Participants: Aaron Chancy (Host), Darrin Logan
Series Code: TNJ
Program Code: TNJ000050
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00:01 The following program discusses sensitive issues.
00:03 Parents are cautioned that some material 00:05 may be too candid for children. 00:10 Today, we'll meet a man 00:11 who grew up feeling like the black sheep of his family, 00:14 but now is a sheep in God's fold. 00:16 Tune in today, 00:18 for an exciting program of The New Journey. 00:51 Welcome back to "The New Journey." 00:53 Today, we have with us Mr. Darin Logan 00:55 Thank you, Mr. Logan, for being on the program. 00:57 Yeah. 00:58 Just briefly, Mr. Logan, tell us where you are from, 01:01 and a little bit of your family background? 01:03 Well, I'm from Knoxville, Tennessee. 01:06 I grow up in Knoxville. 01:08 My father, mother, they were in a home 01:10 and I had five brothers and sisters. 01:13 Okay, now growing up you felt kind a like "Outcast" 01:16 or a "Black sheep". 01:18 Why do you think you had those feelings? 01:21 Well, because my brother seems to get most of the attention 01:25 I guess and also I would make bad grades. 01:29 Okay. 01:31 He would make the good grades. 01:32 He would always do the right things, 01:34 I would do the wrong things most of the time. 01:37 And I just felt just like an outcast, you know? 01:40 It's like I just can never do the right. 01:41 I never could do what I had to do 01:44 to please my father and mother. 01:46 Okay, okay. 01:47 Now, ninth grade is when you kind of started 01:50 drinking and smoking marijuana and things like that. 01:53 What do you think led to getting involved 01:55 in the drinking and the drugs at that point? 01:57 I think more of direction. 02:01 Okay. 02:02 I had a good father and mother 02:03 but I think the more the crowd I hung with, 02:07 the direction that I was going... 02:10 We went to church very little. 02:12 And that's basically it, basically it. 02:16 What was your religious background growing up? 02:18 Baptist. 02:20 Baptist. Okay. 02:21 And what impact... 02:22 your mother and your father eventually divorced? 02:25 What impact did that have on your life? 02:27 And do you think 02:28 on the choices that you made in life at a young age? 02:31 I would say that it didn't have any impact, 02:34 but probably deep inside it did though. 02:37 But I really don't think it had an impact 02:39 'cause my father was always there. 02:40 Okay. Whether they were... 02:42 Whether they were divorced or not 02:45 my father always would come around, 02:47 he would take us out. 02:48 I had a really good daddy, really good father. 02:50 Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord. 02:51 Now, at what age were you first incarcerated 02:54 and talk a little bit about that experience 02:56 in your first time incarcerated? 02:57 Okay. 02:59 Well, when I first got put in jail. 03:03 I got caught shooting the gun. 03:05 And the police was right there so I shot a street light out. 03:08 When I went to the jail for the first time, 03:10 I wasn't afraid at that time, 03:13 but as I've seen what was going on in there, 03:15 you know, the people and I was in there 03:17 with a couple of guys you know, 03:18 I didn't know the people and I was afraid 03:22 just very little, but my mother got me out pretty quick, 03:26 so I didn't stay there too long. 03:27 And how old were you at this point? 03:29 Eighteen. Okay, 18 years old. 03:31 Now, the marijuana and alcohol use 03:33 eventually moved to using crack and cocaine. 03:38 How did that come about? 03:41 Well, all my friends was doing it. 03:43 They were smoking marijuana. 03:45 And all my friends was doing it 03:47 and I just slowly transitioned into cocaine. 03:51 Okay. 03:53 It seems that it just got worst, 03:55 it just progressed. 03:57 I knew that's a gateway drug. Yeah. 03:59 I didn't know the law then, 04:00 so I didn't. Okay. 04:01 It just progressed, it got worse 04:03 and I just even went on to worse drugs. 04:07 Okay, now talk about the money that was wasted 04:11 because of course cocaine, marijuana, crack, 04:14 alcohol, none of it's free. 04:16 Oh, yeah. 04:17 None of it's free, 04:18 and talk about the large amounts of money 04:20 that has been wasted throughout your life 04:21 on these drugs. 04:23 I'd say I could have bought a house. 04:26 At least, maybe two houses. 