 as soon as I started trusting her, 18:35 'cause drug addicts, we have a hard time to trust. 18:37 We've been trashed a lot by people. 18:39 So we don't trust easy 18:40 but as soon as I started trusting her, 18:42 you know what happened? 18:44 A Bible came out from under her sleeve I think. 18:47 What? Where did that come from? I'm like. 18:50 She then started teaching me the Bible, 18:52 teaching about different things, 18:54 teaching me who God was, 18:56 and literally I've changed my life. 18:59 I was encouraged by her, to learn to read. 19:03 I was 23-years-old and illiterate 19:04 so I had to learn to read and go back to school 19:07 and I go into a nursing program 19:09 and I would, most of time I was on my knees to God crying. 19:14 I can't do this. 19:16 I'm not smart, God, You know that 19:19 and I didn't realize that I was smart, 19:22 I just didn't know how to read. 19:24 You know, I didn't know that but God knew that 19:25 and He kept telling me, don't even think about 19:28 what you know about yourself, 19:30 trust Me and what I know about you. 19:32 Trust that. 19:33 And so I finally just started trusting that 19:35 but I would cry and He would get me up 19:37 and I ended up in a dean's list of college. 19:41 I learned to read, took a D.Ed, 19:42 ended up in college and I'm on the dean's list. 19:44 I'm thinking I'm seeing miracle after miracle 19:46 after miracle after miracle. 19:49 It was-- I was tired. 19:50 One time-- and I joke about this but one time, 19:54 I'm doing some stuff and sort of looking a homeless shelter 19:57 and I'm loving on God and He is loving on me 19:59 and I'm doing nursing. 20:01 I'm doing so well that I am getting award 20:06 for the state that I'm in. 20:08 I got volunteered the year award. 20:11 I was a grand marshal on the 4th of July parade. 20:13 Do you know what I mean? 20:14 Because when you fall in love with God 20:16 you start doing good stuff 20:17 and I don't know why you guys not used 20:19 to people doing good stuff 20:20 because they award you for that. 20:22 Here have a trophy and I'm like okay, thank you. 20:26 You know, but I mean I was just-- 20:27 it was just a fun journey 20:30 and I watch miracle after miracle after miracle 20:32 but that's not what I want to share with you today, 20:34 'cause within this last few months 20:37 has really shown me who He is and where He is doing miracles. 20:43 I was-- since then I just got to say 20:45 I'll just I'll move you all way up to today. 20:48 I got my nursing degree, I did site nursing, 20:51 I was doing mental health. 20:53 I ended up just doing volunteer work, 20:57 praying for God after well that I want to be in ministry 21:00 and He opens up ministry and I'm just being blessed. 21:03 You know, God is just-- He just cracks me up 21:06 and how much He pours into our lives. 21:08 I mean, He just to me it was absolutely more than 21:10 I ever deserved, more than I could even handle. 21:14 And one day I'm working with the number of folks, 21:16 Randy Maxwell is one of my good friends. 21:18 He's mom is my spiritual mentor. 21:20 And some of you know him. 21:21 He's trying to call me one day, 21:22 'cause we're doing a number of things. 21:24 And finally he calls me and I pick up the phone 21:26 and he says I've been calling you all morning. 21:29 And I said I know. 21:31 He's like, you know? And I said, I know. 21:33 So why didn't you answer the phone? 21:35 And I said I just couldn't take another miracle. 21:37 I was tired. Do you know what I mean? 21:40 It's like God slow up, you know hold up for a minute. 21:42 Let me catch my breath, you know 'cause you know God 21:45 just He continues to pour into you. 21:47 So anyhow few months ago I'm doing ministry now, 21:49 I have the Celebrating Life in Recovery program, 21:52 we done a radio program, True Step Ministries 21:54 is going all over the world working with addicts. 21:57 We've been in every state, 21:58 almost every prison and every state. 21:59 We've been to rehab centers I mean, 22:01 God we're doing one to one to with addicts. 22:03 I mean we are literally doing so much 22:06 and I get a call from my family. 22:10 And my sister is in ICU and I think she's going to die. 22:15 And I'm thinking, okay, you know what just happened 22:18 and you know everything stops. 22:20 When somebody tells you, you know your family, 22:23 you know and everything stops and I'm thinking okay. 22:25 So now I am calling people that have miles 22:28 on to get some stuff on airlines. 22:30 And can you get me to LA? And they get me to LA. 22:34 My sister, my younger sister she is so funny. 22:36 She is beautiful, she is funny and probably in my family 22:41 she is my closest as far as siblings. 22:44 And she's a stripper, strung out on coke, 22:50 her boyfriend is like 70 'cause he has lots of money. 22:53 And you know, she has never been married. 22:55 She's been used in all kinds of ways by all kinds of men. 22:58 And she has never known 23:00 what it feels like to be in recovery. 23:01 And even though I've been in recovery, 23:03 I have tried to just love on her, 23:05 and get her to trust God. 23:06 And she just literally you know, 23:08 I love you but just stop on this God thing. 23:12 And now she is dying, and I'm like, man, 23:16 so I get to the hospital. 23:20 She's on had the time like-- got there. 23:23 They literally have her on life support and she had-- 23:26 when I show what happened, she has her 30 wine 23:29 and you know looks like from what I can find at her house 23:33 is she might have even did a suicide attempt 23:35 I don't even know. 23:36 But she blew a hole in her stomach 23:38 and all the acids in her stomach 23:39 feel through abdominal cavity out. 23:41 The acids in her abdominal cavity burnt a hole 23:44 in her lungs and filled her lungs out. 23:46 So her lungs are burnt, and she can't breathe 23:49 so they've got her on a ventilator. 23:51 And so I walk in and I-- I'd see her laying there 23:55 and I'm thinking-- you can't just lay there, 23:59 you can't just lay there. 24:00 And you got to get up and I'm sorry 24:01 and I remember one time sitting there thinking 24:04 did I tell you that I love you? 24:06 Now when is the last time dude-- 24:08 the last time we saw each other 24:09 did I say that I love you 24:11 and I couldn't remember and I thought-- 24:14 can you hear me? 24:15 As soon as I like-- I reached over and I said, 24:20 I love you and all the bells and the whistles 24:23 on all the life support stuff started going off. 24:27 And the nurses came in and said 24:29 were you talking to her just now? 24:31 And I said, well, I just was saying I love you. 24:34 And they said, we told you not to talk to her. 24:37 We have her in an induce coma so that she can breath 24:40 and that maybe she will live 24:41 and every time you try to talk to her 24:43 she's gonna try to answer you 24:44 and she's gonna try to come out of her coma. 24:46 And so I'm like okay, I'm sorry. 24:49 They walk away. I really do love you. 24:52 All the bells and whistle went off again. 24:54 I got in trouble you know 24:57 and I go back in the waiting room. 24:59 Now picture of the waiting room. 25:01 Okay, just picture this, my dad's in the waiting room, 25:03 my stepdad he's 6.1, 90 pounds. 25:08 He's liver shutting down, his lungs are shutting down, 25:10 he's been strung out on drugs my whole life. 25:13 He's smoking so bad, he just-- he's-- 25:16 you physically look at him and you hurt for him. 25:19 My sister's a meth addict, my younger sister, 25:21 very youngest one and she weighs 80 pounds. 25:25 She's got cranks sores all over and she always-- her muscles, 25:28 she has not control over her muscles anymore. 25:30 So her muscles literally like when she talks to you 25:33 she'll be like having to move and that's my sister. 25:37 The other ones in the family have different issues 25:39 and with in the waiting room. 25:41 My uncles there and his wife-- 25:44 and his wife is complaining to someone, 25:46 its not part of our family 25:47 but it's just someone that you know what? 25:50 When she was like 10 years old, 25:52 she was trying to sleep with my husband. 25:55 And I though you know what, I was not. 25:58 And she was talking about me, I walk in the room 26:00 and she's talking about me and I'm thinking. 26:01 I wasn't. I just love him. He was my favorite uncle. 26:05 You know, and so you know-- so I'm surrounded by that 26:09 and my sister is dying and I want to scream to someone. 26:12 This is weird, this is not right. 26:14 There shouldn't have-- be how somebody dies. 26:16 And so we are kind of just trying to hang out together. 26:21 My younger sister the meth addict started to beat up 26:24 my father who was sick-- you know, that is 90 pounds 26:28 and they had a fight in front of the ICU. 26:31 Nurses station in front of my sisters room 26:32 and they literally were throwing things at each other. 26:35 Swinging at each other and having that 26:37 and I'm trying to say stop. 26:39 You know, because the nurses are literally 26:41 trying to ban our family because of all the chaos 26:43 away from my sister. 26:45 And I'm just saying let's just all relax, 26:48 and then I realize that-- my sisters and my mother 26:52 are huddling kind of with the nurses. 26:54 And I'm like I wonder what's going on over there? 26:57 So I find out later that they bared me from the ICU. 27:01 I'm not allowed to go in there anymore, 27:03 because they're afraid that if I go in I may-- 27:05 I might pray for my sister 27:07 and they said that's not gonna happen, 27:10 we don't believe like you do. 27:12 You cannot go by yourself anymore in there. 27:16 I'm like she is dying, hold up, please, 27:19 just somebody hold up because she is dying 27:23 and I'm afraid and I have to pray for her 27:26 and I'm told I can't. 27:28 You can't and I'm like oh, man, 27:31 I'm dying and so this nurse comes up to me at one point 27:34 and she says, Cheri, come here for a minute. 27:38 And I walk over there and she says, 27:40 have you ever thought to take the night shift? 27:43 And I said what do you mean? 27:44 She said I work night shift and I'm Christian 27:48 and may be if you just take the night shift. 27:50 Your family won't want to stay up all night. 27:53 And you can pray for her, right? 27:56 So and this is a incredible. 27:58 So I go in on the night shifts, start taking the night shift 28:01 and so we went in one time and did in an anointing. 28:03 And I don't know what anybody's theology is that 28:05 but I believe that's Christians 28:07 God ask us to pray for each other. 