04:28 Wow. 04:29 And I have spent, 04:31 like one time I spent like a 1000 dollars in two days. 04:34 I would steal, 04:36 I would go to the stores and steal, 04:37 I would do a lot of things. 04:39 I would snatch pocket books. 04:41 I have done it, a lot of things I have done it, 04:44 I really feel bad about it. 04:46 But I'm glad the Lord took me through that though 04:49 so He can bring me close to Him. 04:51 To me I think that's, as I look back on my life, 04:54 that was a better testimony for me. 04:57 And, and I spent man, 05:00 like I said, I spent 1000 in just two days, man. 05:04 And the gas money wasted. 05:06 Oh, yeah. 05:07 And I understand, you know, from my own 05:10 previous experiences before I came back 05:12 into the Seventh-day Adventist church. 05:14 I've spent lots of money on drugs 05:19 and you think back and you are like, 05:20 "Man, I could have bought a house." 05:22 You know, I could have bought something fancy. 05:24 But it was so much money 05:25 that was wasted on these things. 05:27 Oh, yeah. 05:28 But talk about how strong those addictions can be. 05:31 You know, some people, I guess, on outside looking in, 05:34 they may say, "Well, how could you, 05:35 you know, spend so much money on that?" 05:37 You know, you have a family, you have this to take care of. 05:39 How could you do that? 05:41 Talk about how strong those addictions sometimes are? 05:44 At that point I didn't know the Lord then so... 05:46 Okay. 05:47 At that point I didn't know why I will scream out to myself 05:51 and I'd say, "What is wrong with me?" 05:53 I can't believe that I'm doing my family this way, 05:55 I can't believe that I've spent the rent money again. 05:58 I can't believe that I've spent the car payment money again. 06:01 I just can't believe it. 06:02 And those things, man, it just... 06:07 the craving was just overwhelming. 06:09 That demonic power would just... 06:12 it's just overwhelming, craving, it's unreal. 06:16 Okay, it is, very much so. 06:17 And I didn't understand what was happening to me 06:18 Okay. 06:20 Now you informed me about 06:22 a roller coaster lifestyle, basically. 06:24 Right. 06:26 You'd have highs, you'd have lows, 06:28 now through out these highs and lows. 06:30 Why do you think it was so difficult for you to shake 06:33 those negative habits and give it up? 06:36 Because, you know, it's a up and down. 06:38 You know, one day it's good, next day it's bad, 06:40 one day it's good, next day it's bad. 06:41 Why do you think it was so difficult? 06:43 Well, at that time, I thought that I can kick it on my own. 06:45 I thought I could stop it by myself. 06:46 I went to rehab, back to rehab, back to rehab, 06:49 you know, and I thought 06:51 I could just kick those things on my own. 06:52 Like I said, I didn't know Christ then, 06:54 but He knew me. 06:55 Okay, okay. Praise the Lord. 06:57 So I really don't... 06:59 Like when I was saying it was a roller coaster ride, 07:02 that's just what it was, 07:03 but it was more of a downhill ride... 07:05 Okay. Than a uphill ride. 07:06 So roller coaster was going straight down. 07:07 Yes, sir. 07:09 Especially when the crack cocaine started. 07:11 When I started doing crack, it was just a downward spiral 07:15 that I just couldn't stop. 07:16 Okay. 07:18 And some people can agree with what I'm saying. 07:19 Oh, yeah. Some people can't. 07:21 They still went like, 07:22 "Why did you do your family that way? 07:24 Why did you keep spending the money? 07:25 Why did you that? 07:26 It was just overwhelming. It was so strong on me. 07:29 It is, it is. 07:30 Now the first time you were married, 07:34 drugs, well played a part in destroying that marriage. 07:37 Talk about that whole situation? 07:38 Well, I was married to a young lady, 07:42 but when I went... 07:43 when we moved to Atlanta, everything was going well. 07:45 Okay. 07:46 When I started, when I went back, 07:48 when I moved back to Knoxville, 07:49 I started just being with my cousins. 07:52 they were selling drugs. 07:54 Hanging out, they were married, I mean, I was married, 07:56 they weren't. They weren't married. 07:58 And I would stay out late, knowing I had a family at home. 08:03 I would even steal money out of my son's piggybank. 08:05 Wow. 08:07 I would just do all these things. 08:08 I would leave my children sometimes 08:11 at night by themselves 08:13 to go out and get drugs. 