28:09 And so my sister is dying, 28:10 you know what give me a bucket of oil. 28:14 And I didn't even care if all those bells go off 28:17 'cause I'm not leaving this room 28:19 until something happens, you know. 28:21 And so we went in there and I went in there, 28:24 I said we-- I went in there, 28:25 me and this nurse did in an anointing 28:28 and from the time that we prayed for her 28:33 everything changed, everything change. 28:35 There were gonna put a trach in her 28:37 the next day because you can't leave people on ventilators 28:40 very long because it destroys everything 28:42 so they were gonna put a trach. 28:43 And then when they were starting to do the trach 28:45 they started to decrease the oxygen and they think okay, 28:48 so we're gonna decrease the oxygen 28:49 when can't breath in we put the trach in-- 28:51 the more they decrease the oxygen, 28:54 the more she started breathing. 28:56 And I'm like, you were kidding me, 28:57 the doctors are like, what is up with this? 29:00 So she starts breathing, 29:01 she starts getting better and better and better, right. 29:05 I fly home just to get enough stuff to fly back, 29:07 I come back she's not in ICU anymore. 29:10 She's in the regular room and I walk in and I'm like, 29:14 does anybody know this is incredible? 29:16 Does anybody know that and I'm like 29:18 and family is like, what do you think happened? 29:20 I'm like, what do you think happened? 29:22 We prayed, we like anointed here, 29:24 this is God you know and I'm like, 29:26 beside myself they discharge her 29:28 and I'm gonna stay at her house the first week. 29:31 And you know what my job is? 29:33 Because she is a mess, she's strung out. 29:35 My job is to teach her about health. 29:37 If you're gonna get well, I want you to eat right. 29:40 I want you to make sure that your breakfast is fruit 29:42 and some oat meal or something your lunch I'm not-- 29:45 you know, so they discharge her 29:47 with a 57 foot tube hooked up to a oxygen tank 29:51 and she will be on this oxygen the rest of her life. 29:53 And oxygen chord goes all over her house. 29:56 She keeps getting caught and chairs 29:57 and all that kind of stuff. 29:58 But she is walking, man she is not dead. 30:01 I'm like how cool is that? 30:03 So I'm teaching her, my family comes over 30:05 to celebrate her healing. 30:07 Not that they believe anything happened in prayer 30:09 but they're gonna come over. 30:10 You know what they bring? 30:12 Bottle of wine, and some pastries, 30:16 I'm like, she is doing her third DUI you know, 30:19 if somebody has wine, can I just strangle you? 30:23 Can I strangle you? 30:24 And I look at my sister and I grabbed her face 30:26 my whole family is the room. 30:27 And I grabbed her face and I said please, 30:29 do not drink anything. 30:31 Do not, put this in your body, you will die. 30:34 I'm trying to tell you-- you're healing 30:36 and God is blessing you but you have to grab an apple. 30:39 You know I'm like, I was ridiculous-- 30:42 I was ridiculous and my whole family is standing there 30:45 and like, what are you saying? 30:48 Are you saying we did wrong by bringing the wine? 30:50 And I'm like I don't even want to say anything to that. 30:52 I'm saying to you, well, I grab her face again. 30:55 Do not drink this wine. So she says, okay. 30:58 Now everybody is mad at me right, 31:00 she heals more and more everyday. 31:03 I'm starting to leave and she starts crying. 31:06 I'm packing the car up 'cause I rent a car 31:08 and I'm going back to the airport 31:09 and she starts crying and she says, 31:11 I'm afraid for you to leave. 31:14 And I said I'm afraid to leave and I turned around. 31:18 And as I turned around she started trembling 31:22 and she said, are you gonna pray for me? 31:27 And I realize yes, are you gonna-- can I? 31:30 And she said yes. 31:31 She put her head down 31:33 and I started to walk towards her and grab her hands 31:35 and I couldn't stop crying. 31:38 This is the first time I got to pray with my sister. 31:40 This is the first time she let me pray with her, 31:43 and I just wept and the only thing I did was beg God. 31:47 And you know we don't have to bed God, 31:49 He wants to heal us. Do you know what I mean? 31:52 But I don't know that so I'm begging God, 31:54 I'm begging You please, just hangout with her. 31:58 Just she needs to know that You're a friend. 31:59 She needs to know that You're-- 32:01 she needs to see Your face just hangout. 32:04 Just laugh with her, tell her some jokes today. 32:06 You know, and I'm just begging You-- 32:07 to just keep Your hand on her. 32:10 I fly home and I'm scared. Few days later I get a call. 32:14 And the call cracked me up, 32:16 and if you get this, I hope you get this. 32:19 She's like you know, I went to the doctor 32:22 and they did a biopsy on lungs to find some damage, 32:24 'cause they've got to figure out the biopsy stuff 32:26 and she said they didn't even find any damage. 32:29 Doctor's shocked, and she sounds bumped, right. 32:34 Listen to this-- and she sounds bumped 32:35 and I'm like, how can you can you sound bumped out, 32:38 you know and she said if I keep healing at this rate 32:41 I'm never gonna get SSI. 32:45 I'm like, I thought God how funny are we, 32:52 You give us our life back. 32:54 And we're worried about the State sending us 32:56 600 bucks a month or whatever that is you know. 32:58 I'm just so anyhow, so I go on my-- 33:00 about my business and I'm trying to figure out okay. 33:03 I've got some appointments to do, I got camp meetings. 33:05 I got some stuff to do. Then I get another call. 33:10 And its my dad, my stepdad. 33:13 They said you know what, I'm your stepdad. 33:15 Mike just went into the hospital and he is dying. 33:19 And I'm like, and I'm still, 33:21 I'm still been hit with my sisters whole thing. 33:23 I'm still realizing that how much I love them 33:27 and much I have kind of neglected them 33:30 because they've been so anti-- 33:32 I felt it was anti me but it was really antichrist. 33:36 And I'm still hit being hit with that 33:38 and all the sudden now my dad is in the hospital. 33:40 So I'm flying miles again, I get to the hospital 33:44 and my dad is laying in a bed, he's now 80 pounds. 33:49 So from the time I saw him less than a couple of weeks, 33:52 from 90 pounds of 6.1, he's now 80 pounds of 6.1. 33:56 He's laying in the hospital bed high, 33:59 he has a little thing on his finger that beeps 34:02 when the pulse goes off and it also checks his oxygen. 34:05 And they put it on his middle fingers 34:06 so he's showing his middle finger 34:08 to everybody that walks by, 34:11 'cause my dad thought that was hysterical. 34:13 And they told my dad that he could have 34:16 his much morphine as he wanted. 34:19 And so my dad was telling me, when I came in, you know what, 34:22 they said I could have as much morphine I want. 34:25 How fun is this? 34:27 And I'm thinking you're dying, and I love you. 34:31 You know, and I reached out at one point, 34:33 I reached out and I didn't want to you know-- 34:36 I'm coming and just be a killed joy on this party, 34:39 this morphine party because my family shares, 34:42 you know if you get morphine, everybody in the room 34:44 is gonna be high, 'cause my family is just nice like that. 34:47 You know, so everybody in the room is high 34:49 and I walk in, and I just leaned over 34:51 and I held him and I couldn't let go of him. 34:54 I wanted to prowl in the bed 34:55 and just say can I lay with you for a minute 34:57 because today we forget to say that I love you. 35:01 Did I forget to say that the whole time 35:03 my life was trashed with all this stuff? 35:06 It wasn't that I didn't love you, 35:08 I just didn't love the addiction. 35:09 The addiction trashed us and as I held him, 35:15 he got real quiet, real quiet and he looks at me, 35:19 'cause he doesn't want anyone else to hear this. 35:21 He said, Honey, are you praying for me? 35:25 And I said absolutely, absolutely 35:28 and I couldn't believe, I'm thinking did I just hear that 35:30 I couldn't believe I heard that. 35:32 And then I end up-- they end up discharging him 35:34 'cause they thought he had six months to live 35:36 but they found out that he only has a couple of days to live. 35:39 He's riddled with cancer, every single place in his body. 35:43 His throat is so filled with cancer he cannot eat 35:46 because the food is getting stuck on the cancer 35:48 so they put this stent in his mouth 35:50 hoping that it will allow the food to go down his throat 35:53 without being stuck. 35:55 And they send him home and we get home 35:57 and everybody is kind of just you know, 36:00 I don't know-- everybody is just high. 36:03 My dad is taking the morphine every hour so 36:06 and I'm not talking about my real dad died 36:09 in a crack house last year. 36:10 I mean you guys-- most you guys know that 36:12 and this is my stepdad. 36:14 So when I call him dad it's just because 36:16 you know he's been in my life since I was four. 36:18 And so everybody is high and-- you know and my mom 36:23 who I love but you know she does like-- 36:26 and all that kind of stuff. 36:27 So everybody is kind of detached a little bit. 36:29 And I'm thinking you know, 36:31 he's dying and I'm trying to deal with this 36:33 and I flew home for something 36:34 'cause I had to do something at home. 36:36 Oh, I had an outreach to do in California, 36:40 so I did this outreach and then flew back. 36:43 You know, so I didn't actually get all the way home 36:45 and flew back and-- by this time, 36:47 I'm talking about my husband, 36:49 who is a fairly new Christian. 36:51 And he's adorable, he's adorable. 36:53 And he says to me, you know I feel bad 36:56 because I've never really bonded with your family 37:00 because it's hard for me 37:01 because of the way you were treated as a kid 37:03 and when they see you and treat you poorly now. 37:06 I love you and it's just kills me and I've just you know, 37:09 I just have never really bonded with them. 37:11 And I wanted go tell you dad, that I'm sorry for that. 37:16 You know, and so and I just mad at him when he said that. 37:20 I said, this is not about your conscience right now. 37:22 My dad's dying, deal with your conscience, 37:26 how mad-- how mean is that? 37:28 But I'm series I'm thinking is you know, is this about you? 37:32 You know and he's like, no, you know and-- 37:36 but I didn't understand that and so-- 37:39 my husband does this devotions everyday 37:41 and on his devotions the next day 37:44 was about David and David is king. 37:48 And he had his good friend Jonathon 37:51 had a son that during the time that he was king. 37:55 Everybody lost sight of Jonathon son, 37:57 and Jonathon is now no longer around. 