08:15 How old were the children at this point? 08:16 Oh, two. 08:17 My son Bryson he was two, 08:19 my daughter Oprah, she was just born. 08:22 Wow, wow. Yeah. 08:23 And you would leave them alone? 08:24 Yes, sometimes I would. 08:26 And that very much testifies 08:27 to how strong of a pull these drugs can have on you. 08:30 You know, because when we are in our right minds, 08:32 we never think to leave a two-year-old by themselves. 08:34 Oh, yes. 08:35 Or, you know, a new born by themselves. 08:37 Anything could happen. Right. 08:39 But that just goes to show how strong the addiction can be 08:42 and how it can drive every aspect of your life. 08:47 Now you mentioned a second ago 08:48 that you had been in rehab repeatedly and repeatedly. 08:51 Right. 08:52 Talk about those experiences in rehab? 08:54 Well, when I went to rehab, I usually would... 08:57 When I go... 08:59 at the first time I went to rehab, 09:00 I didn't do it for myself. 09:02 I did it for my job. 09:03 To save my job, I had a job working in a bus company 09:07 and I would have to drive the buses every now and then 09:10 and I went to rehab just to save my job. 09:15 I went to just to get fed sometimes, 09:17 sometimes I went for my family members 09:19 'cause they kept telling me to go. 09:21 I never really would go for myself. 09:23 At first I couldn't see my drug problem. 09:28 I suppose I went to rehab and I didn't. 09:29 I told people, "Okay, I'm going to rehab," 09:31 but I end up getting high that day. 09:33 When I got back to work, 09:35 I end up running somebody over. 09:37 Wow. 09:38 And I ended up crushing their legs. 09:39 And all the hard night. 09:41 You know, they also had to have a surgery. 09:43 And all those things I don't want to get 09:44 too graphic into it. 09:45 Okay, okay. 09:47 Now why is it that you didn't think 09:48 that you had drug problem? 09:50 For those who are on the outside looking in 09:52 they say, "Well, you have a very serious drug problem." 09:56 But why is that you yourself 09:58 didn't think you had a drug problem? 10:00 I think because that the enemy had blinded me. 10:02 Okay. 10:03 The enemy, 10:05 he is something else, I'm telling you. 10:06 Oh, yeah, oh, yeah. 10:07 I think he had blinded me to where he will say, 10:09 "Oh, it's okay." 10:10 You know, it's a certain part in the Bible 10:12 in Proverbs where it says, 10:13 "You hit me, but I didn't feel it." 10:15 You know what I'm saying? 10:16 So you know, it's a, 10:18 he knock me down, he beat me up. 10:20 I got the scars on my face. 10:22 I still have my nose that's broken right here now. 10:25 And so, I have all those physical things wrong 10:29 but guess what? 10:30 I couldn't see it. Okay. 10:31 You know, I'm like "I'm okay, I'm okay. 10:33 I'll be all right. I'll get another job. 10:34 I'll get another car too." 10:35 I'll get another family or I don't need her. 10:39 You know, just the way it was. 10:40 Okay. 10:41 Now you informed me in sharing your testimony with me 10:45 that you wanted God at one point in your life, 10:48 you wanted God. 10:49 You had the tools, you know, to come closer to God. 10:53 Right. 10:54 But you never applied those tools. 10:56 Right. Why not? 10:59 I guess it's just like... 11:00 when I was in rehab they say, 11:01 well, you have the tools to do it, 11:03 you got the AA meetings, the good book, the AA book, 11:06 you have all these things, but if you don't apply. 11:09 It's not gonna work. 11:10 So I had the Lord in my life, I went to prayer meeting. 11:13 I had a Bible and my wife and I prayed all the time. 11:17 We had a lot of things going on, 11:18 I was deacon in the church. Okay. 11:20 But I still didn't apply what I've read, 11:23 what I've studied, to my life. 11:25 I would tell other people what they needed here. 11:28 I would give a good sermon. Okay. 11:29 You know, I could preach a good word. 11:31 But when it comes to me applying it to my life, 11:33 I didn't do it. 11:34 Okay, so, you know, it does make a big difference 11:37 when you are just going to church, 11:39 going to prayer meeting and all these things. 11:41 But you're not actually internalizing these things. 11:43 Right. 11:45 And do you find that it's the same way for others that, 11:48 you know, they're just going to church. 11:50 They're going to prayer meeting. 