37:59 And David says, you know I want to find his son 38:01 and bring him back to the kings table and bless him. 38:04 And as Brad was studying that in the Bible, he says, 38:08 I want to bless your father 38:10 and bring him back to the table and bless him. 38:13 And Jonathon's not even know he was crippled, 38:16 he still was brought to the table 38:17 and I feel like with your dad's addictions 38:20 he's crippled but I still want to bring him back to the table. 38:22 As a man of God I want to just bless him. 38:25 And all of the sudden Holy Spirit said, 38:27 you know Cheri, this is a good thing. 38:30 So now Brad and I go back. 38:33 My family doesn't really know Brad that well. 38:36 And he walks in and he's kind of a nearest breath 38:38 praying for everybody and going from room to room 38:41 and my sister-- this is like the day before my father dies 38:45 and my sister goes in and she's gonna make tacos, 38:48 'cause it's my dad's favorite meal, right. 38:51 And she is meth addict, 38:52 so meth addicts really are funny in the kitchen 38:55 unless they're cooking meth. 38:56 You know, but you know she goes in the kitchen 38:58 and she puts a hamburger in frying it up 39:00 and she is feeling really kind of like, Martha Stewart. 39:03 You know, she is really, really domestic, you know, 39:06 and she is having a good time. 39:07 She's gonna cook for all of us. 39:08 You know, 'cause, you know addicts, 39:10 meth addicts especially when they get a idea 39:13 its a big idea you know. 39:14 So she's like gonna cook for the whole family. 39:16 And then my dad's, my max-- 39:19 other kids from other women show up. 39:22 And I'm thinking, hi, my name is Cheri. 39:25 Where do you come from? 39:26 You know, so now we have grandkids, we have kids, 39:28 we have other kids and meth addict sister 39:31 is in the kitchen making tacos. 39:33 And all of the sudden I take a breath 39:36 and there was some rotten meat in the kitchen 39:40 and it was so rotten that literally 39:41 almost turned my stomach 39:42 and she can't smell 'cause she is a meth addict. 39:46 You know what I mean? 39:47 So she's cooking this meat that is so rotten 39:49 that literally is making us sick in the living room. 39:52 And so Brad goes into the kitchen 39:53 just kind of nice stands as Joanie, 39:57 you think that meat is okay? 39:59 And she's like oh, yeah, it's fine. 40:02 And he's like really? 40:03 And she says I just think that it needs a little spice. 40:06 And he's just trying to be nice 40:07 and he's like whatever and she's like, 40:09 will you kind of spice it up? 40:11 And so he's now got this meat in front of him 40:13 and he's trying to put stuff in it 40:15 and he's thinking if it cooks a little bit more 40:17 maybe it's just I could starting to turn 40:19 and would get better. 40:20 It literally got worse, right, and he's a psycho man. 40:23 So Joanie goes into the bathroom 40:25 and my mom kind of walks-- close to Brad and Brad says, 40:29 you know I don't want to offend Joanie at all. 40:32 But I think this meat is bad and my mom looked at Brad 40:37 and said, how amazing 40:41 it is that you don't want to offend Joanie? 40:44 Nobody cares about Joanie and her feelings. 40:47 She's been a meth addict since she is 14 years old, 40:49 she's like 40 something, she's psychotic, she's thin, 40:52 she's got canker sore everywhere. 40:54 She can't even move her body in a natural way 40:56 'cause her muscles are so tweaked. 40:59 Who cares about Joanie? 41:00 And he's just like, my mom just fell in love with Brad 41:03 for having respect for Joanie. 41:06 And I watch that. 41:07 I just watch what just happened there and I said, 41:09 Brad, go to the store get some food and feed us. 41:13 Brad's an incredible cooks so he leaves. 41:17 He comes back and he's got fresh avocado, 41:19 he is making guacamole, he's got cilantro and lime. 41:23 He's got instead of getting hamburger make us-- 41:26 Brad is kind of trying to get healthy, 41:27 he got you know he made chicken tacos with cabbage. 41:30 And I mean just some gourmet tacos 41:32 but he thought you know what? 41:33 I can't do this with all by myself in here 41:36 because there's a lot of you guys. 41:37 So he gave everybody a job to do. 41:40 So my whole dysfunctional family 41:42 are like they are an chef, 41:44 you know what I mean they're like little sous chef 41:46 and they're into doing each other job 41:48 and he has one sister and brother 41:50 like cutting up tomatoes 41:51 and somebody else doing the avocados. 41:53 And there-- they're making us incredibly fresh food 41:56 and I have never in my life, 41:57 in my family had a such healthy, look at my family. 42:00 And I'm just like all of the sudden in my mothers home 42:04 who were so dysfunctional as a kid and so horrible as a kid 42:08 that all of a sudden it just felt like the Holy Spirit 42:10 was there and the house was lit up. 42:13 And I was like, man, and I laughed 42:15 and went into my dad's room. 42:17 'Cause he's you know, he's two week to get out now, 42:21 and I said my dad's other son who I don't know walked in 42:26 and he has a guitar and know so he's a musician. 42:29 They kept telling he was a musician 42:31 and so I said dad, so do you remember 42:35 the first song you've every taught me? 42:37 And he said no, what was it? 42:39 And I was like three or four right, and he said, 42:42 it was-- I said it was a song and let me sing it. 42:48 Trailers for sale or rant 42:50 Roams to let 50 cents 42:52 And it's about a guy looking for cigarette. 