11:52 They're doing things because maybe somebody else 11:54 wanted them to or they went to rehab 11:55 because somebody else went too. 11:57 But until they start 11:58 to apply those principles to their lives, 12:01 there won't be a difference. 12:02 What do you think about that? 12:04 That's exactly right. 12:05 I totally agree with that 12:07 because we can all look good on the outside. 12:09 Yeah, exactly, it's easy to polish yourself 12:11 and you know dresses right 12:13 and things like that, but internally be messed up. 12:15 Right. 12:16 That's why I love the word 12:17 'cause it's so real 'cause it says, 12:19 "You take on the form of godliness. 12:20 Yeah, but denying the power thereof. 12:21 That's right. 12:23 Oh yeah, definitely, definitely. 12:24 I agree with that. 12:26 And that's a real thing to... 12:27 I think that we all not just to myself and other people 12:29 but everyone needs to do the same thing, 12:32 is to apply these scriptures to our life. 12:36 Because if we don't it's not gonna work. 12:39 Indeed, indeed. We can look good. 12:41 Yes. But it won't work. 12:42 Oh, yeah, oh, yeah. You're right about that. 12:44 Now many people have the notion that, 12:46 you know, I'll use drugs or whatever. 12:48 And that they can stop at anytime. 12:50 Did you ever say to yourself, 12:52 "Well, you know, I can put it down 12:53 any time I want" 12:55 What was that like in your life? 12:58 Yeah, I really thought I could... 13:01 When you said that, 13:03 I really thought I could stop on my own. 13:04 I used to say, "I don't need rehab, 13:06 I don't need anything. 13:08 I can do this by myself." 13:10 I would say that all the time. Okay. 13:13 Especially when I didn't know God, 13:15 when I didn't know Christ. 13:17 My life was a mess. 13:19 It was really a mess. 13:20 And I really thought I can do these things on my own, 13:23 so when I finally went to rehab, 13:25 I said, "Well, I got it now." 13:26 I went to rehab, I went to 30-day program. 13:28 I'm in there. Okay. 13:29 You know, but I didn't ever apply anything. 13:31 I didn't go back to no meetings, 13:32 I didn't read the book, I didn't do anything. 13:34 Yeah, just showing up. 13:36 Right, I can show up. 13:37 Okay. 13:38 On time. 13:40 Oh, yeah. 13:42 What have you seen in other people's lives 13:45 that has caused them 13:46 to continue to repeat the same things? 13:49 They've gone to the AAA meetings 13:50 to twelve-step program. 13:52 They've gone to all these things, 13:53 but yet still 13:55 they seem to repeat the same things over and over. 13:58 What do you think is missing? 14:00 Well, for me I know that God was missing out of it. 14:03 Okay. 14:05 I needed the Lord, I know I needed God. 14:07 Okay. 14:08 But until I got him in my life is 14:10 when my whole life starts changing. 14:12 Okay. Until I screamed out one day. 14:14 I got on my knees and I still remember to this day, 14:17 I said "God, please Lord, I need You, I need Your help." 14:20 Yeah. "Please tell me what to do?" 14:23 And I didn't even know Him, but He knew me, 14:25 so He had put it on my heart and my mind to go here 14:28 and to just try something new. 14:31 Okay. 14:33 You know, so that's when I went to rehab one more time, 14:34 and then He led me to Nashville, 14:37 and I got a whole story on that. 14:39 But I don't want to waste your time with it. 14:41 Oh, you all right. 14:43 Now what were some of the drugs that you were involved in. 14:47 We mentioned marijuana, alcohol, 14:50 the crack and the cocaine. 14:52 What were some of the other things 14:53 that you have used 14:54 and also what are some of the effects 14:57 that you have seen them on your mind, 14:58 on your body, things along those lines? 15:01 Well, as far as... 15:02 That was basically it. Okay. 15:05 The cocaine, alcohol, and the crack. 15:07 Cocaine and crack is totally different. 15:09 Yeah. Oh, yeah definitely. 15:10 That's when you really stepped it to the big league. 15:13 The reason I say that is 15:14 because the damage and effect it have on your family, 15:18 your job, your body, my body... 15:22 sometimes I can't believe 15:23 I hadn't had a heart attack right now 15:25 because of all the drugs I've done. 15:27 And I say guess what, Lord if you want to let me have one 15:30 that's fine because that's the consequence of my action. 