42:54 Ain't got no cigarettes or butt 42:57 And as a little girl I sing that top of my lungs. 43:00 I mean top of my lungs, so as I'm singing that to my dad, 43:03 my dad's son starts playing it, right. 43:06 My dad starts singing it and it was like the Holy Spirit 43:10 just showed up, my dad got little strength 43:12 and my brother's son walks in with the Lakers jersey. 43:15 'Cause my dad wanted to be buried in Lakers jersey 43:18 and my mom said, you are not gonna be buried 43:20 in Lakers jersey, who cares about after your death. 43:23 There's nothing after your death, 43:24 you won't even know anything. 43:26 And so we're not even having a funeral 43:28 so that debate was all day. 43:30 And so my brothers son, wanted to get trying-- 43:33 jersey before he dies, just in case 43:34 there isn't a funeral and-- 43:37 walks in with the Lakers jersey, 43:39 my dad looks at it and he just-- 43:42 you could see him just wake up 43:44 and he just took it and he just was you could say 43:46 you are so-- full of joy and then he set it on the bed. 43:50 And I said, no, no, Mack, put it on, right. 43:54 And he put it on and it was almost magical, 43:57 he put it on, he sat up-- 44:01 I'm like what just happened here? 44:03 And instead of getting in his wheelchair 44:05 'cause we've been moving him around in his wheelchair, 44:07 'cause he's too weak to walk. 44:08 He got stood up got his walker, walked into the living room. 44:13 By this time Brad was putting all the food on table 44:16 for everybody had guacamole and different dishes, 44:19 he's putting the tacos out all that kind of stuff. 44:21 And my dad says I love guacamole, 44:26 and he start to eating, he hasn't eating in two weeks 44:28 because everything is trashed. 44:30 He ate with us, everybody got to say goodbye to him. 44:33 He didn't take any morphine, none. 44:36 He cleared up, he stayed present, 44:38 we all just sat there and I watch this 44:41 and I was thinking, God, 44:45 we think You are not doing miracles anymore? 44:47 My family doesn't even deserve You to be present right now. 44:51 They have never asked You, they barred me 44:52 they think I'm gonna pray 44:54 and yet you have hung out with them today. 44:57 You have been in the room, you are loving on my dad. 45:00 You are so there with each family member 45:03 that I wanted to say, I'm ashamed 45:06 that I thought you weren't present with them. 45:08 That I didn't realize that miracle of who God is-- 45:11 is that he never leaves us even when we're idiots. 45:14 Even when we're slamming drugs, 45:15 even when we are not even present for our own children, 45:18 He says until your last breath I'm there 45:21 and it will grieve me if you die without Me. 45:24 It will grieve Me. 45:25 So my dad says out there, everybody is being blessed 45:29 and he goes back in his room after couple of hours. 45:32 He's tired I could tell and I never leave home 45:36 without anointing oil so weird have in my pocket, 45:40 I put in my bra sometimes, I mean I just always have it. 45:43 You know and I know that probably was-- 45:44 you know but I always have it, I always have it. 45:47 And so I walk in and my dad is there. 45:50 So we do a prayer, I ask him, if I could pray for him 45:54 and so we did a prayer and anointing just for-- 45:58 I didn't know well, when my dad was little, 45:59 he was adopted from an Indian reservation 46:02 by a catholic family. 46:03 And he wanted to be a priest, 46:05 when he was a little boy you know in his early teens 46:07 before he got lost in drugs and stuff. 46:09 And so we talked about that a little bit 46:10 and watched him come back to God, 46:12 I watched him you know in his heart say 46:14 I don't want to die without saying I'm sorry, 46:17 God, I'm sorry. 46:19 And I thought well, how cool is that? 46:21 And I walk out and Brad walks in 46:23 'cause he wants to bless him as a man. 46:26 'Cause you know for men, you guys that's important 46:29 what you say to each other 46:30 'cause you are given the privilege to bless us 46:34 and speaking to our lives. 46:36 And so he went in to speak into my father's life. 46:38 And so my-- he asked my dad 46:40 but by then I'm in a living room again. 46:42 And I have this little bottle of anointing oil in my hand. 46:46 And so I'm like meth addict sister says, 46:48 hey what's that, you know? 46:52 And I don't want to start any problems in my family, 46:54 so you know what I say? 46:56 Oh, it's frankincense and myrrh 46:59 and my mom's starts laughing. 47:00 She says, what did you run into some wise guys in there? 47:04 And I thought how funny are you? 47:06 So now when I-- and I don't know if anybody 47:10 will get this to accept that I got it that very moment. 47:13 The miracle I want to share with you is my mom joked 47:18 with me about God. 47:20 It wasn't hostile, it wasn't-- she didn't make fun of me. 47:25 She joked with me and I just wanted to weep. 47:29 I wanted to say God what did you just do here? 47:32 You know, what did you just do? 47:34 And I knew at that moment 47:36 that God found a place in my mom's heart 47:40 and restored our relationship. 47:43 And I thought does anybody know what just happened? 47:46 And someone says you know where is God? 47:48 Where are all the miracles? 