15:32 Yeah, okay. 15:34 And I don't, I don't... 15:36 Whatever his consequences are, I am not gonna, 15:39 I am not gonna step in the way of it. 15:41 I don't care what it is because, 15:42 I am trying to live for Him now... 15:45 Definitely. I am not living for me. 15:46 So it caused so much damage and affected my body, 15:50 being out there on the street, 15:51 I've gotten hit over the head with guns, 15:52 I've slept upon the bridges, I've have done it all. 15:55 I've robbed people, I've got robbed, like I said, my nose... 16:00 I got my nose broken. 16:01 Still I hadn't got it fixed yet so... Okay. 16:06 It can cause a toll on your body. 16:07 You're right about that. 16:08 Now you mentioned, the difference between, 16:11 there is a difference between cocaine and crack. 16:15 Now, I know what the difference is, 16:17 but for the viewers 16:18 that don't know what the difference is 16:20 can you explain, expound a little bit upon that? 16:22 Where cocaine is just basically the powder form 16:26 you know, this snorting up in the nose and so forth, 16:29 the rock cocaine, the crack cocaine is 16:32 when you cook it up in a rock form... 16:35 Okay. 16:36 And that's one is the purest... Okay. 16:38 So and that right there where you smoke it. 16:41 And that could cause brain damage, 16:44 you know some people they, 16:45 that's like even when you do the drug it self, 16:47 people slur the mouth. 16:49 turning all these slobber sometimes 16:51 or, you know they... 16:55 but sometimes, that right there 16:57 could damage them permanently. 16:59 'Cause what it is, it causes 17:00 a temporary stroke in the brain, 17:02 and also they said they kind of bores holes in a person's brain 17:07 and stuff like that, 17:08 so that's lot of stuff I learned in rehab. 17:11 I have learned a lot on rehab. Okay, okay. 17:14 Now you have done both of the drugs 17:17 the powder form and the rock form, 17:20 the high effect, 17:21 what's the difference in the high effect? 17:23 Well, the powder form is just, just had me hyper 17:27 running back and forth, I can talk good, 17:29 I can act good, people would never notice, 17:31 They said, man, that guy is just hyper, 17:33 he's just running back and forth... 17:34 And I can testify, I used to snort cocaine also. 17:37 I hear you... 17:38 But I would just, I'm running back and forth, 17:39 I could maintain a job, 17:41 I still kept a little money in my pocket. 17:43 Okay. 17:44 But the crack cocaine when you do that, 17:47 that's you can't, I can't talk... 17:50 It's like a different world... 17:52 I don't want to be around any one. 17:53 I want to be in recluse, I am, you know, just crazy. 18:00 You don't care about anything or anybody except that. 18:03 Yeah, okay. 18:05 Now you eventually got a divorce from your first wife, 18:08 and then you married the wife that you have now, Lisa. 18:12 Talk about the experience, 18:15 how you met but then also the incident that happen, 18:19 that eventually got you incarcerated again? 18:21 Well, when I first met Lisa, 18:24 I started going to a Seventh-day Adventist Church, 18:29 at south Nashville, in Nashville. 18:32 And, I didn't know anything about Sabbath, 18:36 so until I started keeping the Sabbath 18:38 and every thing started working out good, 18:40 you know my whole mindset start changing. 18:43 I am talking about, everything start changing my life, 18:45 once I started keeping the Sabbath, 18:47 So when it started changing, 18:51 I knew, this is what I need to do, 18:52 so as I am not steady, 18:56 I was still struggling with the drugs and alcohol, 18:58 let me remind you. 18:59 So we have been together like seven years, 19:02 at best six years we have been together, 19:04 and she was dealing with alfa known drugs, 19:07 keeping the car out, spending off the money, 19:11 can't keep her job, all these things. 19:13 So it was one day, what happened, 19:17 what the incident was, was that, 19:19 her and I, she had went to work one day. 19:23 And I came home with a girl in a car, 19:26 and our daughter Lea, she has seen the girl in a car. 19:30 So then, late on that night I left, 19:33 late on that night, I came back home, 19:35 and I was by my self. 19:36 So when I knocked on the door, I said Lisa can I come in? 19:40 She said, no you can't come in. 19:41 I said why not, she said, just go back to where you came. 19:43 Like this, so I go back and go get in the car, 19:46 and she comes outside 19:47 and she sprayed pepper spray in my eyes. 19:49 And I had the door open 19:51 as I am trying to hurry up and leave, 19:53 you know she tells her daughter Lea to call the police. 