47:50 And I'm thinking, you got to open your eyes, 47:52 I promise you God will to open your eyes. 47:54 'Cause even people that are undeserving, 47:56 even people that are running, 47:58 even people that are so drugged up 48:00 that they can't even hear the Holy Spirit anymore 48:02 that you know chemically they have trashed themselves 48:05 that God says I'm still right there 48:07 and if you have open your eyes at all if you look at all, 48:11 I shall will bless you, I shall will move in, 48:14 I will show you a miracle that will shock you. 48:16 So I'm right now, I'm like in that space listening to my mom. 48:21 We're joking about-- my mom for Christmas 48:23 you know what she tried to give me? 48:26 A book called God Ain't So Great. 48:29 You know it was written by an atheist. 48:30 Now you know what I mean is just like you so in that moment 48:33 I'm like just like basking 48:35 in the fact that God just healed this 48:37 and it's gonna play out 'cause this just happened, right. 48:39 This is December, we're not enemies, just happens. 48:42 So is still gonna play out and so I know Brad's 48:44 in the bedroom and he's blessing my father 48:47 and he's been in there for a while. 48:50 And he walks out and he starts to walk out 48:53 and my sister the meth addict is standing there 48:56 and she's like, what were you doing in there with my dad? 48:59 You know, I walked out was watching you, 49:03 what were you doing? 49:04 And he says I was just praying for him. 49:06 And he said, can I pray for you? 49:10 And she told on him later, she said, Cheri, come in. 49:14 He ask me if he could pray for me? 49:16 And I thought I said yes, but I thought 49:19 he just gonna go somewhere and pray. 49:22 He grabbed my hands that's she said 49:25 and Brad said she trembled. 49:27 You know, she is trembling and he sat there 49:30 and blessed my sister who nobody even sees anymore 49:33 because she is so lost in her meth addition. 49:36 And as they got on praying he walks back into the room 49:39 and I saw this man of God this new Christian 49:43 that was told by God in his devotions 49:45 to go bless this family I watched him 49:48 every single place he went 49:49 put his hand on someone and I just thought man, 49:52 I can't even count the miracles that just happened. 49:55 I can't even count everything that happened? 49:57 And I can't even tell you how important it was for me 50:01 because God could heal everybody on the planet 50:03 but you know who I want Him to heal? 50:05 My family, you know what I mean. 50:07 And somebody said Cheri, you wish you had another family, 50:10 absolutely not. 50:12 I love my family, everything about them 50:15 I love except for their addictions 50:17 because its trash them and then its trash me. 50:20 But everything about them I love and so Brad and I-- 50:24 well, first of all, we have to get-- 50:26 we have to leave the next day. 50:29 And I got to tell you, we had to leave, 50:31 we're not sure how long my father 50:32 is actually going to live. 50:34 We both have some obligations and God was so sure of us, 50:38 sure with us that we just watch a living wake 50:42 with my father. 50:43 I don't know if that makes sense to anybody 50:44 but we literally had a wake with him, 50:46 we said goodbye to him and so we start-- 50:49 we had to leave to leave for the airport the next morning. 50:51 My family who has never loved me, 50:54 wanted me any of that kind of stuff said, 50:57 you know what if we just not set the alarm you can't go. 51:01 And I'm like what just happened here? 51:04 What just happened here? 51:05 You know 'cause this is the family that says you know 51:07 what, when I come, you don't really have to come 51:09 because I know you're gonna talk about God or something 51:12 and we're just not into that. 51:14 And now they're saying, they're not gonna set the alarm 51:16 'cause they don't want us to leave. 51:17 And they're saying to Brad, man, who are you? 51:21 You are like God and they don't even realize 51:24 that's Holy Spirit in him that they're feeling. 51:26 Do you know what I mean? And I want to say that. 51:28 He really isn't? 51:30 You know he's as fallible as anyone. 51:32 But he walked in here with the Holy Spirit and they-- 51:34 every time they talk to me now they say man, 51:37 we just never knew about Brad. 51:39 He's just like-- there is something really special 51:42 about that guy isn't there? 51:43 And I wanted to say there is something really special 51:45 about that guy. 51:46 You know what I mean? 51:47 And but right now there are the point in there life 51:50 where for them it's about-- you know it's about Brad 51:54 or it's about what happened that night. 51:55 Every time somebody turns around 51:57 they would tell them what happened that night. 51:59 You won't believe what Brad did that night. 52:02 And it was all about like these tacos and Joanie 52:04 did this meat and they're telling everybody, 52:06 every single person in our family 52:08 that wasn't in that room that night had heard this story 52:10 about what God did. 52:12 But you know what they say? 52:13 You wouldn't believe what Brad just did. 52:15 No, no, not Brad, Cheri's husband. 52:17 Oh, I know we haven't met him a lot but you know-- 52:19 so they'll say that. 52:21 And so right now I'm watching as Brad brings 52:24 the gospel into my family, into this family of addictions. 52:26 I'm watching as God came and healed me originally. 52:29 As God on that bed when I'm trying to kill myself as God's 52:33 stepped into my life and showed me 52:35 that I was gonna stand up in Him 52:37 and walked into that recovery. 52:39 I didn't even dare to dream 52:41 that He would step into my family's life. 52:43 And I'm telling you right now 52:44 because He stepped into my family's life everything in me 52:46 is changing in a way that Ididn't expect. 52:49 I'm sitting there with my mom before I flew out 52:52 and my mom said, do you remember 52:53 when you first got your braces? 52:55 And I did. 52:56 I made I suicide attempt when I was eight years old 52:58 and they put me in like braces and stuff. 53:00 It was horrible, did she said, 53:01 do you remember you get home and you this braces on 53:04 and all your friends are skating and she said, 53:06 I watched you as you are outside 53:08 and you wanted to skate with them. 53:10 So you put the skate on the shoe with the brace. 53:13 You try to escape with your brace on. 53:16 And I want to know-- I want to tell you, 53:17 you were so adorable. 53:20 And I sat there and realized that in all my damage 53:23 and all the hurt that happened in my childhood 53:25 that I forgot the good stuff. 53:28 I forgot the good stuff. 53:29 I forgot the stuff that was cool and God said, you know, 53:33 I'm gonna bring all that around 53:36 and teach you to remember some of the good stuff. 53:39 And I thought how cool are You? 53:41 And so when someone says where's God? 53:43 Where are all the miracles? 53:45 I'm thinking man, sometimes I can't even answer the phone. 53:49 You know there so much going on. 53:51 I wanted to say as we get on, 53:53 I wanted to say that there are people here today 53:57 and those people-- that are listening 54:00 that you are afraid and that you are not 54:03 seeing miracles around you 54:04 and you're not-- you don't have that sense 54:06 of God's presence in your life. 54:08 I'm gonna say like-- before we go, 54:10 I'm gonna ask you to come up front if you just want to know 54:13 where God is, you want to feel that presence, 54:14 you want to kind of stand up and come to God I want you to 54:18 come up and I want to pray for you. 54:20 Because I believe even in your worst conditions strung out 54:24 on whatever strung out on-- you know meth strung out on-- 54:32 anger strung out with your depressions, 54:33 strung out with the eating disorder, 54:35 strung out sexually, strung out in whatever way 54:38 that even in that worst place that God can get through that 54:42 and all you have to do is raise your hand and say 54:44 like father said on his death bed, 54:47 you know please, you know I do want you to pray for me, 54:50 I do want you to bless me. 54:51 I do want to come back to you 54:53 and so we're gonna have that prayer. 54:54 Can you come up if anybody is out there like Bowen, 54:58 come up-- Bowen, if nobody comes up but you-- 55:01 you get up here, all right, come on, 55:04 come up I'm serious all right. 55:08 So if anybody else wants prayer, 55:09 I really believe that God is looking to heal us. 55:13 God is looking to intervene in our lives, 55:15 God is looking to put His hand on us 55:18 and say don't be afraid of Me. 55:19 Don't think that you drugs or the your choices 55:22 or your passes is gonna define who you are, 55:24 I'm gonna define who you are. 55:26 And so we're gonna pray for that 55:27 and you guys, just join me. 55:29 And literally if you want to join in this prayer 55:31 just come up, come up. 55:34 Dear Father, in Jesus name you know 55:36 that as I am holding on to Bowen pleading 55:38 for you to open up his mind and his heart 55:41 to how incredible You are and how much You love him. 55:44 I'm pleading that for anybody listening to us, 55:46 anybody watching us, anybody here in this room 55:49 that feels like You are not doing miracles, 55:51 I just want You to open up heaven for them. 55:54 Show them exactly what You are doing. 55:56 I know that even while You are sitting there healing 55:59 my family, healing the people around me 56:01 as I see that everyday that I know that 56:03 all of heaven is on their face 56:06 because they're in all about how much You love us. 56:09 I pray for special blessing and anointing 56:10 on each one of them especially 56:12 on this boy right here on Bowen, 56:14 I pray that you bless him. 56:15 I pray that he is never the same. 56:17 I pray that as he stands up in Christ that he joins us 56:20 taking the message to the world that God 56:23 is God of miracles and You will never change, 56:26 never change in Jesus name, amen. 56:29 I beg you, thank you Bowen. 56:32 I beg you that as you start to turn to God 56:38 and expect miracles, I just pray that in that expectation 56:42 that you start paying attention to every single thing, 56:45 every single thing even rotten meat in a frying pan pay 56:49 attention, because God is paying attention 56:51 and He is wanting to bring healing 56:53 and miracles into our lives 56:55 and God bless you, God bless you. 56:58 And don't let anyone take your miracle from you. 57:00 Don't let anyone rob you of that miracle. 57:03 Don't let anyone rob you of that whole full circle 57:06 of recovery because God says 57:08 when I'm done with this you were gonna look at Me 57:11 and you're gonna stand in awe 57:13 because it is cool, absolutely cool. 57:15 Thank you for joining us and God bless. |
Revised 2015-03-12