19:56 So she calls the police and so I am trying to hurry up 19:59 and start the car back up, she telling me not to leave, 20:01 while she still spraying pepper spray in my eyes. 20:04 So as I am backing up, 20:06 I ended up running over her and Lea, 20:08 both of them just drag them pulling out in a street, 20:11 I didn't know I did that, you know because I would, 20:13 you know like as I'm on drugs and alcohol, 20:15 and she sprayed pepper spray in my eye. 20:18 And so police, they got behind me, 20:21 they start following me, 20:23 and when I pull back up to the house, 20:25 they follow me so I just went back to the house. 20:28 Not in my right mind, remind you, I'm on drugs... 20:31 Oh, yeah, I understand fully. 20:33 So I ride back up the house 20:35 and when I pull up. I see them lying in a street. 20:38 And I when I get up and I look up, 20:39 I'm trying to straight my eyes, the police hollering at me, 20:42 and the sirens going 20:43 and they're telling me to get down, 20:45 get down on the ground. 20:46 So I just turned at them and started screaming at them, 20:48 walking towards them and they chased me. 20:50 And I fall to the ground and burst my head 20:54 and I really looked at Lea and Lisa 20:57 they have scrapes all over their body. 20:59 You know and... 21:01 Now you ran them completely over? 21:04 I'm really not even sure. Okay. 21:06 but they said I did, they said I ran over once 21:08 and backed up over her, 21:10 if I did that, I can hardly remember. 21:12 Yeah, you know, that's interesting 21:14 that you would say that you can't remember, 21:17 because I've had people tell me when I was on drugs 21:19 and drinking, and things like that, 21:21 that I did certain things to them 21:22 or said certain things 21:23 and I have no recollection of it. 21:25 You know, it's kind of like, it's a period where 21:27 I just blacked out 21:28 and I don't, didn't realize, I said that, 21:31 and people have held grudges against me, 21:34 because of things I have done, 21:35 and I honestly, I don't remember. 21:38 I apologies if I did, I don't remember. 21:42 That's really a testament 21:43 of what drugs would do to your mind. 21:45 It really will mesh your mind up. 21:47 That's also- becoming now, 21:49 but also one of my family members, 21:53 I think they still hold grudge against me now, 21:55 because they said when I was doing the drugs 21:57 I had did some things, 22:00 say it something to them or test them in certain way 22:03 that they felt uncomfortable, 22:05 and so even today, I've wrote them a letter, 22:10 I've said, I was sorry, 22:12 but they still kind of hold on to that, so... 22:16 It does happen sometimes. 22:18 Now, after the incident 22:19 with running over your wife and daughter, 22:24 you were incarcerated 22:25 and you were incarcerated for five months 22:28 and you ended up screaming out to God for help, 22:30 talk about whole experience? 22:32 After that happen, you know, the Bible where it says, 22:38 "And then he came to himself" the Prodigal Son... 22:40 Yeah, the Prodigal Son, yeah. 22:42 So when I came to myself, I was locked up 22:45 and I was like, really how did I get here 22:47 you know, and I physically had to look down at my feet, 22:50 and I look down like what is going on 22:53 and look down at my feet, 22:54 I'm like, man, I'm back in jail again 22:57 for the tenth time. 22:59 So I was, I just couldn't believe it 23:02 so I would cry almost every night for about a week, 23:06 I cried and I say, Lord, 23:08 please I can't believe this is happening, 23:10 you know I'm thinking about my wife and daughter, 23:13 I can't believe that I will never be back with them again, 23:16 you know, so about a week later, 23:19 I mean, I had to get on antidepressants, 23:21 I had to get stuff to make me sleep, 23:23 so I ended up getting up to my knees one night, 23:26 I said, Lord, I say, Lord I promise You, 23:29 I made promises and vows to God that I never made, 23:32 I told the Lord that I promise him 23:34 that I will never latter about money, 23:36 I will never watch porn over again, 23:40 I will never do drugs and alcohol again never, 23:45 those are full promises that I will never do again 23:48 and I haven't broke them. 23:50 Okay, praise the Lord, Praise God. 23:51 Praise God. 23:52 Now talks about, you were charged with attempted murder, 23:55 two counts of it, talk about that situation 23:57 as well as, what it got reduced to? 23:59 Okay, they charged me with that after I ran Lisa and Lea over. 24:04 We're talking about two counts of attempted, 24:06 attempt to murder. 24:07 And what happen was, 24:09 when I had went to jail 24:11 when I ask them my charges I couldn't believe it, 24:14 when they told me that was my charge, 24:15 I was like, it stunned me so much 24:17 that I actually, I literally, you like that, 24:20 So then a couple of days later, 24:25 I got my motion of discovery, 24:28 and when I got there, 24:30 it said two accounts of aggravated assault, 24:32 what it is, first they charged me with just two counts of 24:35 aggravated domestic assault and fleeing with the vehicle. 24:40 They charged me with those three, 24:42 but then, when I finally seen the judge 24:46 they had added like seven other charges on there. 24:50 So I just prayed and they also added child abuse 24:53 on my charges for Lea. 24:56 Wow. Yeah, go ahead. 24:58 Now after this situation, you eventually got out, 25:01 you did five months on it, you got out, 25:04 praise the Lord 25:05 and you got involved 25:07 in a 2nd Chance ministry Halfway House. 25:09 What was the difference this time 25:11 in the Halfway House versus the other times 25:13 you had been to places similar to this? 25:16 Well, this time it was, 25:18 what it is we try not to call that a Halfway House, 25:22 that place is run by Carl Marable. 25:25 He is a very, he is very, very, strong 25:27 he has been through some similar incidents also. 25:30 And what it is we call that... 25:36 He don't, we didn't really called it rehab, 25:39 but it's like a halfway house, still a rehab. 25:41 The thing about it is the rehab center... 25:44 What the difference was the rehab was that 25:45 they tell twelve-step AA and NA, 25:50 but at this place, you study and read the Bible, 25:52 you had test on the Bible, 25:54 you did Bible studies every night, 25:57 you go to church constantly, 25:59 you constantly input God in you, 26:01 instead of AA and NA. 26:02 Okay, okay, now after that, 26:06 after being in there, you changed your life, 26:09 you are pretty much done with every thing. 26:12 What have you seen, in about 30 seconds, 26:14 what have you seen has been the difference 26:16 now versus before? 26:18 In my life? Yes, sir. 26:20 Is that my wife and I is getting along better. 26:24 She can trust me. 26:26 I can trust myself. 26:28 I can keep a job. 26:33 That's about it. Okay. 26:35 You know, and it is a big difference 26:37 when we give our life to Jesus. 26:39 We start to see this change. 26:40 And it's not just one area of our lives. 26:42 It's in all aspects of our lives. 26:44 Now I want you to talk to the viewers, 26:46 I want you to look into the camera 26:47 and talk to the viewers real briefly, 26:48 about what you have seen in your life, 26:52 and what they need to do 26:54 to prevent from going down that same road. 26:56 Okay. 26:57 Well, if I was to speak anyone out there, 27:01 I would just say 27:02 just try your best to do the right thing. 27:05 Stop hanging around the wrong crowd. 27:07 Don't hang around the wrong crowd, 27:10 start reading your word more, 27:12 listen to your parents, if they're still alive. 27:17 That's just basically it. 27:18 Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord. 27:20 And it makes a big difference listening to the parents 27:23 if they are in the home, doing what's right, 27:26 you know, and it's so hard in today's society. 27:29 But that's the best encouragement, 27:31 best advice that you could give 27:33 is for them to stay rooted and grounded, 27:36 and what they know is right. 27:39 Thank you so much, thank you so much, Mr. Logan, 27:42 for being on the program. 27:44 Sorry that we ran out of time 27:45 for your amazing testimony but God is good. 27:48 Viewers, we'd like to thank you for tuning in 27:51 to this exciting program of The New Journey. 27:54 Please be sure to tune in next time 27:55 for another exciting episode of The New Journey. 27:58 Until then be blessed. |
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